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Friday's Come So Slow...

Fri Jun 12 09:10:21 AM MDT 2026 Today is Friday! (Friyay!) But it feels like they come so slow. It’s sad when you look forward to the weekend. I’m not sure how that ever came on the radar, but that’s what this life feels like at times. I wish I didn’t feel this way most weeks, but that’s how I feel. It would be nice to be able to get over whatever is causing this, but what am I going to do about it? So many questions that don’t have a way of making sense. There is never a way to make sense of it all I suppose, that’s what this life is all about. If I had a way to make the future possible? I would so be on that. I’m not sure how that works though. There needs to be a way to make this life manageable. I doubt there seems to be a way to overcome anything. So many possibilities and thought processes out there, I doubt there is a way to overcome a lot in this life. Fri Jun 12 10:09:44 AM MDT 2026 I wish I could understand what this life is meant to turn out to be! I don’t get it most da...

Today Is A Day

Thu Jun 11 11:18:25 AM MDT 2026 Let’s talk about what today is. Today is a rather ungrateful day. It’s a Thursday, so that’s got to mean something. Of course I thought yesterday was Thursday. Such a bummer. I’m freezing today. I don’t know how hot it’s supposed to get outside? But I feel cold. I don’t usually feel cold in the summertime. I hope I’m not getting sick or coming down with something. I’m sitting in my office and I have my minky on my lap because I’m freezing! Sami’s friend dropped off some chairs so we have a place to sit now. They’re nice oversized comfy chairs too! Only cost her eight dollars, so that’s what we paid for them. It feels good to have a place to sit in while writing or watching TV again. Talk about a good thing to have around. Last night, I had some crazy thoughts. Typical “life is a simulation” thought process. I don’t know why I am having these thoughts. They seem to come out of nowhere. It just happens to be that way though. I’m not crazy, sure I’ve be...

Oh Life, You Bastard

Wed Jun 10 08:43:42 AM MDT 2026 Life, you’re such a fickle son of a bitch. I’m not sure how you do it, day in and day out. There’s always something going on where we don’t have a clue about what to do. If swearing up a storm would fix things? I would be swearing all day long. But it doesn’t fix a damn thing. See I just swore, and it didn’t do anything. I rest my case. If life had a purpose, what would it be exactly? I’m not sure I know the difference between life’s purpose and anything else that’s out there. To speak of such things, feels rather illogical at times. Why pursue something that you cannot obtain? Maybe that is the goal in this life. See what you can do, and see what will become of it? Not sure. Don’t know. Wed Jun 10 09:33:27 AM MDT 2026 If today had a theme, what would it be? I wonder. I think it would be psychosis is a bad thing that can happen to you and you don’t know how it will affect you. Yeah, something like that. Wed Jun 10 10:37:25 AM MDT 2026 If I had a do...

Seriously, What Is Life?

Tue Jun 9 01:56:22 PM MDT 2026 I tend to wonder what this life is all about at times. I’m not sure I quite understand everything that happens in life? But that’s okay. Maybe if I had an inkling of what this life was about, I could answer my own question regarding it. But I doubt that will ever happen or take place. Life has a tendency to hide when certain things come out of nowhere. If I had my own way of doing things? I would figure it all out in one fail swoop. That way it would be understood without question. Naturally that isn’t the case, no such method exists for anyone out there. Life is tricky that way. It can foul you up long before you know it’s doing it. Perhaps I can try and figure something else out about this life. Something I haven’t thought about yet? Now there’s a thought. I…I don’t know exactly what the purpose of this life is meant to be. Some say it’s so we can be happy. Others believe it’s so we can grow from the experiences we have. I don’t know what any of that...

Walmart and Customer Service AI

Wednesday, September 2, 2026 I had to call Walmart Customer Service today regarding logging into my Walmart+ account. So that went…interestingly. An AI bot answered my phone call. They seemed quite attentive to my needs, walked me through getting into my account. We never got into my account, so I have to make a new one. But it was interesting to basically have an almost “human” conversation with an AI bot. I’m sure it will just increase in knowledge as time moves on. That will happen before the AI Uprising of 2030. Yeah that’s when I’m predicting it. We don’t have much time before that happens!

What Will Today Bring?

