DreamSense

Uniqueness is often a trait we seek after. Traits are what make us all who we are. We don’t always have a say about a lot of our traits. Some are quite simply a product of how and where we were raised. Running around with scissors can be dangerous. Knowledge itself can be a dangerous concept. Yet here we are metaphorically running with scissors. The music continues to play. We have no control over the music. It’s quite an unfortunate happenstance. In this instance, the music represents voices and hallucinations. They can be a menace for sure. So many things to hear and relate to our own existence. Maybe it’s the little things that get on my nerves most days. I don’t know how else to put it all. Feels like a waste of time to worry about what the intrusive thoughts have to say to me. I can wish all I want, but let’s fact it. Wishing never got me a damn in the first place. I have a lump in my throat. It’s been there all fucking day. Pretty sure it’s anxiety related. I’m anxious about...

I’ve had people tell me that I should just stop hearing voices. They tell me “No more voices!” Well it’s not that simple people. I can’t control what I hear and don’t hear. It just doesn’t work that way. I wish it did, but seriously it doesn’t. Life has it’s own mind when it comes to voices, and I simply can’t let it do its thing by trying to make them stop. Sure I can take medication, I’m on medication for it, but that doesn’t always take them away you know? I get it, maybe you’re tired of having to think that I have issues with voices and hallucinations. Maybe you’re tired of worrying about me. I don’t know the root cause of it all, and I can understand your frustration. But simply telling me to stop hearing voices? No, it just doesn’t work that way. I’m not sure what else to say about this. You didn’t understand when I said I was having suicidal thoughts either. Perhaps you’ve never dealt with someone that has these issues before? I’m not sure. Let’s face it, I struggle with life,...

The Voices Are Real There are times in life when I hear voices in my head. They are real to me and I don’t know how to stop them from speaking. At times, they can be present, other times they are down right mean and evil. I don’t seem to have any control over what they say to me. Some are demanding that I take action or do something. I am not a fan of these command type voices. Not All Voices Are Bad There seems to be a misconception in the fact that all voices in my head are bad. This is not always the case. Some voices are quite innocent in nature. I wouldn’t call them friendly, but they are not mean or evil. I recall living in a house with a voice that would giggle as she played on my keyboard. I could hear the keys clacking as she played with them. Then she would call out for her mom. It was so clear, there was no mistake she wanted her mom. I never did hear the mom respond or anything like that. The Mean Voices Then there are the mean voices. These are the ones that tell me I...