DreamSense

It feels like a day already, and the day has just begun! I’m not sure what to do with this knowledge or power, or whatever it is that I’m feeling. It’s a surge of something. I feel tired though. Not sure why? I drank a bunch of coffee, and I mean a bunch of it! Talk about a wild ride for sure. It should spring me awake, but I feel sleepy and tired. I wish that feeling would go away. Oh well, I’m sure something good might come of it? Who knows.

Doesn’t Matter Jul 26, 2019 There are so many things in this life which simply don’t matter. Why should they matter? Who cares if they matter or not? It shouldn’t matter. It shouldn’t be worried about. There’s no reason for anything to be worried about at all. That’s what life does to you. You worry and then you go away. Everything eventually ends and it all becomes nothing.

I Don’t Know How Jul 25, 2019 I don’t know how to move on. I don’t know how to do anything right now. I’m just here waiting for whatever seems like whatever and will happen. It has to stop at some point, has to be okay again somehow in my head. I don’t know how that will look, or what it will look like at all.

Not Only Today Jul 24, 2019 There are thoughts that go through my head a lot. Sometimes it’s on a daily basis. It’s not only a one day kind of thing. So they stick around and there’s nothing I can do about it. Seriously. It would be nice to be able to do something about the thoughts, but for now I can’t. I just have to deal with them, and that really sucks.

Ever wonder what this life is all about? I sure have. Hell, I wonder about it everyday! There are things in this life that don’t make sense to me. I cannot explain them. So they remain a mystery. Life is simply a matter of time between independent thought and thoughts that don’t matter. It’s a simple benefit to you that make matters feel worse than they really are. Does that make any sense? I doubt it. But that’s life in a nutshell.

Had a sleepless night last night. No matter what I did I couldn’t fall asleep. I’m not sure what’s up with that? Is it the smoke in the air from the fires? I mean yeah I’m experiencing shortness of breath and wheezing because of the smoke in the air. It feels like I have something in my throat that won’t go away. It would be nice if it did go away though, I’m not sure how that’s supposed to work. It seems like I never know how this life tends to work at times. I wish I did though, that would be a good thing! Yet here I am, and I’m suffering in silence do to it all. I kept tossing and turning last night. Every time I thought I was going to fall asleep, I actually didn’t fall asleep. My back hurts too. [Wife] thinks it’s stress related, that could be the case. Eh, who knows how any of this life works most of the time? I sure as hell don’t! I need to have a good nights rest at times. I know [Wife] doesn’t sleep worth a damn either and she suffers from it. I wish that wasn’t the case. I ...