Wednesday, September 02, 2026 I often wonder what today will bring. It doesn’t have to be complex. Just a simple question to be fair. I wish I could see into the future. If I could do that, I might be able to determine which is the best road to go down. Life wise anyway. We can’t all be like Robert Frost and take “The Road Less Taken.” That’s just not how this life works at times. Doesn’t feel fair at times if you ask me. I wish I could see into the future. But I guess if I could do that, the future wouldn’t be special for me.

What Is Life Exactly?

Mon Jun 8 08:08:34 AM MDT 2026 I’d like to know for a fact what this life is all about. I don’t seem to understand its true potential most of the time. What is one’s own true potential? I’m not sure I even understand what that’s all about. Are we ever meant to fully understand what this life is about? I doubt it. It remains a mystery to us all. Why does life have to be a mystery at all? I don’t get it. I mean it makes sense on some level? But not really. Maybe life isn’t meant to be figured out at all? I mean that’s possible right? Right?! Yeah, that’s what I was thinking. Apricots are delicious! I have some this morning for breakfast, that and toast. I rather enjoy me a good apricot. Cute little fuzzy things they are! I like those and peaches most. Who knows what other fruits I enjoy. It’s been a while since I’ve actually enjoyed some fruit. I need to change that in my diet. Mon Jun 08 09:25:05 AM MDT 2026 If life had a purpose, what would that purpose be? I mean we’re here for ...

Another Day?

Fri Jun 5 07:47:57 AM MDT 2026 It’s another Friday! Or as I like to call it Friyay! Yeah it’s stupid I know, but it’s a thing. Don’t squash it. I’d like to be able to wake up without some kind of rooster going off in my ear. I don’t think they’re legal where I live? But then again, I doubt the neighbors even care. Then there’s the cats. So many cats. Cats with babies, cats without babies, cats making babies. It goes on and on, and there’s nothing I can do about that either. Talk about crazy! I keep having these … dreams. I’d call them nightmares? But I’m not sure if they are at times. They’re rather troubling to me. Some are sexual in nature. Others are just there waiting for me to say or do something about them. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to have these dreams anymore. I don’t think I think about sex a lot. I don’t know where these dreams are coming from. Then there are dreams that feel like I’m reliving memories. Memories I don’t want to have. I’d call them a previous l...

What's In A Day

Thu Jun 4 02:05:29 PM MDT 2026 Well, today is another day. It would be nice to be able to understand this stress and anxiety I have been facing. It’s been going on for far too long. I need it to stop, or find a way to make it stop. Some medication can help from time to time, but I don’t want to be reliant on that medication every single day. I don’t know, maybe there’s no way to get around that thought process? Not sure. Not sure I ever know what this life is all about with these challenges I face on a day-to-day basis. Easier than it sounds, right? Yeah…that’s what I’ve been thinking. Too many damn thoughts in my mind at times. I’m not sure what to do with them all. Some are out to get me, I fear. I can’t let them win though. They need to stay the hell away from me! Life has its ups and downs, no one can argue that point. It’s not meant to be a terrible place to live in, but if I can’t figure it out? What am I supposed to do about it? I don’t know. Thu Jun 04 02:21:33 PM MDT 2026...

What Is It About Life?

Will the Real McCoy stand up please? We have to be able to have a consensus about this life, we can't allow it to simply be and then allow it to become whatever it wants to be because it can't determine what's going on. Does that make sense? I'm not sure it does...but if it did, then I'd allow it to happen. Life has to find a way to become what it needs to become, not what it wants to become...but what it needs to become. Life will eventually get there, but not until it finds a way to make it so we all understand what's happening with everything that goes on in this life. Don't allow life to overthrow itself. You'll regret it, every step of the way.

What Is Life?

Tue Jun 2 11:35:44 AM MDT 2026 I’m not sure I understand this life much at all. It would be nice to be able to understand something from this life, but I’m not sure I can even get that far. It will be whatever it wants to be? I guess? Yeah, I’m not so sure about it. Life will just be life. Whatever it wants to be, it will be that. So I will have to deal with whatever comes my way. I guess. Yeah, that’s the gist of it I suppose. I mean, what else can it be? Man I wish the voices would stop. They’re fucking with my head, my mind, my soul even. I don’t know how to get them to stop. But they have to at some point don’t they? I wish they would just go away.

