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More Psychosis

So…last night, when I was in bed. I kept hearing a voice. I can’t remember what it was saying, but I do remember it getting madder as I was yelling at it to stop. I just wanted the damn voice to stop, and I couldn’t make it stop! Oh man that was annoying, so very annoying that it wouldn’t stop and I couldn’t make it stop. Life feels so difficult at times with these voices doing whatever the hell they want to do in my head. I can’t seem to shake them. Maybe I need to be put on a different medication? I’m not sure. I just want to feel normal, whatever normal is. I’m not even sure I know what normal is now! Talk about a nightmare. A living nightmare that I cannot control in any way, shape, or form. I want it to end somehow. I don’t even know how to make that possible.

Translation

Descriptions Tight vs Loose Translation The Book of Mormon is a sacred text of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, and it has been translated into many languages around the world. When translating the Book of Mormon, there are two main approaches: tight translation and loose translation. Tight translation is a method of translation that strives to be as faithful as possible to the original text. This means that the translator will try to preserve the exact wording and structure of the original text, even if it may sound awkward or unnatural in the target language. The goal of tight translation is to maintain the integrity of the original text and to convey its meaning as accurately as possible. Loose translation, on the other hand, is a method of translation that prioritizes readability and naturalness in the target language. This means that the translator may take some liberties with the wording and structure of the original text in order to make it sound more natural ...

The Nature Of God

Joseph Smith said: God himself was once as we are now, and is an exalted man, and sits enthroned in yonder heavens! That is the great secret. If the veil were rent today, and the great God who holds this world in its orbit, and who upholds all worlds and all things by His power, was to make himself visible—I say, if you were to see him today, you would see him like a man in form—like yourselves in all the person, image, and very form as a man; for Adam was created in the very fashion, image and likeness of God, and received instruction from, and walked, talked and conversed with Him, as one man talks and communes with another. 1 God has passions like we do. He has body parts like we do. Joseph didn’t always think this way of course, there was a time when he thought God was a spirit. His teachings changed over the course of time though. In the Lectures on Faith, Joseph described God as thus: There are two personages who constitute the great, matchless, governing and supreme power ...

Polygamy

Joseph Smith tried to teach the doctrine of polygamy to early saints. They rejected it. Joesph then said basically let’s forget I ever said anything about it. When the prophet “went to his dinner,” [Joseph Lee] Robinson wrote, “as it might be expected several of the first women of the church collected at the Prophet’s house with his wife [and] said thus to the prophet Joseph O mister Smith you have done it now it will never do it is all but Blassphemy you must take back what you have said to day is it is outrageous it would ruin us as a people.” So in the afternoon session Smith again took the stand, according to Robinson, and said “Brethren and Sisters I take back what we said this morning and leave it as though there had been nothing said.” 1 After that, he taught the doctrine privately to those who would obey it and not question it. He kept polygamy even from his wife who did not know that he married other women. She wouldn’t find out until later, and even later in life she woul...

Race Controversy

This is a very delicate topic to discuss. Let’s start at the end and work our way backwards. There are statements in our literature by the early Brethren which we have interpreted to mean that the Negroes would not receive the priesthood in mortality. I have said the same things, and people write me letters and say, “You said such and such, and how is it now that we do such and such?” And all I can say to that is that it is time disbelieving people repented and got in line and believed in a living, modern prophet. Forget everything that I have said, or what President Brigham Young or President George Q. Cannon or whomsoever has said in days past that is contrary to the present revelation. We spoke with a limited understanding and without the light and knowledge that now has come into the world. 1 They want us to forget what has happened in the past and focus on the new things in the world. How can we forget the past? If we forget the past we are doomed to repeat it. They would like...

The Cross

I do not wish to give offense to any of my Christian colleagues who use the cross on the steeples of their cathedrals and at the altars of their chapels, who wear it on their vestments, and imprint it on their books and other literature. But for us, the cross is the symbol of the dying Christ, while our message is a declaration of the Living Christ. … … The lives of our people must become the most meaningful expression of our faith and, in fact, therefore, the symbol of our worship. 1 The LDS Church doesn’t believe in using the cross as a symbol. The cross is a representation of the Dying Christ where the LDS would rather focus on the Living Christ. You won’t find a cross in any of the churches, on steeples, or anything of the like. Until now. The LDS Church has put up a statue of Jesus carrying his cross in Temple Square. True it is a key component in Jesus’ life. He died on the cross for our sins. But believing in a resurrected living Christ is oh so much more important than a ...

