DreamSense

There are many times in this life where we wonder what’s going on with it. It would be nice to be able to figure everything out once and for all. But I don’t think that’s how this life is meant to work. I think life is meant to be full of surprises. If we could guess and dictate how our lives go, I don’t think there would be any mystery to it all. We need the mystery of life. There has to be something we have to keep guessing at. Something to keep us on our toes. So, let it happen. No matter what happens in this life, remember this one thing. You can control your destiny. There’s nothing stopping you from achieving your dreams. There isn’t anything we can’t do, the skies the limit. Isn’t that the saying? The skies the limit? Yeah, something like that. If we aren’t able to see the future, we can only see the present and take the experiences from the past. We do this in order to become the better version of ourselves. Isn’t that what we want the most? To become a better more enlighte...

Thoughts tend to get in the way a lot of the time. Let's face it, this life is full of thoughts. Some thoughts are are good, other thoughts are considered bad. Then there are the in-between thoughts that don't make any sense at all. Sometimes I don't mind the thoughts. They can do whatever they want in my mind. Then there are other times that I simply do not like the thoughts. They need to stop and I can't control them. I can't tell them enough that I need them to stop, they don't stop unfortunately and they run their course. So I deal with it. I live with it. I allow it to overtake me and my mind. Not the most healthiest way to deal with something mind you, but I don't know how else to deal. Intrusive thoughts tend to get in the way sometimes. They're relentless and don't stop. I wish I had some way to make them simply go away, but they seem to continue to come and don't want to leave me alone. So I deal with t...

The thoughts come a little easily some days, other days they aren't that easy. The following quote comes from Cleveland Clinic . Suicidal ideation (suicidal thoughts) are thoughts or ideas centered around death or suicide. Experiencing suicidal ideation doesn’t mean you’re going to kill yourself, but it can be a warning sign. Throwing myself in front of a moving car, jumping out of a moving car, hanging myself. I have thought about each of these from one time to another. Throwing myself down a stairwell in an office building is another example. Sounds easy doesn't it? Just simply allow it to happen. Doesn't mean it will always happen, but someday it might. You just never know. They all feel perfectly natural to me. Deep down inside I know they are wrong and I shouldn't allow them to affect my thought process on life, yet here they are. They continue to mess with my mind and there's nothing I am able to do about it. I'm sure there is...

Being called crazy by other people hurts. How dare they label me. I can call myself crazy, that's one thing. But when someone else calls me crazy? How dare they have the nerve to even utter such words. They don't have the right to determine if I am crazy or not. They don't have the right to say that about me. Yet they do. Oh they try and say, forgive me if I'm being rude but...yeah you should have stopped before you said but. You're being rude ok? That's all there is to it. I mean how would they feel if I called them crazy? I highly doubt they would enjoy that. I don't call them crazy by the way, that would be down right rude. Wikipedia says the following about "crazy". "Crazy" is a word that is often used to describe abnormal mental or behavioral patterns. In psychiatry , "crazy" may refer to psychosis , which is the presence of delusions , hallucinations , and disorganization of thou...

The demons tend to come and go. There's no rhyme or reason to their madness. They aren't demons like you would see in most movies. No, those are Hollywood made up things. I'm talking about actual hallucinations that happen when you're awake. You see things, you hear things. Audio and visual hallucinations are what we're after here. Yeah I even get those from time to time. There should be times when the demons aren't allowed to come around. Like night time. That would be a perfect time for them to just go away. But you don't get to pick the time they come around. No, you don't get to pick any of it. You can either acknowledge their presence or ignore them . If you ignore them, they might become agitated. So prepare yourself for that. I've been told at times not to write down what I hear these voices say, yet I've also heard that I should log these things so that I have a record of it and I can come up with a bett...