It's Raining Outside

It’s raining outside right now. Supposed to rain all day long. I don’t know what to think about all of that though. It’s rain, I mean we need it…I understand that. But with rain there is so much more to it than that. We can drown in rain if there’s too much of it can’t we? Yeah, that’s what I was thinking. Rain will always be around. There’s no stopping it. Rain woln’t destroy us, God made sure of that promise. I think something about a rainbow int he sky. So He won’t flood the Earth a second time. Talk about a relief. Rain will continue to fall though. It just woln’t be as dangerous.

The voices want me dead...still

So the voices want me dead still. I don't know why they want this from me, but it's not something I'm willing to give up. If they were to try to understand the real me, they would grasp that they don't need me gone. I'm not sure they know what's going on with that train of thought. They are simply voices after all. They don't hagve to understand a thing in their own life...if they have lives. If I could tell them one thing, it would be this. Go away. Leave me alone. You don't need to be around me all the time anymore. I think you've served your purpose. But I can't be for certain, you are just voices after all! I know it wouldn't work, but it would be worth a shot.

WTF Is Life?

Thu May 28 07:57:02 AM MDT 2026 Seriously, what is this life all about these days? I’m not sure I understand it at all. It would be nice to be able to figure it all out eventually. But I’m not sure how to do even that. I mean I can guess and guess until I come up with something? But I don’t know how to do that exactly. There are so many things in this life that get confusing and I hate it. I think life has a way of fucking with you, and we don’t quite know how to deal with it when it does that to us. It’s a messed up world after all. I mean look around, there are so many things going on in life that we don’t understand, so many things that we take for granted. So many impossible things that need to be explored but we don’t because they might be supernatural. We tend to blame a lot of things on God. If life goes good? It was God’s doing. If life goes bad? God has a plan for us and we just need to be patient &c. I’d like to think God is up there watching and rooting for us, even w...

Life Has To Answer

Thursday, August 27, 2026 If I had the ability to grab hold onto whatever this life was, I would do it in a heartbeat. But I don’t think that’s possible. Life will continue to be whatever it wants to do and I will be lost finally without a way to escape. Life must come down to a simple compromise. If life wants or needs something, it will have to do that all by itself. If, on the other hand, it wants for nothing? Then it needs to shell out whatever there is to be explained on a simple summary level. If we can’t have that? What’s the point?

We Must Try

Wed May 6 10:35:51 PM MDT 2026 Oh another day has come and gone, and who are we to thank for this good fortune? That’s right. Ourselves. For we are the ones who are able to put the past behind us. We are able to understand and grasp whatever there is to grab hold of. But we must hold on tight. For there will never be another time where we are able to understand fully what is going on in our lifves. I wish I had an understanding of how the world works. How history is made. How things get invented, but I don’t have that luxury. There are times in life where we simply don’t understand anything there is to understand. We must have the ability to grab hold of some kind of meaning. Anything to make us better than who we currently are. I wish I understood what all of that meant, but I don’t. I think if I had the ability, I would find a way to overcome whatever problems I have and seek out the best way of getting there. I’m not sure that’s possible. But I sure as hell would like to try! May...

Blast From The Past: Depression

I’d like to think life would come about and make more sense than it does at the moment, but I doubt that will ever happen. Life comes and goes as it pleases and I have no idea why it does what it does. It would be nice for life to make sense. Depression and all comes about because well I don’t know why it comes about, it just does and here I am trying to over do or overcome it or something. I don’t quite understand why this life has to be the way it is.

Why Today Of All Days?

Tuesday, August 25, 2026 Why must I be missing my dad today of all days? I don’t get it. I’m not sure I want to understand it. Life doesn’t make sense when I miss my dad. I need his guidance and wisdom around me. Without it? I feel lost and that’s only half the story. We had a great relationship growing up, he was my mentor, my super hero. The one I looked to whenever I had a problem. When things went well I let him know, when things went badly, I let him know. He was my hero. Correction: He IS my hero! Dad if you can hear me? I love you.

Blast From The Past: Life Is Weird

Life came out to play one day and I was not ready for it. In fact I was never ready for it. That’s just how the ball bounces around me. I’m never ready for life to happen. So here I sit waiting to see what else life will throw at me.

Blast From The Past: January 1, 2020 - If I Had To Choose

If I had to choose what to do on a new year such as this, I think I would try and figure out the best possible outcome for a new me. Think about it for a moment. Life doesn’t have to be possible for everything to come together. I mean it helps? But what will this new year bring for us all? I have to simply wonder that. I don’t know myself, but I sure as hell hope it’s something wonderful and amazing!

