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Frustrated

 I'm frustrated with life. I don't know what to do about it. So many things going on, and I don't have a clue how to handle them all at the same time. It is so darn frustrating. I am at a loss. I know the phrase take it one day at a time, well I have to take it one minute at a time or else I get overwhelmed. I don't know if this life will ever change or if it will just keep moving forward not making a difference. I know certain things can change if they are given a chance. But to get that chance is another question.

I'm worried about a lot of things right now. I don't know how to express myself coherently about any of the things I am worried about. That scares me. I wish I could just open up and talk about it all, but I can't. There are so many things wrong with this picture, so many things I want to fix but I can't. I wish I could figure everything out and it all would be okay. But I don't know how to do that.

It feels like I'm fighting to stay sane these days. Something not unique to the population at large, but it feels unique to me. If I can find a way to stay sane and okay, I can find a way to figure out what's going on with my life right now. Because I don't have a clue what to do or what's supposed to happen.

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