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Living Life Is A Mess At Times

Let’s face it, life can be a cruel bastard at times. I’m not sure what to make of it. I’d like to think that like with anything, life is possible to become so much more than it currently is. But I’m not so sure about that. Hell, there’s a lot of things I’m not sure about these days. But that doesn’t stop me from trying to become a better human than what I currently am. Isn’t that the point in life? To become better than who we currently are? Yeah, that’s what I was thinking. Oh well, if we can’t become better in this life, we can certainly die trying. I guess that’s a main staple in life that we die trying to do whatever it is we possibly can do. Not always what we want to do mind you, but what we are able to do. There’s a difference in wanting and able I’m finding out. It can be a pretty big difference given the circumstances.
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WTF Is This Life?

Thu May 28 07:57:02 AM MDT 2026 Seriously, what is this life all about these days? I’m not sure I understand it at all. It would be nice to be able to figure it all out eventually. But I’m not sure how to do even that. I mean I can guess and guess until I come up with something? But I don’t know how to do that exactly. There are so many things in this life that get confusing and I hate it. I think life has a way of fucking with you, and we don’t quite know how to deal with it when it does that to us. It’s a messed up world after all. I mean look around, there are so many things going on in life that we don’t understand, so many things that we take for granted. So many impossible things that need to be explored but we don’t because they might be supernatural. We tend to blame a lot of things on God. If life goes good? It was God’s doing. If life goes bad? God has a plan for us and we just need to be patient &c. I’d like to think God is up there watching and rooting for us, even w...

Dear Dad

Thursday, May 28, 2026 Dear Dad, I could really use a dad to talk to about now. How do you navigate through this life with all the worries and the stress and the bills that come with it? I’m not sure I quite understand how to do any of this. It’s killing me that I can’t talk to you like we used to. I’d take anything, even a “Hi Dad!” right about now. I miss your voice. I should have recorded it at some point in life, but I never did. Never thought about it. A lost opportunity never to come back, until I see you again on the other side. I remember you talking about a time you went to Stake Conference, and a general authority said that you won’t know you’re dead until you try to interact with something. Is that true? Is that what happened to you? I often wonder if that’s the case. I don’t know what to believe about the afterlife anymore. I used to think I knew? But now I’m not so sure. It’s so confusing. I guess I just have to wait until my own death to fully understand what it’s lik...

Blast From The Past: June 17, 2019

Life Wasn’t Meant To Be Jun 17, 2019 Such a weird day. What’s the use of thinking about it? I don’t understand half of what goes on in the world, and yet here we are. Living a life where nothing matters, nothing makes sense. Everything else goes down and there you’re left sitting waiting for the end to come.

Programming In Perl

Been trying my hand lately in programming in Perl. Doing some database things with it. It’s quite an interesting language. I’m rather enjoying it, if I’m being honest. Coming from a Java background, I find it exciting to learn new things and take them as they come to me. It’s fun for sure!

Blast From The Past: June 15, 2019

Meh Life Jun 15, 2019 Another day passes. Just another day comes to light. Is that enough to figure out? I’m not sure. Such a thought process consumes my mind at times. It comes and goes long out into the night, and here we all are. There’s nothing wrong with wondering and guessing about anything and everything which comes along in this life. Here we are simply waiting for something better to happen and occur. Life comes and goes, there’s nothing wrong with that at all.

Blast From The Past: June 13, 2019

I don’t want to think Jun 13, 2019 There are days where I simply don’t want to think. I don’t want to have to think about anything. Is that wrong? I’m not sure. Is that okay? Nope, still not sure. It would be nice to be able to figure out everything that occurs in this life and yet here we all are, hoping something will happen. yet we simply don’t know or fully understand what will happen or when that will occur. So that’s life right now. Just deal with it I suppose.