Life, It'll Suck You Dry

What exactly matters in life these days? Are there things that actually make some kind of sense? I don’t know. I wouldn’t really know about any of that stuff. I mean come on now, think about it. If life had its way we would all be eaten up by sharks or worse. But it doesn’t have its way at all. Life has the ability to sink down further into the depths of the ocean then you will ever begin to believe. That’s what life will do to you. Sink you till the end.

Life Is Meaningless

I tend to find that life is meaningless at times. I don’t know what that is mind you, I just do. It’s not a good thought process to have at times. But I have it so it must be true inside my own brain somehow, right? Yeah…that’s what I was thinking. If life weren’t meaningless, would I even be interested in such a topic? I’m not sure. But there are many topics in life that make us wonder at times. Are we going down the right path, are we doing the right things in life. Are we going to make it through our next trial that comes along? Be it a trial of faith, intelligence, strength…whatever. Are we going to be strong enough to get through it? I often have these questions in my life and I don’t know how to get around them. I wish I knew how to overcome these thoughts, but they keep coming and I don’t have a way of making them stop. So I will have to figure them out as they come to me.

The Truth Be Told

They say life has a way of messing with you. You don't always have the ability to understand what's going on in life. It will screw with you long before you are able to grasp what is going on. But that's supposed to be okay with it all. I don't know how it's meant to be okay, but that's what it is doing and we are but waiting for something to come along and everything else will become whatever it needs to become. So don't allow it to be what it wants to be, let it be what it doesn't want to be. Make it angry, make it upset, don't allow it to become more than important.

Blast From The Past: February 21, 2024 - My Only Request

Nothing to think about, nothing to display. This day and every day goes away. The way of the dinosuars they don’t stick around. Everything and everyone ends up on the ground. It is but a moment in this life it would seem, no one wants to be in that gleam. So toss away your thoughts, your considerations at best, make life peaceful that is my only request.

Blast From The Past: February 21, 2024 - I Feel Like A Fuckup

I feel like a screw up. Is that good enough to say? I don’t know. Well it’s not good to say that at all I suppose. But life doesn’t feel like it used to. I don’t have a clue why that is. It just feels like blah. Can that be a good answer for everything? Yeah that’s what I was thinking.

I Want To Die

Have you ever wanted to escape this world and simply die or get away from it? Yeah, that's how I feel at times. I don't know what to do about it. I need to see a therapist or something. I'm on medication, but that doesn't feel like it's doing enough for me. So I have to figure out...something to do about it all. I don't know though. It scares me. I'm more than scared, if I had the ability to understand what was going on in life, then I could do that. But I can't and that simply seems that life is going to blow up at me in any second now. I wish I could overcome these thoughts and simply make sense of it. Whatever happens, I need reality to be real. Does that make sense? I'm not sure it does. I doubt anything ever makes sense to me anymore. But that's okay. It'll be okay in the end, whenever that will be. If it's not the end, it's not okay yet now is it? No, I didn't think so.

Blast From The Past: February 19, 2024

Let’s think about this life for a moment shall we? The important things of life nothing too graphic, nothing too crazy. Just life in its infinite wisdom. Is that possible? I don’t know. How would I know if that were possible? I don’t have a clue about anything else, why would I have a clue about life? Yeah it’s kinda crazy don’t you think? I mean here we are trying to do our best only to find out that something most terrible is going to happen. I wish I could say exactly what the terrible thing is, but I can’t. I don’t know or have a clue. Personally I wish I didn’t know what was going to happen. Well wait, let me back up a second. I really don’t have a clue what’s going to happen. I just know what I think is going to happen. The reaction about it from my wife is just… I don’t know exactly what to think about the reaction from her. She’s been expecting it for a while now I guess. Feels like I’ve been taken out of the blue and things just don’t make sense at the moment. It would be nic...

Why!!!

Why must life be this way? I don’t understand it. If we lived in a utopia, things might be better; but I’m not sure about that. I wish there was some kind of something to overcome this feeling of inadequacy. I doubt I will ever fully figure it out. If I had the ability, I would do it in a second. But I don’t seem to have that ability at the moment. Maybe one day I will be able to figure it all out.

Life How Art Thou?