Oh the things that come out of my mouth There are many things that come out of my mouth at times. They are not helpful things at all. But they are hurtful thoughts and phrases. "I want to die" and so forth. I'm working on making it so they don't do this to me. It would be nice to be able to simply get over the thought process and whatever else is bogging my mind down. It would be nice to be able to calm my mind and not whisper these thoughts out loud. People can hear when I do so and I get strange looks. I don't know why I say such things, why I whisper such things to myself. They are counter productive to life going forward. Sometimes I just whisper swear words under my breath. I tend to say the most vile swear words known to man. I shouldn't of course be doing this, it really isn't conducive to anything good. Yet I am but a man and do as I please as it were. Other phrases that come out of my mouth are "I hate ...

  There are times when you see things that aren't there. They don't exist. I know it sounds like something straight out of wonderland or some other book. But it's not. It's actually a real thing. For example, during one of my hospital stays, I watched a nun walk into my room. I followed her. Entering my room she saw me and said she was sorry and promptly left. I tried to follow her but she disappeared. I couldn't find where she went. I later found out that no nuns worked at the hospital, it wasn't that kind of facility. This has since changed, as the hospital has taken on a very religious kind of name. I wonder why I saw a nun. Was there a reason behind it all? I don't know. It could have easily just been a coincidence. Whatever my mind decides to come up with, well I don't have much control over that now do I? No, I didn't think so. Another visual hallucination I had was of a kid wearing a red sweater. It wa...

Ever hear voices? You're lucky if you don't. A lot of the time I hear my name being called out. For a while I was hearing a little girl giggling or calling out for her mom. It's not always tied to actual voices either, sometimes you hear movement. I've heard walking around, we have hardwood floors. I've heard typing on my computer. At first I thought it was ghosts, but now I have a feeling it was me hearing things. When the little girl was typing on my computer and giggling, it would freak me out. Then she would call out for mommy. I haven't heard her in a while, I expect to hear her again. I don't want to hear voices mind you, that would suck. I don't enjoy hearing voices of any kind. Sometimes the voices argue with each other. I don't like that. They have so many things to say and argue about who gets to talk next. They want to keep it up, it's annoying. I wish I had a way to make them stop. It would be nic...

I was reading on Reddit one day, what are some things that you worry about the most. If it's a constant worry, then that's an easy answer. Everything. Yeah, I tend to worry about everything in the universe it would seem. I don't know why I worry about things like that. It's crazy. I wish I had an idea of why I tend to worry about things. I mean wouldn't it be a good thing to have that all figured out? Yeah I was thinking so. It would be easier not to worry about things, not to have anxiety about things. But I think life without some worry or anxiety would be rather bad for us. I don't have an exact clue of why or how that would be, but I'm just certain that some of it is a good thing to have in ones life. To keep their body moving forward. So let's list out some things that worry me. Driving for example. It's a terrible worry to be in control over a vehicle. So I don't drive. Maybe that's not the kin...

  Ah yes, that part of life where we cross over to the other side. People are afraid to die. Why is that? Why be afraid to die when there's an adventure just beyond the horizon to be had? Are we so locked in this mortal coil that we just don't know what's out there on the other side of life? That we are afraid to die? Personally I would welcome it. Now let me clarify, I'm not ready to up and end my life. There's no reason for that. Just so we're clear on that fact. But it would be interesting to see what's on the other side of the curtain as it were. Where those who have passed on live to see what it's like. Just a small vacation as it were then I'd be back. Unfortunately it doesn't work that way. Here's what bing says about death (click it to enlarge). So that's interesting. The synonyms are interesting at best. Death is an interesting thing to study. The end of something. Something g...

Life comes to an end. Everything comes to an end. There's nothing that doesn't stop. There's a beginning to life and there's an end to life. It's like the end of the line. The road can go no further. People mourn through death, it's just a way to get through it. The grieving process can be difficult and different for each person. I wish death wasn't a part of it all. But that's life and that's just how everything will go for everyone. You can't get out of this life except through death. Personally I can't wait to see what's on the other side. It would be an interesting thought if life just didn't end, don't get me wrong. I'm not sure exactly how that would happen, but if it were possible, I think it would be an interesting thing to take place. An afterlife without dying so to speak. Without an end, this life would simply continue onward. There wouldn't be a final hurrah as it were...

