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Life Is Weird

 I've decided that life is weird. There's nothing wrong with weird, there just isn't anything good with it. I wish I could understand why I feel this way. I'm not sure why I have the desire to live most days. I need to figure out what to do with life. There is so much to figure out. I don't have a clue where to start. Gah, there's got to be something.

There should be a way to figure out this life. I mean everyone goes through a phase like this don't they? You have to figure out life and how it goes at some point in your life. Why haven't I been able to figure it out yet?

Maybe life could figure itself out for me? Is that a thing? I'm not quite certain how it works. Not now at least. There needs to be something I am able to do about it. Anything at all. But it doesn't feel like I am able to do anything right now.

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