Oh life. What am I going to do with you today? I wish I could understand what’s going on. But I don’t believe in myself much anymore. It’s a crime or a shame or something. I don’t know which. If I did know I suppose I’d have an answer by now wouldn’t I? Yeah that’s what I was thinking. Talk about a rough patch to be going through. But what else am I supposed to do about it all? I haven’t a clue. If you could tell me how the future will unfold I suppose I’ll find a way to male it all coke to pass. Wow, talk about a stress exercise! Yeah something like that. But it isn’t about the thoughts that go inside my head, at least not for now. It’s the things I don’t think about most of the time. Now that becomes scary. I need to go to therapy but I am afraid of doing so. What if they laugh at me?

What If?

One would think this life would be easier than it currently is. I mean come on wouldn’t ou think that? Of course you would. So why can’t we each believe in it I for one would want to believe in it. It would give me something to do with my day at least. But well there’s something else on my mind. We have to be able to understand what it is exactly, if we don’t? Then that’s something quite different now isn’t it? Yeah that’s what I was thinking.

Sleepy Day

Today feels like a sleepy day, I don't know why that is. It just feels that way. I wish I could figure out why life happens the way it does. But I don't understand how anything goes about in this life. If I could understand one thought in life...I think I'd like it to be able to grasp why we are here on this Earth. Is it because the aliens want us to become something better than we are? I mean they're the ones in charge right? I think they are.

Blast From The Past: February 17, 2024 - Trying My Best

I’m trying here, is that all which matters in this life? Trying your best? I don’t know or have a clue as to how that works. It’s just a life that we have to be able to get through. I think that’s how it works, maybe possibly. I really do not have a clue. I wish I did have an idea of how life worked, maybe then I’d be able to figure out what to do about all of this other nonsense.

Words To A Slug

Sometimes you want a slug to make a filename. A slug is a group of words where the punctuation is removed and spaces are replaced with hyphens. Here is a simple way to implement this in Java. (It’s met my needs so far.) /** * Returns a phrase into a slug ie: This Is Good (this-is-good.md) * @param input The text to transform into a slug * @return The slug of the text passed in */ public static String toSlug(String input) { return input .toLowerCase() .replaceAll("[^a-z0-9\\s]", "") // remove punctuation .trim() .replaceAll("\\s+", "-") // spaces → hyphens + ".md"; } It can use some work. I have noticed if you have a hyphen in the word you pass in, it will put – which you might not want. So yeah some tweaks can be added to it for sure.

Blast From The Past: February 26, 2024 - Meh Life

Today is not going well, My phone isn’t working. I hate it. I need to get a new phone, but we have no funds for a new phone. Who knows what’s going on anymore. I hate it. I wish there was something we could do about it, but there isn’t. I mean yeah I need to get a new phone. But the money thing is making it difficult. I wish I could just snap my fingers and make my old phone work fine and dandy again, but I doubt life works that way. No, I know life doesn’t work that way.

Life Has A Way

If I had the ability, I think I would do something about it. By it I mean life. I need to be able to figure things out in this life, I'm not sure what that means exactly, but if life had the ability to be understood, then I'm sure it would have to do with something that is extra special. Special enough to be there for everything else out there in the world. I just wish I could see how special it all is. But I can't. So I will try and attempt to figure out whatever happens. Or what has happened, perhaps what will happen? I'm not sure. It's life, and that's all I know about it. Talk about a wild ride though. We just never understand what's going on most of the time, and that's what's scary. But we have to keep moving forward.

Don't Have A Clue

Let’s discuss whatever needs to be talked about today. Shall we? yeah I think we need to or something. I don’t know, or have a clue. It would be nice if I could understand whatever there was to understand. But I don’t get it all, I hardly even recognize that something needs to be understood to begin with. It can be quite annoying if you ask me. But what am I supposed to do about it all? I don’t have a clue.

What Am I Going To Do?

I'm writing a book about Mental Health at the moment. About 19 hand written pages on 8 1/2" by 11" paper, it's one of those spiral notebooks, you know the kind you used in school? Yeah those. I thought about using a composition book, those are almost dead on accurate for page to page with the publishing company I go with. But eh, I can write long hand in a spiral notebook as it is. It works. So that's what I'm doing at the moment. I wonder if I'll ever finish it though. Or maybe I'll run out of ideas to write about? I fear that the most. But what can you do about it? I don't know. There doesn't appear to be much of anything to do when it comes down to it. But if there was, I would know how to do it right quick. Yeah, I know I might just be jumping the gun as far as this is concerned and worrying about nothing, but hey it's what I do best!