Suicide isn't just a word you use lightly. It isn't passed around nilly willy either. Having been on the "wanting to end it" side of suicide I know how it is to have such dark thoughts that you want to end it all. It's not an easy place to be. It's not a fun place to be either. Luckily I have an amazing wife who could see the problems I was facing and she stepped in and got me the help I needed. I stayed in a hospital for a week. After that week, I was released. I was home for a week and things still weren't the best. So I went back for another week. That second week helped me and when I was released a second time, I was able to relax again knowing that I was on medication and had a good support system there able to help me. It's not an easy thing to talk about. The "S" word as I call it. It's just...difficult. I don't like admitting that I had gotten to such a deep dark place that I wa...

I want to say it first began in High School when I thought I was trying to beat the devil. Now when I say I was "trying to beat the devil", I mean I actually thought I was hearing the devil speak to me at night and that I had to find some way to overcome him. Looking back I should have sought professional help then. I remember telling a friend about this experience, and he looked at me like I was nuts. Talk about craziness right? Yeah something like that. I believe my first mental break was when I was serving a mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints . I wanted to go home so bad. It could have just been homesickness . But...there was something more to it. About halfway through I was just done with it all. I had had enough of rejection and wanted to go home. But I was afraid that I was unable to because I would simply be told no . I know that sounds silly to people. But that's what happened. I didn't b...

I think the hardest part about being on medications is remembering to take them. Then when the bad things start to happen again you remember. Oh yeah, I forgot my meds today. So you take them and then you feel better. Seriously though, medication can help you feel tons better. Your doctor knows what's good for you. But you also have to listen to your body, if the medications aren't working for you, then you need to switch them out or have the dosage changed so you can get better. Some people believe it's a bad thing to be on medication. That's not the case at all. It's not a sign of weakness or anything like that. It's just supplementing something missing from your body that helps. Don't believe what other people believe on medication. Believe what your doctor tells you. Only your doctor can prescribe medication to you. Don't do anything stupid like take meds from someone else, their meds are for their minds; just l...

The Thoughts, They Continue I swear it's not all as bad as you think it is. It can actually be much worse. Where do I even begin? I'm not sure. Being certain about such things is an important part of this life. One would think it would be at least. I mean come on now, you want to be sane. Doesn't everyone want to be sane? It doesn't always happen that way though. Unfortunately. There are some days that are better than others and other days that are worse than some. If you can believe it. Medications help you get through the hard days, I can attest to that fact. Sometimes these thoughts are suicidal ideation. That is, the thought of suicide. Chemical Imbalance So what exactly happens? Well it's a chemical imbalance in the brain . That's where it all begins. You don't have control over that chemical imbalance. I mean it would be nice if you did right? Well you don't. You have to accept that, and you have to acce...

Sometimes keeping a diary helps out the best. Sometimes it's just nonsense like the following words: Nonsense The end was near. It always was near. No one could tell you otherwise. Such a fact had to be known and understood before anything else. I'm not the person who made the rules. I do follow such rules as anyone else in the world. It is a gift granted to all. Some would have you wonder how is this a gift. Well, to obey and to be obedient to rules that govern you, allow you to be protected. Without laws or rules in place, we as a people become in danger of destroying ourselves. Not everyone understands or grasps the concept of full obedience . Not everyone can live up to such an idea. I guess that's what makes us all human. Standing out for something doesn't automatically make it taken care of or easy. In order to achieve a good, you must keep moving forward with it. Every step must be consciously made with considerable effort and determination. That mi...

Oh anxiety the bane of my existence. It's not anything I have control over. Sure there are medications that help me get through episodes. But when a Panic Attack hits? Gosh I just don't know what to do sometimes. What's a panic attack you ask? I'm glad you wonder: A sudden episode of intense anxiety accompanied by a feeling of impending doom and frightening physical symptoms, such as a racing heartbeat, shortness of breath, or nausea. There you have it, it's not fun at all. It's something I deal with on a regular basis, but that doesn't mean I'm crazy. I mean we know I'm somewhat crazy, but what can you do about it? Just take your medications and hope for the best. That's all which can be expected about it. I've never felt such a debilitating condition as this. There's nothing that can really describe what's going on within your body and mind unless you experience a panic attack for yourself. I ho...

