DreamSense

 There are so many things in this life that I wish could end. My life being one of them. I know it's not a good thing to think about or obsess over. But hey this is life and that's what happens in life. Call it depression, call it anxiety, call it a mixture of the two. Call it whatever you want. But I want to die. I don't expect anyone to understand my reasons for wanting death over life. Maybe it's because I miss my dad so much, I want to be with him on the other side. There's nothing for me here. Not anymore. I mean what can be done about this? I fear there's nothing that can be done. I feel so lost without the ability to do anything about it. So lost and afraid and alone with my thoughts. Such thoughts can be dangerous to have. I don't know if I have the ability to overcome these thoughts. They constantly bother me, they annoy me. I need to figure out a way to move on. Move On. What an odd combination of words right now considering I'm moving. It woul...

 Let's face it, life is hard at times. I don't know how else to say it. I mean there are just times in life that doesn't make sense. I'm not quite sure I can understand everything that happens or goes on. I wish I had the ability to grasp something, anything to make things have sense. Some kind of sense is all I'm seeking for. If I could find a way to make this life better, I would make it work out for me. But again, I don't know how to do that. Maybe I'm not meant to understand anything. Is that possible? I think it quite is. So many things I wish for and I can't seem to manage to make things work out for me. I guess I'll never know what's going to happen in life. I don't think anyone ever knows what the future will hold. They can take a wild guess at what might take place or happen, but there's no real telling what  will  happen. 

 Woah I did not see that coming until Logan walked out to the car. I was like, "He's gonna die." He did. How dare they do him dirty like that! I enjoyed Veronica and Logan as a couple. I was rooting for them throughout the series and they finally got married. Finally obtained some sort of peace. I get why the producer wanted it to happen. He wanted to go a little bit darker and needed Veronica on her "A" game. She does that best when there's tragedy in her life. Lilly Kane, now Logan. Overall I enjoyed the series. I've yet to watch the 2014 movie that was made. I don't own HBOMax and can't watch it on Hulu because of that. So I need to find a different streaming platform to get it from. Probably buy it on Apple TV.  I already want to do a re watch of the entire series. There are some good slow burn story lines in there. Season 3 seemed to have a few major plot points, it wasn't as slow a burn as season one and two. That's okay with me tho...

 So I finally finished watching Farscape. The end of season 4 was like, WOAH!!! How could they do that to them??? Then I watched the Peacekeeper Wars two part movie. It wrapped up the series nicely. Granted the show could have lasted for more years to come, but it didn't. Oh well, what can you do? The show's been over for how many years now? It was a good run.

 Yeah I know I'm a day late. But it's the new year. Some people make new years resolutions. I prefer to make goals. That way if you fail to do your goal, it's not like a whole new year is going down hill and crashing and burning. I always tend to ruin my new years resolutions. Sometimes even on the first day of the year. So I'd rather make goals instead. So that's just life in a nutshell. So make goals for this year. Not resolutions. I'd rather not think about everything that happens during a new year though. It can get depressing, that's for sure. So in order to not be depressed, it's time to bring out the good vibes and make everything just happy again. This year is  that  year.