What Gives?

Ever wonder what gives about this life? Yeah I wonder that all the time. It becomes annoying at times if I'm being honest. But what are you going to do about it? I don't know. Life will continue on as it always does, and it won't give up until it's done with you. At least that's how I feel about the subject.

Blast From The Past: February 13, 2024 - I'll Be Fine

Updated the version number of commands. At this point I hope it works. It’s a simple diary/note taking application. There’s nothing really special about it really. Just something I came up with that would help my thought process. Whatever the case, it tends to help. For example this morning, I’m tried. I slept for most of the night. Got up at midnight for a little bit, but then went back to bed at one and slept until six a.m. So I should be wide awake at the moment, my brain needs to wake up. that’s all there is to it. But who knows, there’s just so much going on that I don’t have a clue what to believe or what to think at the moment. Is that a bad thing? I’m not sure. whatever the case, I’m sure I’ll be fine. I’m always just fine .

Dear Dad

Dear Dad, Yeah it’s me again. I’m sure you’re getting tired of me talking to you like you’re in the same room as me, but I can’t get over the fact that you’re gone. Like gone gone. I miss you terribly. I don’t know what to do about it. I wish I could talk to you. Sometimes I do talk to you out loud or in my head sometimes. I hope you don’t mind, and I hope I’m not bothering you. I just need to talk to my dad! Is that too much to ask? Maybe it is. I don’t know. Love, Kyle

Whatever It Brings

Why does this life feel this way? There’s got to be some reasoning behind it. I wish I had a reason for any of it, most of it, whatever there is I’m supposed to think or do or say. One of those things needs to become aparent.

Dreamed About Dad Again

I dreamed about my dad again last night. He took me suit and car shopping said I needed them both. Haven’t a clue why he said I needed them, but I went along with it. It was nice to be spoiled. He left mid dream though, as I realized he was in fact dead. So there wasn’t much going on after that in the dream. I wish I could figure out what’s going on with those kinds of dreams. I guess it’s whatever , but I really want to know what that whatever is meant to be. Is it a warning? A sign? I don’t know. It’s something, that’s for sure. I hope it’s nothing bad, because I don’t think I could handle or deal with that right now. I don’t want to deal with such a thought process. That would suck, and I’m already thinking about it. GAH!

Life Has To Be Something Better

Life has to be something better than what we can see around us. It must be a kind of utopia that’s just beyond that hill, or just a little bit after the horizon. Whatever the case, it has to be there. I don’t see any other way on how this would work. I think it’s up to us to make life better than it is. Does that make sense? I sure hope it does to someone who’s reading this. If it does then I’ve done something right. If it doesn’t? Well that’s another story for another time.

If I Had A Way

If I had a way to figure out what this life means, I’m not sure I would be able to figure much out or understand it. That’s what this life feels like at times. I can’t make this up at all. I wish I could, but well it doesn’t happen that way. Just a life out in the middle of it all. That’s life in a nutshell, don’t you get it? I highly doubt it at all. So much doubt in this life to be covered by many things. Yeah, something like that. It’s a complicated mess at times I do believe. But what can we do about it? I don’t know.

Blast From The Past: February 8, 2024 - I Don't Know Anymore

Welp today was a miserable day altogether. I don’t know what to say about it, it was just one of the worst days I’ve had mentally. I have to stay strong for my wife. She’s going through some stuff right now and I can’t be having issues when she needs me to be strong for her. So I guess I’ll just bury it all until I can’t do it anymore. I don’t know what to say about it all. I feel all sorts of lost at the moment. So that’s what’s going on.

Blast From The Past: February 2, 2024 - Worry

Something about today worries me. I don’t know what that is yet. I’m sure it’s nothing. Let’s chalk it up to nothing, yes that would be a good idea. Nothing sounds better than worrying about something right? Yeah that’s what I’m thinking it has to do with. Nothing at all. Something gives you the heebeegeebies. Is that even a full word? Or is that two seperate words? I don’t have a clue.

