I Didn't Ask To Be Born

 You hear the phrase "I didn't ask to be born" over and over again. It's in the media; people say it out loud in frustration and the like. Did any of us ask to be here? Maybe there was a time before we came to Earth and were born that we chose to be here, we just don't remember it. I know some religions believe that to be the case. Not everyone does believe that to be true, but some do. It's an interesting concept. To have one's memories wiped of another lifetime and then they are born on Earth.

On Earth we experience things like grief and pain. Loneliness and sadness. All of the different emotions that make us who we are. Coming to terms with loss can be difficult at times, and it's a thing that we go through several times in our lifetime. Loss isn't just something that's made up, it's deeply rooted within us. It's not surface level deep, and it sucks.

Personally, I wish I didn't have to suffer through loss. But I'm human and that's what I have to do. Losing a loved one can happen in many ways. Death isn't the only way. There are other ways to feel loss.

There has to be a way to get through this. I just don't know how to do it. Life tends to come at us faster than we can say lightbulb and that's not a good thing. It can be confusing at times. I know to me it's confusing a lot of the time. I don't know how else to put it.

Being divorced twice now I don't see happiness in marriage. I only remember the bad times, the sad times, the times that makes me want to go mad. I know there were good times, but my mind just seems to block it for some reason. I wish things could have turned out differently. But they didn't and here I am now experiencing loss a second time. It's not an easy thing to go through.

First there was the death of my father and now this. Why must life bring about so many terrible things at once on me? I don't understand.