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Blast From The Past: March 5, 2020

Helplessness Kyle Eggleston Not everything in life makes sense. Somedays we are here waiting for life to come along and kick us in the rear. Other days we are waiting for something to happen. That something rarely ever happens though. We are caught in a landslide of whatever there is to be caught in and we don’t have any idea how to go about getting around it. If that makes sense. After everything is said and done, we are left with the ability to recover. Legs decide to stop working, arms don’t want to function either. Our brain decides to stop thinking. We’re left with the most basic abilities around and we cannot grasp why that is. Almost like we are stuck in a never ending cycle of helplessness. It would be nice to be able to grasp hold of whatever is controlling us and shake it loose. That doesn’t always happen though. Most of the time we are stuck and simply don’t have the ability to get loose at all. So, why does that happen to us? Why do we feel like we can’t go on? Does it ...

Smallville - Zod Is An Idiot!

Okay, I get it Zod is the bad guy. But is he an idiot? You take blue Kryptonite to make sure you don’t get sucked up to another world only to put it into your foe…and you get sucked up into that other world anyways? Wow! I kind of saw that coming, I won’t lie. Season 9 felt like a real slow burn for me. I like that about the older TV shows when we got more than twenty episodes a season! Talk about a wild ride. Season Nine did not disappoint. Now, onto Season Ten! The final and last season of Smallville.

Blast From The Past: March 3, 2020

Death Please? Kyle Eggleston Death. It’s an interesting word. It’s an interesting goal. I mean no one gets out of this life alive. So the endgame goal of this life is to die. Right? Some want it sooner than later, some want it right now. Or yesterday. Either way, they wish to die. There’s nothing wrong with wishing to die just as long as you don’t act on it...or so I’m told. I don’t know. Death would be nice right now. It would be a welcomed relief to this life, this agony and pain I feel at times. It just would be nice to be done with it all. Instead, here I sit writing this. I don’t get to die. I don’t get to just leave this earth and see what else is out there. I have to suffer with this pain in my legs and hope for one day that the pain will be gone and I will be able to live as a spirit or something and not feel a thing. Yes, that would be nice. That’s the endgame goal I seek. Let it come.

Psychosis What Is It?

Being in psychosis means experiencing a severe disruption in how your brain processes reality. It is a state of “losing touch” with the world around you, characterized primarily by hallucinations (seeing, hearing, or feeling things that aren’t there) and delusions (holding false, unshakeable beliefs despite contrary evidence). It is not an illness itself, but rather a set of symptoms often tied to conditions like schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, or severe depression, or triggered by extreme stress, trauma, or substance use. Key experiences and signs include: Hallucinations: Experiencing sensations that other people cannot share, such as hearing voices or seeing shadows. Delusions: Believing things that are untrue, like the feeling that you are being plotted against. Disorganized Thinking: Using incoherent language, jumping rapidly between unrelated topics, or having trouble concentrating. Changes in Behavior: Withdrawing from friends and family, neglecting self-care, or having ...

Blast From The Past: March 2, 2020

What The Fuck Life Kyle Eggleston Okay so the title isn’t very nice, it’s crude actually. I don’t know how best to express myself at the moment. Here we are. There doesn’t seem to be any kind of escape. Everything simply passes into the abyss and we are here hoping for something good to come out of it. I mean, is there anything good that can come out of it? I don’t know. There’s so much in life that we cannot even find the beginning of the good that might come around from it. What’s good in life? Can you give me one good thing that I can be thankful for in this life? I would love to hear it. I cannot think of something good. I can sit here yeah, but that doesn’t mean something good will actually come from any of it. It would be nice to simply breathe and be calm for a moment. I don’t know how any of this will play out. I don’t know how any of it will end, I’m simply at a loss and I cannot understand how anything will happen. It would be nice to be able to smile and allow everything ...

The Voices Are Angry

The voices are indeed angry today. I don’t know what to do about them. I mean they’re here for a reason, maybe? I don’t know. I wish I had a clue about why they like to torment me. That would be a good thing to get to the bottom of. They want me to do things, things I don’t want to do. So I won’t do them, because any sane person wouldn’t follow what the voices want them to do! I mean come on now. Isn’t that just logical? Yeah, something like that. Freezing today too. Might be because I have a cold and am sick. Not feeling good at all. All my joints are hurting too. The voices love to talk about that though. Oh yeah, they like to tell me it’s my fault I’m not feeling good. WTF! Seriously? I hate it. I really do. But what am I supposed to do about it? I haven’t a clue. That’s life I guess.