Blast From The Past: February 2, 2024 -- Something More

It would be helpful to be able to figure out what this life is about. I mean we know there’s a purpose to it all right? This existence can’t be all for nothing at least I don’t think it can be. There’s got to be something greater out there. I wish we had access to all that was out there. Everything that has a purpose must find a way to exist. Is that even possible? I’m not certain. Something has to give in order for anything in this life to make sense. I don’t see how any of this could ever make sense though. I mean here we are and we haven’t gone anywhere but the Moon and that has no intelligent life on it at all. What about other planets out there in the galaxy? The universe? There’s gotta be something more out there.

Life In The Fast Lane

They say life can come at you fast. I don’t doubt it at in the least. It is what keeps this life interesting and unique. We have to keep life from becoming stale. There is no other choice but to try and make it all work out. So that’s how everything tends to work at times. Unfortunately I do not make the rules. I doubt anyone really makes the rules. Yeah, I don’t get it either. If the rules aren’t set in stone which can and will change at any given moment, how are we meant to trust anything ever again.

Blast From The Past: Hiccups

There needs to be more sleep hours in the day. I could have used a bit more sleep this morning let’s face it. But that’s not going to happen now. Oh great I have hiccups now. I don’t know where that came from. Let’s see if I can hold my breath. If that helps then the hiccups will be gone and everything will be fine and dandy. Nope that’s not happening either. Dang it. Maybe I’ll get there maybe.

Life Isn't What It's All Cracked Up To Be!

Life isn’t what everyone says it’s like. I’d like to think it’s something unique, but well it’s not. It’s something that comes along to everyone. We don’t have a say in the matter. We live, we live and we die. There’s nothing much else to it. I mean, if there were? Wouldn’t you think we could explain why everything works the way it does? Yeah, that’s what I was thinking. But we don’t get to have that choice in life. It’s a damning thing to make us worry over everything and nothing at all. But that’s life in a nutshell isn’t it? Yeah, that’s what I was thinking.

Blast From The Past: You'll Never Know

Sometimes you just have to see what’s out there and take a look around you. There could be people waiting for your help and you don’t even know it. When you feel a presence in your life to do something for someone else, take that and run with it. You never know who you’ll affect.

Failing At Life

What on earth is going on here? I don’t have any idea of what to think or say. Life is getting in the way to be honest, but I wish it wasn’t. I wish it was being kinder to me. It needs to be kinder to me. Somehow I’m failing at life. I just don’t know what to do about any of it.

Dreaming Again

Had some nightmares last night, again. I don’t know what’s causing them…something for sure but I don’t enjoy or like them. They need to stop and I must find a way to make them stop. Last night it was something about a virus going around. It was spread by some kind of liquid compound. It was airborne and would also affect you on touch. Talk about a crazy dream right? To my knowledge there was no cure. At some point in the dream a cure did come along though? But people started messing with the pipes that caused the damn virus to come back. So we were all screwed.

Questions On Life

Life wasn’t meant to be easy. [L]ife was simply meant to be. I don’t know exactly how this life was meant to be, but I do know life wasn’t meant to be crazy. What if life was meant to be something different? I mean here we are just waiting for something to come along right? What if it doesn’t come? What then?

Dreaming About Dad Dying...Again

Had a nightmare last night. I dreamed Dad died al over again. In my dream he managed to survive the choking incident in 2024 on Christmas Eve. The doc wanted to run some pressure tests by putting him in a huge tub of water, he would be fully submerged and wearing a mask so he could breathe. Well apparently it didn’t go so well. I received word in the mail from my uncle sending his condolences. I was in shock. How could he die? Again? My mom was furious that the doc waited a week to perform some kind of surgery on him. As I was talking to my mom I was choked up, I could barely breathe or talk. She then said I had leukemia in my brain and in my…appendix[?] Can’t remember where. I just broke down crying. Woke up in a panic and was very happy to see all was right in the world, that it was just a dream. But still, man. Talk about a trip!

Life Isn't Fair

Let’s face it, life isn’t fair. I don’t know how to explain it. I don’t suppose it’s meant to make any sense really. But who am I to say that? I’m a nobody. Sure it doesn’t feel like that at times, but trust me I’m a nobody. It would be nice not to feel like a failure. I don’t know how to feel that way though? I just feel that way and it’s all I’ve ever known. Talk about an anoying thought process…but it is what it is. Whatever would be nice doesn’t always make sense to me. It’s that strange of a thought. It would be nice to have self esteem, some self confidence even. But where am I going to find that? I don’t know. It’s just one of those things, I think. Doesn’t quite make sense when you’re not looking for an answer. Only when you’re constantly thinking about it are you under some kind of…trance. That’s the best way I can describe it. I don’t know how else to do that. It’s whatever. I don’t know what it is.