Dear Dad

March 26, 2026 Dear Dad, I don’t know how to say this. Mom’s just not doing that great these days. It’s difficult to see her going through everything she’s going through. She’s going through a lot right now. It breaks my heart to think she has to go through all of this. It doesn’t feel fair to her. Life is hell. That’s what I’ve decided. It’s not fair especially to those who are going through a difficult time. The truth of the matter is she needs you now more than ever. I don’t know how you can help from the other side of things, but that’s what she needs right now. I wish I could do something for her, but I am unable to do anything but listen to whatever she has to say. So I’m trying to do my best to put on a brave face for her. I fear that it isn’t enough and I need to do more. Love, Kyle

Hell On Earth

While there is no official verse in the Holy Bible about Hell being on Earth. It sure does feel that way at times. The struggles we face on a day-to-day basis make it feel like we are going through Hell here on Earth. It can’t be a literal Hell as i believe there is no such place. I feel Hell is a state of mind. Absence from the presence of God. Isn’t that what we’re going through in this life? We are separated from God. He isn’t here. We aren’t there. If Hell is here, Heaven sure isn’t. After the War in Heaven 1/3rd of the hosts of heaven were cast down to Earth. That is Lucifer (aka Satan) and his followers were sent to Earth without a mortal body. Satan is miserable, he wants us all to be miserable like he is as he cannot get a body. So, if Satan and his followers are allowed to roam the Earth trying to persuade us to do evil things or things contrary to God’s will, is this not Hell? They say Hell is a separation between you and God. There are different stages of Hell of course. A...

The Glory Of God

The glory of God is intelligence, or, in other words, light and truth. 1 God receives His glory through His children being obedient to the laws and ordinances of the gospel. The more obedient we are, the more glory god receives. Which if you think about it, if we become exulted, and have children of our own, their obedience will bring us glory in which we will glorify the Father. Feels like a never ending process. In order to achieve the Celestial Kingdom, you have to go through the temple and obey all of those ordinances and covenants. Which means paying ten percent of your income. Feels like a pay to play kind of deal, even though they say that’s not the case. But I digress. That is a discussion for another time. By this we understand that the principle of power, which existed in the bosom of God, by which the worlds were framed, was faith; and that it is by reason of this principle of power, existing in the Deity, that all created things exist—so that all things in heaven, on ...

Adam God Theory (Doctrine)

For a time in the 1800s, a theory was taught regarding Adam and God. The gist of the theory was this, that Adam is God. It has been disavowed by later LDS leaders: Yes, President Young did teach that Adam was the Father of our spirits, and all the related things that the cultists ascribe to him. This however, is not true. He expressed views that are out of harmony with the gospel…. Wise gospel students do not build their philosophies of life on the quotations of individuals, even though those quotations come from presidents of the Church. 1 Here’s a sample of the teaching where Brigham Young claims God revealed it to him: How much unbelief exists in the minds of the Latter-day Saints in regard to one particular doctrine which I revealed to them, and which God revealed to me – namely that Adam is our father and God – I do not know, I do not inquire, I care nothing about it. Our Father Adam helped to make this earth, it was created expressly for him, and after it was made he and hi...

Fatal Decisions

There are some decisions that I like to call “fatal decisions”. That is, once a decision is made it cannot be undone. It’s set in stone, and there is no going back. There’s a good example of this thought in a song lyric: Tattoos of memories, and dead skin on trial. 1 What it boils down to is this: You either make decisions in this life that have lasting consequences, or you make decisions that are temporary. These fall into two categories. “Fatal Decisions” and “Temporary Decisions”. I think it is better for us to make more Temporary Decisions. Fatal Decisions tend to be more lasting and riskier. We can back out of Temporary Decisions. The decision to make one or the other isn’t always up to us though. It would be nice if that decision was always in our control, but life doesn’t always work out that way. Sometimes we are forced into making a Fatal Decision. There is no escape from it, and escape is something that is very tempting. We want to be able to change things in our lives. ...

