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Life Has A Way

Life always has a way of doing whatever it needs to do. There’s nothing wrong with that thought process. It comes and goes without a second thought. We can’t easily figure out why life does this to us, we have to understand something at some point, but if we don’t? Well, no harm no foul. It’s life and we have to continue going forward to see everything that is out there. There’s nothing we can do about it. Life will move foreward without the ability for us to do anything but wonder what this life will eventually be like in the far distant future. Oh what a joy that could bring about. If life has a way, we will be able to get from point a to point b in no time at all. It feels like a circle at times. A = B = C, isn’t that what the crazy future guy in Star Trek: Voyager tried to explain? Yeah, something like that. It’s quite an interesting thought process to be sure. It’s life though, nothing can be done about it. So let life be what it wants to be, there’s nothing wrong with that tho...
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I Want To Leave

 I want to leave. I don't know where I want to leave from exactly. If it's life, this place I'm in, whatever. I haven't a clue what I want to do really. It would be nice to figure it all out. But who knows what I'm even talking about. I sure don't. I wish I did, but I don't have a clue. So, there's that. To be honest there's a lot of things I just don't understand about life that I probably should. I need to figure out so many things that should come easily to someone.

Life has so many different ways of messing with a person. I don't know how it does it, but it sure does it a lot. It can get quite messy to be honest. I don't like messy. I would prefer something a bit more on the easy side of things. Something that I can deal with. Something I can take moment by moment. But I don't think there's really anything out there like that. I wish there were, but I just don't think that's possible. So what do we do about it? What do I do about it? I don't know.

I wish I could tell you I had everything under control. That I understood what everything meant in life and that I could easily tackle any situation that came my way. It doesn't work like that. Life is too complex for a factual representation of it.

 Perhaps there are too many things in this life that don't make sense to me. Or I just don't understand them. They can be confusing that is for sure. I wish I could understand whatever there is to understand about life. But I don't think I can at this present moment in time. I want to grab hold of whatever I can grab hold of and just keep on holding it until I can't hold it any longer and have to let go. I don't know what that even feels like. I can't imagine a life like that. Everything seems to slip through my fingers.

I'm too paranoid about everything else in life to worry about that going on. I wish I had a way to get out of whatever it is I'm in. Wake up! Wake up! Wake up! I don't think that will ever happen. I don't think I am asleep at the moment. It would be nice if all of this was a dream and reality awaited me.

Alas I can dream.

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