Thu May 28 07:57:02 AM MDT 2026 Seriously, what is this life all about these days? I’m not sure I understand it at all. It would be nice to be able to figure it all out eventually. But I’m not sure how to do even that. I mean I can guess and guess until I come up with something? But I don’t know how to do that exactly. There are so many things in this life that get confusing and I hate it. I think life has a way of fucking with you, and we don’t quite know how to deal with it when it does that to us. It’s a messed up world after all. I mean look around, there are so many things going on in life that we don’t understand, so many things that we take for granted. So many impossible things that need to be explored but we don’t because they might be supernatural. We tend to blame a lot of things on God. If life goes good? It was God’s doing. If life goes bad? God has a plan for us and we just need to be patient &c. I’d like to think God is up there watching and rooting for us, even w...
Today I was awarded “Student of the Month” at school. They played some patriotic songs while we waited for the ceremony to begin. My thoughts weren’t on the ceremony at all, I was too busy thinking about all the people who died yesterday and will probably die today due from complications to what happened yesterday. I wondered if they would say anything about the 11th, but they didn’t. It was business as usual kind of thing. The ceremony was nice, my parents were there to cheer me on. I know it’s not a glamorous award, I mean they hand them out every month. But it felt good to be recognized.