Article Of Faith 4

We believe that the first principles and ordinances of the Gospel are: first, Faith in the Lord Jesus Christ; second, Repentance; third, Baptism by immersion for the remission of sins; fourth, Laying on of hands for the gift of the Holy Ghost. There are four main parts to this: Faith in Jesus Christ Repentance Baptism by immersion Gift of the Holy Ghost They all kinda make sense if you think about them, and they seem to go in order. I’m not just saying they belong together, they actually go in the order they’re listed. Some believe there’s an unofficial fifth thing we have to do in order to get back home to God. That fifth item is Enduring to the End. For the longest time, Endure to the End was the unofficial catchphrase as it were of the church. Now I think that’s changed to stay on the covenant path. Acts 4:10-12 tells us that Jesus is the only way we can be saved. It’s through faith on Him that leads us to salvation. Don’t forget, it was Jesus that said: … I am the way,...

Article Of Faith 3

We believe that through the Atonement of Christ, all mankind may be saved, by obedience to the laws and ordinances of the Gospel. There’s a catch to the third Article of Faith. It says we are saved through Christ, but by obeying and following rules aka works. Which is kinda funny if you think about it, the bible says that we are saved through grace not works. 1 If we depend on our works to get into heaven and be saved, we are boasting of our talents. I don’t believe that we are saved by works. I believe we are saved by grace. 2 Being saved by works feels like a slap to Christ and God by thinking that we can save ourselves. We cannot save ourselves no matter how hard we try. Sure, our works and deeds we do in this life will be looked at during the final judgment. But in the end, Jesus Christ is our advocate with the Father. The Father demands justice while Christ knows the pain and anguish that we’ve gone through while living this life. This is made possible through the atonemen...

Thoughts On Life And Death

Introduction There are two parts to this world. Life and Death. That’s all there is to it. You’re either alive or you’re dead. I’d like to explore a little bit of each of these thoughts with you. Life is a weird thing Death happens for everyone Life Is a Weird Thing So, let’s embrace the weirdness of life and make the most of it. 1 Life can be considered strange at best. It tends to make matters interesting and change them into forms that we don’t have the ability to understand at times. I suppose that’s just a fact of life, and we must try to allow it to happen. I tend to think of myself as a penguin. If I am a penguin, then I don’t have to feel human emotions. I can simply ignore any human emotions and feelings that I have. I can waddle to and fro as I please and not worry about human things, or things that keep me down as a human. 2 Not to mention, have you ever seen a penguin just slide on their stomachs? Yeah, now that’s cool. Depression Is Real So, let’s face it, I...

Veronica Mars - End Of Season 4 (Spoilers)

 Woah I did not see that coming until Logan walked out to the car. I was like, "He's gonna die." He did. How dare they do him dirty like that! I enjoyed Veronica and Logan as a couple. I was rooting for them throughout the series and they finally got married. Finally obtained some sort of peace. I get why the producer wanted it to happen. He wanted to go a little bit darker and needed Veronica on her "A" game. She does that best when there's tragedy in her life. Lilly Kane, now Logan. Overall I enjoyed the series. I've yet to watch the 2014 movie that was made. I don't own HBOMax and can't watch it on Hulu because of that. So I need to find a different streaming platform to get it from. Probably buy it on Apple TV.  I already want to do a re watch of the entire series. There are some good slow burn story lines in there. Season 3 seemed to have a few major plot points, it wasn't as slow a burn as season one and two. That's okay with me tho...

Dear Dad

March 9, 2026 Dear Dad, Today is another day. I’m not sure what to think about it all, but it’s a day for sure. There’s some scary stuff happening as of late, and I don’t have anyone to talk to it about. I can only think about it and the thinking worries me to no end. I hate it. I know you would have some words of wisdom for me, but I can’t imagine what they would be yet. I wish you were around to talk to. But you aren’t. I can’t just call you up and say hey this is what’s going on, what should I do? Yeah that’s not possible right now. No matter how much I wish it would be, I can’t find a way to think of what you would say to me. You would calm me down about all that’s going on, I know that to be true. I guess I’ll have to just find a way to figure it all out. I’m sorry. Love, Kyle