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Anxious Today, WTF?

I am rather anxious today. I think it has to do with the medication(s) I am on at the moment. Doctor changed some medications, added some, did some other things put me back on medications I haven’t been on in a while…the same ol’ same ol’. Anti-Psychotic meds work wonders when they work, they’re amazing. When your mind doesn’t want them to work? Well, that’s when things become quite a problem. I hate to admit it, but life doesn’t always work the way we want it to work. What can I say? It’s a mess at times. There’s nothing wrong with that, but to say it’s not complex is a complete overhaul of whatever there is. Talk about a mixed bag of nuts. Someone doesn’t understand everything there is to understand about it all. If I wasn’t anxious, today would be a better day than it is. But, well I am so there’s nothing I can do about it. I wish there was…but there isn’t so I’ll just have to deal with whatever comes my way. Such a bummer if you think about it all. Nothing is ever cureable. Every...

What goes on in life

Not everyone understands what goes on in your own life. They barely understand what goes on in their lives. Life is a silly thing that comes and goes, long before we can grasp it we want to have some kind of understanding of whatever happens in it all on a daily basis. Unfortunately it doesn't work that way, life comes at us in many different kinds and ways of issues. We sometimes get what's going on, yet most of the time we don't have a clue. It would be nice to be able to have an idea of what to do with this life when we simply don't have a clue of what is going on. So we try and see if we can get through it the best we can. If those kinds of thoughts and feelings are wrong, I'd rather not be right. I'm sure I've said that before, I can't remember exactly when that happened, but I've said it before. There's not reason not to believe certain things in life will be a total letdown or a failure. That's okay. Sometimes you just have to deal wit...

Darkness

Saturday, January 04, 2020 Sometimes you have to try and understand what’s coming for you. The darkness so to speak. I’m not sure if anything truly makes sense these days. The darkness of sorts. If I could make this life a better place I would try with all my heart, mind, and soul. Ever wonder if we are alone in the universe? Like the darkness has found a way to engulf the entire universe? It’s what keeps me awake at night. I’m not sure I am making any sense or doing the right thing. To believe in a thing and to do that thing is to begin to believe in the right thing. In order to embrace a new life, we must give up the darkness which has engulfed our lives. So, how does one get through the darkness and back into the light? I only ask because sometimes the dark place is all we have to survive from or in. The light is a wonderful place to be. The dark is a mentally confusing place to be at times. Life will have its way of confusing us at times. It doesn’t have to be a witty retort...