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Why Must Life Be This Way

If there’s one thing I don’t quite understand about this life, is why must it be this way? I mean, we have to deal with some things in life and we cannot easily allow them to be what they want to be, at least I don’t think that’s how it works. If it did? Then everything would be fine, we could continue on about whatever we wanted to do and there would be no harm or foul. That’s the problem with this life though. Nothing ever fully makes sense at times and we are left holding the problem end of the cord. There are times when life will come clean with us, we don’t always get that kind of protection mind you. So what do we end up doing? Do we want to keep thinking and going on about whatever there is to go on about? I’m not sure that’s a safe course of action. Hell, what is safe anymore? I do not know. What I do know is life will continue to be the way it’s meant to be. There’s no stopping it. No matter what happens in this life, we will always be stuck with whatever we’re meant to be st...
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Friday's Come So Slow...

Fri Jun 12 09:10:21 AM MDT 2026

Today is Friday! (Friyay!) But it feels like they come so slow. It’s sad when you look forward to the weekend. I’m not sure how that ever came on the radar, but that’s what this life feels like at times. I wish I didn’t feel this way most weeks, but that’s how I feel. It would be nice to be able to get over whatever is causing this, but what am I going to do about it? So many questions that don’t have a way of making sense. There is never a way to make sense of it all I suppose, that’s what this life is all about.

If I had a way to make the future possible? I would so be on that. I’m not sure how that works though. There needs to be a way to make this life manageable. I doubt there seems to be a way to overcome anything. So many possibilities and thought processes out there, I doubt there is a way to overcome a lot in this life.

Fri Jun 12 10:09:44 AM MDT 2026

I wish I could understand what this life is meant to turn out to be! I don’t get it most days. I simply do not understand or grasp what is going on and it scares me half to death. If we had the ability to grab hold of ourselves for one moment and shake some sense into ourselves? I think life could be a bit more manageable, but I don’t think that’s how it works. I mean it could work like that, but I highly doubt it.

Life will continue to be a mess of things to come, and things that have already happened. There doesn’t appear to be anything we can do about it all. We have to be able to understand that from the start. If we don’t, we will be wishing we had the ability to make those changes down the line. But again, I don’t know if that’s how it will work! It’s life after all. I mean, what goes up must come down eventually…doesn’t it?

Fri Jun 12 11:38:06 AM MDT 2026

If I could figure out whatever this life is meant to be, I think I could capture something about it in the future. Anything really. That would be amazing. In order to be able to do that though, I think I would need to be able to figure out what it is in this life I want to accomplish. What is that though? I don’t know how that would look, or what it would look like rather.

Fri Jun 12 01:55:18 PM MDT 2026

The day is almost over, I can feel it. I can hear it. It has been a good day, time for a nice relaxing weekend. I can deal with that. I can handle that. It is but a day and the night is just beginning. I will do my best to take whatever it is that i need to do with it and it will be a good weekend.

Fri Jun 12 03:41:03 PM MDT 2026

Ever wonder if today is meant to be the way it is? I mean, what if today is meant to be something completely different and we’re just here wondering why that’s not the case. It could happen I suppose? Who knows what will happen in this life if we choose to ignore it. Life will continue on its path and we will be none the wiser. Life will simply continue on without us if needed. It doesn’t care about us. Why should it?

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