DreamSense

Life doesn’t always seem to make sense if you think about it. It would be nice if we had the ability to understand for ourselves what this life was all about. But I don’t think that’s going to be possible in this life. Maybe in the life to come, but not in this life for sure. To be fair, maybe we don’t all want to knokw what this life is about. We can come up with whatever reasons for that are, but in the end we need to be able to find out what we want from this life. What we can accomplish during this life and where we can go from there. It doesn’t mean we have to like where our life is headed. No one has to like anything about their life. But they have to accept whatever their life throws at them. There’s no escaping the truth of the matter.

Sat May 9 08:41:56 AM MDT 2026 Why Life? I don’t think we can fully understand or comprehend what it will take for everything to work out the way it’s meant to. I’m not sure I understand what that even means. I just know that this life will come about eventually. If there’s nothing interesting about it? Then we can go on our merry way and allow it to be whatever. I think if I had all the answers, I would have them and there wouldn’t be a thing that could stop me. But that’s not how this world works. There are so many ways to mess up in this world alone. I’m not sure I can grasp all of the different ways to do that. But they exist. I guess my question is why is this life so damn difficult at times? Do you remember when life used to be easier? Yeah neither do I. Sometimes you just have to get all of the thoughts out of your head. The only way I know how to do that is by writing. Sometims the thoughts get out of my head rather quickly, other times they stick around for a while longer....

So I wanted to find a way to make vim do a hard line wrap so it would be in nice chunks when I type without having to do hard wrapping myself. Well, here’s how that’s accomplished: " Set the maximum width of text to 80 characters set textwidth=80 " Optional: visual indicator for the 80th column set colorcolumn=80 " formatoptions settings: " t: Auto-wrap text using textwidth " c: Auto-wrap comments using textwidth " q: Allow formatting of comments with "gq" set formatoptions+=tcq I allowed AI to generate it for me, let’s face it, I was too lazy to try and google it for myself. AI can be useful for some things I suppose. AI isn’t out for everyone’s job, that’s just a myth. It’s a tool that can be used from time to time to accomplish small tasks. And for me? This was the perfect task that I needed it to accomplish.

Sun May 6 11:57:41 MDT 2018 Finished writing a book. Are We Not All Believers In Christ? Lastnight while I waited for Jane to get home. It’s not much of a book, only 80ish pags or so. But it will do. It’s not a perfect typesetting either. But after giving it some thought, that’s okay with me. We are not perfect, it’s a shadow of that I think. Yes that will do just fine. I might add to it later, make a second edition of the book. Fix the typesetting issues, update the notes at the end so the scriptures are actually pulled in instead of just references to them. We’ll see what happens. Other than that, life is okay. Kiddos are sick. That’s not fun. [Son] and [Daughter] have been puking last night. Not good at all. Upset tummies are the worst. Tomorrow we go and take a look at the green binders. Oh! What joy that will be. Let me tell you how much I hate that process. You want to know the history of things that happened… yet you don’t. It’s a mess it really is a mess.

Let’s face it, life hurts. I don’t know how else to put it. There are days where I don’t want to be alive. If I had the ability to make everything go away, I would make that happen. But I don’t have that luxury. At least I don’t think I have that luxury. It would be nice to be able to figure out once and for all if this life was meant to be or if we’re just swimming around in some game trying our best to get through it. I don’t know which is worse. So many things would be nice in this world if certain things didn’t exist. Hatred comes to mind. So much hate in the world and so many things wrong with it. There doesn’t appear to be any kind of stopping it. I wish there was, but I just don’t see it happening anytime soon. So we sit back and bide our time until it’s all said and done. We are then brought before some kind of judgement so a supreme being can tell us how bad we messed up. Yeah, that’s something to look forward to. Somebody save me! (Remy Zero) I think life would be more ...

Ended up in the ER last night for just reasons. I hate hospitals especially when it’s someone I care about that’s in the hospital. They go in for a legit reason, the doctors run their blood tests, their urine samples, they think they know what’s wrong so they go down that route. They do a CT scan. It all comes back clean as a whistle. No reason for any of it. Yet the pain was real, the symptoms were real. There’s no rhyme or reason as to why the trouble started to begin with. Better to get checked out than not I guess, but it’s all bullshit when the doctor can’t tell you why you feel the way you do. I’m not a fan of doctors for that reason. I always say they’re just practicing medicine. They’re playing doctor and don’t know what they’re really doing at times. I’m not sure I get it most of the time. I understand they’re only human and are trying to do their part, well most of them are trying to do their part to make sure people are okay and not sick. There are those who do unnecessar...