Skip to main content

Posts

Showing posts from 2007

Why Is Life This Way?

Why is life this way? I often wonder what’s going on with it, but I don’t have a clue how it’s meant to be at times. I wish I had a clue, honestly. But I don’t, so what’s the point of it all? If It’s meant to be a curse then let it be a curse. But, if it’s meant to be something different? Let it be different. Don’t let it be what you want it to be, be what it’s meant to be. Allow life to be whatever it needs to be, there’s nothing wrong with that. There are things in this life we don’t have control over, and that’s okay! If we can simply allow ourselves to become the better person, then we can allow such a life to continue. We can allow it to make us and form us, shape us even into the people we’re supposed to be.

What Is This Life?

So, what is this life exactly? We come here, we’re born that is. We seek out to do that which is good eternally and then we die? Is that all there is to it? I mean sure we’re meant to build up the Kingdom of God on the Earth as it were, but we can’t do it alone now can we? It would be nice if there was a guidebook that we could follow. No I’’m not talking about the Bible, sure that’s a good guidebook in itself, but there are problems with it. Not talking about the Book of Mormon either. There are problems with that too. But I’m not allowed to speak out against such matters, it is too sacred a thing to do so. So I don’t. If I had to wager a guess at what this life is all about, I would hazard a guess that it is something unique and special. That’s about as basic as I can get. There doesn’t appear to be anything else that can be said about it all. I wish there was, but I am unable to fully see what it is all about. Maybe life will have a way of letting me in on that secret someday? I d...

Life, What Are You?

Seriously. What is this life that we are even aware of its existence? I’m not sure I understand what’s going on most days. It feels like a simple possibility that I should be able to figure out whatever it is going through my mind? But I don’t understand it right now. So many things have happened this year, and I feel like I’m in a rut. I don’t know what to do about any of it. It would be nice to have some kind of perspective of what to do about life.

Life Used To Make Sense

Life used to make a good deal of sense back in the day. Now? I’m not so sure about any of it. I mean it’s here? But it feels like a completely different life than what I’m used to. I’m sure I’m at fault because of that. But what’s there to say about it all? I don’t know. I’d like to know, but I highly doubt it will jump out at me anytime soon. The future will tell all. As for me? I’ll be lucky if I don’t go to Hell on my way getting there.

Anxiety

So I was diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder in 2003. I believe I was also diagnosed with Social Anxiety disorder. For those not in the know, here’s the rundown: General Anxiety Disorder: Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) is a chronic mental health condition characterized by excessive, uncontrollable, and persistent worry about everyday events. Unlike normal stress, GAD involves disproportionate fear and anxiety that occurs on most days for at least six months, severely impacting daily functioning. Social Anxiety Disorder: Social anxiety disorder (SAD), formerly known as social phobia, is a chronic mental health condition characterized by an intense, persistent fear of being watched, judged, or humiliated by others. It goes far beyond normal shyness and can severely disrupt daily life, work, and relationships. So um yeah that’s happening right now. I honestly hate it. I don’t know what to do about any of it to be honest. My mind gets racing, my thoughts get overwhelmed an...