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Life Has A Way

Life always has a way of doing whatever it needs to do. There’s nothing wrong with that thought process. It comes and goes without a second thought. We can’t easily figure out why life does this to us, we have to understand something at some point, but if we don’t? Well, no harm no foul. It’s life and we have to continue going forward to see everything that is out there. There’s nothing we can do about it. Life will move foreward without the ability for us to do anything but wonder what this life will eventually be like in the far distant future. Oh what a joy that could bring about. If life has a way, we will be able to get from point a to point b in no time at all. It feels like a circle at times. A = B = C, isn’t that what the crazy future guy in Star Trek: Voyager tried to explain? Yeah, something like that. It’s quite an interesting thought process to be sure. It’s life though, nothing can be done about it. So let life be what it wants to be, there’s nothing wrong with that tho...
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Frustrated

 I'm frustrated with life. I don't know what to do about it. So many things going on, and I don't have a clue how to handle them all at the same time. It is so darn frustrating. I am at a loss. I know the phrase take it one day at a time, well I have to take it one minute at a time or else I get overwhelmed. I don't know if this life will ever change or if it will just keep moving forward not making a difference. I know certain things can change if they are given a chance. But to get that chance is another question.

I'm worried about a lot of things right now. I don't know how to express myself coherently about any of the things I am worried about. That scares me. I wish I could just open up and talk about it all, but I can't. There are so many things wrong with this picture, so many things I want to fix but I can't. I wish I could figure everything out and it all would be okay. But I don't know how to do that.

It feels like I'm fighting to stay sane these days. Something not unique to the population at large, but it feels unique to me. If I can find a way to stay sane and okay, I can find a way to figure out what's going on with my life right now. Because I don't have a clue what to do or what's supposed to happen.

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