Feb 19, 2020 I am waiting to hear back on some scary things as of late. It's the big "C" word. Yeah, I'm waiting to hear back to see if I need to get tested for cancer . When you hear the word cancer you aren't certain what to think at first. I mean, you freak out for a second or two, but you don't know what to say. You think, oh this isn't happening to me. It can't happen to me! Well, let me tell you. It can happen to anyone. Sometimes you just want to give up on life, keeping a diary can help. Suicide isn't always an option. It might feel like an option at times, but it really isn't. If you ever feel like you want to take your life, please see someone and get help . Later on in life, I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder . Don't know what that is? Well let's look it up for you (From the Mayo Clinic ): Schizoaffective disorder is a mental health disorder that is marked by a combination of schizophren...

Wed May 2 17:11:43 MDT 2018 Oh life, where have you come to? Where are you headed? There are so many ideas and options out there I don’t quite understand or realize all that is happening. I wish life was a bit better at times. There’s no telling what happens with any of it. I mean, here we are. Living a life, having an experience. Everything comes and goes the way it’s meant to. Yet we don’t know what’s going to happen now do we. No, I don’t really believe we do. It happens. Life gets destroyed and here we are…allowing it to destroy us. If we had an answer. Maybe we could figure things out. This life wouldn’t be as complicated as it is now. It could be better. Might be something we could actually live with and understand…perhaps grasp. Either way? It’s a life waiting to be destroyed.

So we bought some Cookie Monster Ice Cream . It’s blue, like the Cookie Monster . Tastes like vanilla with chocolate chips in it. I don’t see the appeal of it though. I mean, if it just tastes like vanilla ice cream with chocolate chips, what’s the point of it? It’s good, don’t get me wrong, but it just feels like normal ice cream. Might as well buy chocolate chip chookie dough and be done with it. Ya know? Of course you do! That’s how we roll at times. I mean come on now. If you’re going to paint ice cream blue and call it something it really isn’t … why? Just why?

Tue May 1 22:34:29 MDT 2018 Another day is now complete. There are times in this life where tired doesn’t begin to describe any of it. My brain has turned to goo. There doesn’t feel like there’s anything left in my mind. I understand that. I grasp that. That’s okay for me to understand…I think. Maybe. I don’t know. Who’s to understand any of it? If I could fully grasp what is happening in my mind, I would gladly say it. But for now, I am at a loss. Went to the doctor today. I either have a cyst or cancer in my face. Awesome. They’re going to do a biopsy. Been kind of worried about it for a while now. But finally I will be able to have it taken care of. So that’s a positive thing. Going to take care of the rash I have going on too. Psoriasis really isn’t fun. I know I didn’t spell that word correctly, but I didn’t want to bother look it up. Like I said, I’m rather tired at the moment. Awesome.

Worry always has a way of finding me. I don’t know what else to say about it. I mean, it just happens. The rush, the anxiety mixed in with the racing thoughts . They seem to be never ending. I don’t know what to do with them. I kinda hate it to be honest. But I don’t know how to go about making them go away. It would be nice to be able to simply sit down and think about it all. If I could make things better, believe me I would. There’s nothing wrong with wanting your life to be better than it is. I don’t know how to make things better though. Maybe I’m not supposed to make things better. Perhaps this is just how life is meant to be played out. So, what am I supposed to do about any of this? I can take all the medication under the sun, but if there’s nothing I can do about it … I’m at a loss for words. At times, it feels mind-numbing. If worry can make me feel that way about life? Hell, I don’t know what to do with any of these feelings. I need to be able to make them stop. Perhaps ...