Why This Life?

Why This Life? Kyle Eggleston Some wonder why this life. It’s a simple question without any kind of simple response. It would be nice to have an answer to it all. But we don’t. Not all answers come easily to us. There are some that avoid us at all costs. Life is one of those questions that seems to avoid people. Where are we going after we die and all of that. It would be nice to be able to figure it all out eventually. If that is at all possible.

Life Is Weird

Life Is Weird Kyle Eggleston Life is weird. I don’t know how else to explain it. Life is simply weird. To some people it seems normal to others it’s weird. I wish I could comprehend exactly what’s going on with life to make it not weird and everything else. But I can’t. So I will simply keep these thoughts to myself. Life is weird.

SQLite and Dates

Sometimes we want to store the date/time as an integer. It makes sense sometimes. If you want to run updates on everything higher than a certain number, you can do it quite easily with an integer. If you want to run everything all over again, compare it to zero. All records will be processed again. Easy peasy. Here’s how one of my tables looks to achieve this integer method for a date/time: CREATE TABLE notes( id INTEGER primary key, title TEXT, note_txt TEXT, created_dt INTEGER not null default (strftime('%s', 'now', 'localtime')), exported_flag INTEGER not null default 0 ); See how that works? Yeah, it’s pretty neat if I do say so myself. Of course you have to convert it to make it human readable. To do that, I usually do something like this: SELECT id, title, note_txt, created_dt, strftime('%Y-%m-%d %H:%M', created_dt) as formatted_dt FROM notes ORDER BY id DESC LIMIT 1 But, I can see what you’re thinking. Why do it...

Rant of a Penguin!

Son of a Bitch! Okay maybe not that bad. But still, I don’t feel good today. Maybe that was an attention grabber. Did it grab your attention? Well did it? It’s not like I screamed out MotherFucker! Not that would be a dang attention grabber. But I digress. What’s the point of it anyway? Yep, that’s what I was thinking. Life is good at the moment. I have a loving wife who I love and adore. It’s a good life to be sure. Sleep would also be good, but when you don’t sleep…what can you do about it? Not much I’m afraid.

It's Always The End

Ever think that this life will never improve? Ever wonder if this life will become something more than it currently is? Yeah I tend to wonder that at times. I feel like the end is always just around the corner. There doesn’t appear to be anything wrong with that thought, but it makes me shiver at the prospect that life will never be the same. I wish I could make sense of that, but I’m not sure I can. Life will always be there tormenting us to the brink of death, and then we will “get better” as it were, only to go through it all over again. Yes, I know that doesn’t make sense. But when did anything make sense in this life? I don’t know. That’s life for you in a nutshell though. It will always find a way to destroy us no matter what the cost. If I could figure out how to stop that from happening? I would. But unfortunately I do not have a way of doing that. So I must continue on my path to self destruction. However that may turn about, I will have to accept it and forget about it. It w...

Oh Life!

Life feels so hard at times. I don’t even know where to begin most days. I do know life won’t always be this difficult. I mean it has to be something, doesn’t it? Life can’t be like this forever, at least I don’t think it can be. Life can be a mystery at times, that’s for sure. So we live and continue living until the day comes where we can’t anymore. Talk about a nightmare from Hell. But that is life.

Time Travel

Frank Looking around, I don’t recognize where I am. The last thing I remember is going to bed in my home. Now I’m laying in an open field in my pjs. Sitting up, I see the field is filled with snow. It is indeed cold out and I’m freezing. I stand up and look to the sky. “Why won’t you leave me alone?!” I shout to the sky. I’m mad at whoever is doing this to me. Be it God or one of his angels, I do not know. There has to be a reason for it all. I don’t know what that reason is. What I do know is I’m cold and wet from the snow, best find someplace to dry off. I pick a direction and walk for a while. Eventually I come across a cabin. It’s a standard log cabin with four sides and a roof. Nothing out of the ordinary. I rap on the door with my fist. There’s no answer. Trying the doorknob I find it unlocked, so I enter. There’s a fireplace and a small bed in the corner. I start a fire. It heats the place quite nicely. Taking off my socks, I let them dry out next to the fire. Grabbing a b...