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Overthinking Yet Again

Overthinking, yet again. I’m not sure what to think about this life most days. If I said it was confusing, that would be telling the truth. But what can I do about it? Not much I’m afraid. Not much at all. That’s how the cookie crumbles at times. It’s a silly thought now isn’t it? That’s what I was thinking too! If life had a purpose, what would it be? There are so many things in this life which require our undivided attention. You cannot deny that as a fact. It’s proof that life exists for a reason. A pretty good reason if you ask me. Life, at various times, is full of surprises. They can be good or bad, I think it all depends on the situation. Nothing in life is set in stone as it is always on the move towards adventure. But we can’t always be tied down to that which we don’t have. We don’t have control over things we don’t have or aren’t in our orbit. ’Tis the beast’s true nature that one. Confusing at times? Most definitely. Talk about an upset on a most terrible scale of terrib...

What Is This Life?

So, what is this life exactly? We come here, we’re born that is. We seek out to do that which is good eternally and then we die? Is that all there is to it? I mean sure we’re meant to build up the Kingdom of God on the Earth as it were, but we can’t do it alone now can we? It would be nice if there was a guidebook that we could follow. No I’’m not talking about the Bible, sure that’s a good guidebook in itself, but there are problems with it. Not talking about the Book of Mormon either. There are problems with that too. But I’m not allowed to speak out against such matters, it is too sacred a thing to do so. So I don’t. If I had to wager a guess at what this life is all about, I would hazard a guess that it is something unique and special. That’s about as basic as I can get. There doesn’t appear to be anything else that can be said about it all. I wish there was, but I am unable to fully see what it is all about. Maybe life will have a way of letting me in on that secret someday? I d...

Life, What Are You?

Seriously. What is this life that we are even aware of its existence? I’m not sure I understand what’s going on most days. It feels like a simple possibility that I should be able to figure out whatever it is going through my mind? But I don’t understand it right now. So many things have happened this year, and I feel like I’m in a rut. I don’t know what to do about any of it. It would be nice to have some kind of perspective of what to do about life.

Life Used To Make Sense

Life used to make a good deal of sense back in the day. Now? I’m not so sure about any of it. I mean it’s here? But it feels like a completely different life than what I’m used to. I’m sure I’m at fault because of that. But what’s there to say about it all? I don’t know. I’d like to know, but I highly doubt it will jump out at me anytime soon. The future will tell all. As for me? I’ll be lucky if I don’t go to Hell on my way getting there.

Anxiety

So I was diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder in 2003. I believe I was also diagnosed with Social Anxiety disorder. For those not in the know, here’s the rundown: General Anxiety Disorder: Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) is a chronic mental health condition characterized by excessive, uncontrollable, and persistent worry about everyday events. Unlike normal stress, GAD involves disproportionate fear and anxiety that occurs on most days for at least six months, severely impacting daily functioning. Social Anxiety Disorder: Social anxiety disorder (SAD), formerly known as social phobia, is a chronic mental health condition characterized by an intense, persistent fear of being watched, judged, or humiliated by others. It goes far beyond normal shyness and can severely disrupt daily life, work, and relationships. So um yeah that’s happening right now. I honestly hate it. I don’t know what to do about any of it to be honest. My mind gets racing, my thoughts get overwhelmed an...