So I’m watching Smallville right? Clark gets to understand some things about Krypton from none other than Christopher Reeve , the Superman of the four movies from the 70s/80s. He’s in a wheelchair at this time due to his horse accident . Anywhoo, Clark goes back to the storm cellar and activates his ship. He seems some Kryptonian writing and reads it to his father, Jonathan. It says he’s to be a God among men and that the Earth is basically weak and flawed. That they must be ruled over and ding ding, Clark is the one to rule over them through his strength. Kinda creepy. We saw what Superman can do if he goes rogue from Superman and Lois . He downright destroyed and murdered people. Now I’m sure Clark won’t stopp to that level in the series. His father (Jonathan) bought him up to be a good boy. He’s teaching him how to be a respectful man, and I can’t blame him. Clark is a good kid, he doesn’t want to become something he’s not. Not deep down at least. I have a good feeling about Cl...

Tue May 1 08:55:58 MDT 2018 Been writing a document of sorts. Something faith promoting for Mom and Dad about Christ. We’ll see how it goes. I think they’d enjoy it for a Christmas gift, seems fitting right? Yeah, something like that. Reminds me, I have another document somewhere. It contained a lot of talks I had given on my mission. I need to find that so I can finish that and possibly publish that in a book as well. Should prove interesting.

I don’t want to go to sleep tonight. I’m not sure why, but I have this fear that if I fall asleep I might not wake up. I know it sounds stupid and everything, but that’s how I feel. Call it me being scared, call it a fear, call it an irrational fear. Call it whatever you will. I just know how I feel at this moment in time and there’s nothing I can do about it. I wish I could do something about it, but I just can’t. Not right now. Maybe tomorrow I will be able to think it all through. But for now? I don’t have a clue. Maybe I simply don’t understand what’s going on in my head right now. It would be nice if I could grasp everything that goes on at once, but I don’t think that’s possible. Heck, I don’t know what’s possible anymore. I wish I could get a grasp on whatever is going on in my mind. But I can’t. I’ve had manic nights before, this wouldn’t be the first. I’ve had other occurrences where I’ve managed to stay up all night and into the next day without issue. I don’t understand t...

Sun Apr 29 10:11:40 MDT 2018 Published a book I’ve been working on for a few months. It won’t go anywhere, that is for sure. For it cannot go anywhere. It must remain in my home and not see the light of day. Why is this? There are questions inside the book. Questions, doctrine, policy, criticism. Everything which I cannot publish out into the world. To do so would mean the end of me. So I shall keep it deep within and not publish it. My parents would flip. I would be excommunicated for such conversations and thoughts. Only because a corporation doesn’t want their members to think for themselves. I suppose that’s okay. I wish my parents had never forced me into a religion. I think I would have been better off if that hadn’t of happened. But well, who am I to judge? I am but a man and I also sin in my life. I’m not perfect. I am only a person to understand and grasp that which I can. I could be wrong. That thought has crossed me. But logic and feelings tell me otherwise. Oh, what to...

Seduce me take me in your arms never let me go allow you to embrace me life will come to an end eventually, but you must know how I feel about you ravish me with your thoughts taste me with your emotion embrace me with your lust and attention let me be the way I am for tomorrow might never come

Just watched the episode of Smallville where Clark gets influenced by red kryptonite. Yeah, that episode. If you don’t recall the episode, the school makes class rings out of red meteorite. Instead of rubies. Clark puts one on, and we see a completely different side to him. He’s arrogant, not confidence, it’s complete asshole arrogance on his part. He’s a jerk. I wanted to shout at my television and yell “NOOOOO Don’t Do It!!!” I didn’t but I wanted to. Good thing Pete and Mr. Kent were able to stop him before he continued his evil ways. I felt for Clark at the end, he felt bad about what he did but couldn’t tell anyone what had actually happened. I know Pete knows about him by this point in the series. But no one else knows except for his parents and that one-off kid that we’ll probably never see again. Good episode overall. I enjoyed it.

