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Depression

 I'm facing a bout of depression lately. It's been going on for about a week now. I only hope I will be able to get over this and move on with life. Depression isn't fun. It's the day in day out of feeling worthless, useless, hopeless. And a majority of other things. I wish I knew how to just kick it, but I don't. I only know how to do my best and push through it. Use my tools I have ready and go forth with that. I'd rather not talk about what brought me down into this depressive state. It's not something I am comfortable with. So, I won't be touching on it.

If I had the ability, I would just fix my mental health and not visit depression ever again. But I don't think it's that easy. But a guy can dream, can't he? Yeah, that's what I was thinking. Just hoping for a better life is all I can do. I can work my way through all of it and just hope for the best.

This life isn't easy. Nothing is ever easy when it comes to life. That's just how the tic tac tumbles. (Or whatever phrase you prefer of course.) So many things I wish for. Yet I cannot do anything about it. Not now at least. For now, I can only focus on that which plagues me at the current moment.

Be well.

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