Sat Apr 28 09:42:30 MDT 2018 I had a dream last night. The location of it is unimportant. But there was a man there who was boasting of a new prophet which he believed in. I told him it was false. he turned to me and said, how do you know your church is true? The thought came to me. If the church is true, why need I fear? If the prophet is a good man and holds up good works and deeds, why need I fear? For such the church I belong to was truer than this prophet of which he claimed to be true because I knew. I’m not sure what to think about said dream, for it is a dream… is it not? My mind has been weighed down for a while now about such matters. If it is just my mind trying to figure things out? I don’t [know] what to say.

So I think I’m depressed. I haven’t been depressed for a moment, so I’m not quite sure if this is depression or what it is. I need to get through it somehow. I just don’t know how to do that. It would be nice to be able to go without being depressed, but I’m not sure my body or mind knows how to do that. I’m on medication, so that should help matters right? Yeah, that’s what I was thinking. Somehow I’ll get over it. I just have to remain vigilant and make it happen.

Been drinking Body Armor to get some good things in me and keep me hydrated. I usually drink Gatorade or Powerade , but I thought I would try Body Armor. The Strawberry Banana is by far my favorite flavor. I’m trying the Orange Mango right now, and to be honest, not my fav. I don’t know what it is about it, it kinda tastes bitter to me. I tried a Strawberry Orange flavor, I think that’s what it was. That was quite tasty a well. Then of course I’m trying to push water . They have a special going on at the gas station. You can buy one for 3.59, or two for 5.50. So I ended up buying four of them. Drank two yesterday, drinking two today, then of course the water on top of it all. I wonder if it’s possible to overhydrate yourself. I know you just can’t slam a gallon of water like it’s nothing. That’ll kill you. It’s happened to people before. So the key of the matter? Don’t drink too much water in one sitting. Simple right? Problem solved? Yeah, maybe not. People will hear that and t...

Today is another day. That’s all there is to it. I don’t suppose there’s much to be said about it but the fact that we are here means something. I guess. We survived to live another day. We woke up to the sounds of nature cascading over that which we called sleep. Feeling alive must mean something in this life. I’m not quite sure what that feeling is. Is it meant to be something unique? Something wonderful? Whatever the case, being alive is what we are. Alive. There’s nothing else we can do about it to avoid whatever it is we wish to avoid. Avoidance doesn’t have to be a bad thing. It doesn’t even necessiarly mean it’s terrible. Living life is just that, living. If we want to be able to be better than we currently are, we must step up to the plate and take that first swing. There’s nothing wrong with missing now and again, everyone misses eventually. No one gets it right on the first pitch. What is the meaning of life? I suppose it changes depending on who you ask. The meaning of li...

Fri Apr 27 19:18:08 MDT 2018 Let’s not discuss that which shouldn’t be discussed. Perhaps there’s another time when this life can adequately be figured out. I mean if we don’t understand everything that’s going on right now? Who’s to say that we’ll ever understand it. So that’s where I’m at. This life doesn’t always make sense. There are so many thoughts and processes which come and go. You need to figure out everything that can be determined. I mean what else is there? Is there really anything else to be figured out at this point? I doubt it. So, where does that leave us? In the dark? I think not. It would leave us in a determined place. Somewhere between night and daytime where we can actually figure out life. Yes that life which will eventually make sense… maybe? Maybe. We’ll have to wait and see I suppose. Yes indeed. Either way? We’ll live. That’s all there is to life. Simply live. Do what you can do and see what takes place.

Keep It Simple Stupid (No Really) From time to time I find it amusing what kind of code can be written and what code actually gets passed through to a production setting. Most of the time it’s something I’ve written myself. Ever look back to a project you worked on a long time ago? That’s a scary thought now isn’t it? You take a look back and go… how did that ever work? You also might think, what in the world was I thinking when I coded that? Awful Markup Back when I first started learning HTML it was the standard to have all of your tags in uppercase. Uppercase! I suppose someone wanted to establish content from presentation or structure. Yeah structure. HTML isn’t a presentation layer, that would be CSS. Looking back at that code I cringe. Why would anyone ever even want to code in all uppercase? It didn’t make any sense. Not only does it hurt the eyes to look at it, but it’s also hard to read. Method Lengths How long should a method be exactly? I’ve read that methods should be ...

Don’t Be An Idiot Introduction You were probably sent here because you asked a question somewhere someplace and were given the instructions to read through this document first before proceeding to ask another question. It’s not your fault that you were stupid enough to ask such a question in the first place. It happens. The key takeaway point of this page is to learn what not to ask. Once you can tackle that part down you’ll be good to go. If you don’t understand what that even means? Well don’t worry we’ll get there. Over the years I’ve spent countless hours on websites geared in a Q&A approach to a community. Person A asks a question that is answered by persons B and C and so forth. I’ve learned a few things from reading peoples comments and have decided to write down what I’ve learned so that you, dear reader, will know what not to do. Tools You have tools around you. Use Them . I can’t stress this enough. Before you even think about asking a question do the following: ...

Money is the root of all evil, you know that saying. Well it’s true. There aren’t things that can be done in this world without money involved in some way shape or form. It would be nice if money didn’t make the world go round. But that’s not how this life works. Money is needed in order to make things happen. You want to go to Hawaii? You must have money in order to get there. You want to live? Buy food? Pay bills so you can survive? Yeah, money is required for all of that too. Funny how that tends to happen. I mean life has a silly way of making a person think about it. Money can do that to a person. That’s simply how this life works I’m afraid.

I started watching Smallville again after pausing mid-season 6 after so many years. Let’s just say it’s been a while since I watched the show. It’s literally been years. But I wanted to give it another shot. Because why not? After Smallville I think I’ll tackle Supergirl. Yeah, I’m on a Superman kick right now. Or is it a DC kick, ’cause some Batman would be rocking too! I’m not really into the other aspects of what was known as the Arrowverse. So I probably won’t explore much beyond what I have planned. That can always change though, there’s no telling what’ll happen to be honest. I just finished watching the episode where the kid can read minds. He of course finds out Clark’s secret because, hello mind reader! But he was pretty chill about it. He didn’t go and blab it all over town. Probably because he has his own secret to protect. I kind of wish they could have kept the kid as a side character. But the focus is on Clark and his tuning in his powers, not some sidekick. But yeah, C...

Everyone pays a price for living in this world. That’s not to say it’s an easy thing to do, on the contrary. Life can be downright difficult at times. But, whoever said this life would be easy? I don’t think anyone has ever come to that conclusion. If they have, they are in error. If I had the ability to make this life easier, I’m not sure if I would or not. Maybe I’m just a lost soul on this whole path. With no place to go, and at times that troubles me. If there’s anything I’ve learned in this life it’s this: Nothing comes easy, nothing comes cheap. There’s always a price to pay eventually. I wish there was an easy fix for everything in this life. But things come at a cost. There isn’t a clean fix for everything right here and right now. That’s just how this life is. Thinking about all of this makes me sad on the inside. I would rather not think about things, but such is the nature of the beast. These things demand they be thought about and discussed. I’m not sure if I trust my ...

Talk about an amazing show. I was hooked from the start. It took a new unique approach on Superman and Clark Kent. Not to mention, Lois, Lana, and the rest of the gang. Of course then there are Jordan and Jonathan, the children. Hell even Lex Luther was amazing in this show. But, there is one character that was beyond amazing, and it’s one of the villains. That’s right, I’m talking about. Doomsday. This show did something right with the character. They kept killing the subject over and over until it became Doomsday, an unkillable creature. Just like the comics. Sure in the comics they started with a baby on Krypton. But Superman and Lois’ way of doing it is acceptable to me as well. It felt like each season built upon previous seasons. Lois’s breast cancer, Clark’s human heart. When they both died in the finale, it broke my heart. Superman isn’t supposed to die, but well the way the storyline went, he did; and you know what? I’m OK with that. Lois also died from her cancer that came ...