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Oh Life!

Life is an amazing experience to behold at times. Other times it can be a bit of a nightmare. I guess it all depends on the day, now doesn’t it? Yeah, something like that. Who knows what this life will bring about. I for one don’t know. That’s the big secret behind this life I suppose. But life doesn’t have to be mysterious. Trying to figure out how this life work sat times- can be a nightmare. However all is not lost if you can have hope in something that will make life that much better. If we constantly allow our own thoughts and feelings to fight against us, we will never be better than we currently are. It’s easier said than done naturally. I am my own worst enemy, my worst critic. That’s simply how this life treats me at times. Not much else to comment about that. Am I playing the victim or simply stating the facts? Who can say for sure? I personally feel I’m just telling it like it is, nothing more. Sometimes I can’t determine my own thoughts from that of psychosis . Parts o...
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Blast From The Past: July 1, 2019

Why, When, Where Jul 1, 2019 Why is the present what it is? When will it change? Where will that change take place? Simple questions? Perhaps. Difficult to understand? Yes! So here we sit, waiting for something to happen. Something to occur. Life to settle down and everything else to actually come to fruition. Maybe. I don’t know.
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Your Story Is Valid

It’s true, your story no matter how insignificant you feel it is is valid. Whatever it is you’re going through? Totally valid. You might not feel it is at times, but it is. You aren’t alone in this fight. This life. There are people all around to help lift you up when you are in need. People don’t tend to see it though, and that’s a shame. In order to understand what’s going on in life, you have to take a step back. Take it all in as it were. You have to see beyond the trees and get the entire forest in the picture. So, what’s stopping you? Are there mistakes you’ve made in your past? That’s possible. We all make mistakes. That’s no secret. Personally there are some mistakes I wish I hadn’t have made, but there’s no going back to correct those mistakes. We have to look forward to whatever it is we can do, and move on from there. Moving forward can help us. We can learn from the past, but we don’t have to dwell in the past.
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Do I Have To Die?

Do I have to die to hear you miss me? Do I have to die to hear you say goodbye? I don’t wanna act like there’s tomorrow I don’t wanna wait to do this one more time - Blink-182 Yeah, that’s what it feels like at times. Do I have to actually die for someone to notice that I’m here? I know there are some people that care that I’m around. I’m grateful for that. But there are days where it feels like no one cares, not much anyway. It’s … okay? But is it really okay? I don’t know. I’d like to be able to not have to worry about such things in life, but well here I am worrying away! There doesn’t feel like there’s a way to get over it or overcome whatever it is that I’m dealing with. I don’t know how to deal with this life most of the time. It’s a simple thought process, or it should be a simple thought process. But it feels so much more complex than it currently is. Such a life to do with as we please, and yet there are days where it doesn’t feel enough.
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A Simulation? Maybe.

When a person believes life is a simulation it’s difficult to think of it as anything else. If life isn’t real, what is it? I mean it has to be something right? I’m not sure anymore what this life is. Life is such a fragile thing. It comes and goes in the blink of an eye. Who knows how long we have been plugged into the great machine. How long have we been connected? Unable to actually move. Our minds are fed what the machine wants us to think and believe. If the thinking is done for us, then we do not control this life. It is being controlled for us. If we don’t control our lives, who is in control? Do we have the ability to make choices in this life? Simulation theory suggests we don’t control anything in this life. If that’s the case, who is in control of it all? I don’t have the answer for that. I doubt anyone in the simulation knows who is in charge. I feel like a lab rat most of my days. How else can I explain the things that take place in life? I don’t know that I can. To sa...
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Current State

Life can be difficult at times. I’m not sure exactly how it tends to work but I do know that it’s not a friendly game of chess. It’s hard work and it can suck. Life has a sneaky way of messing with a person. I don’t know all of its tricks and things like that, but it happens. It feels like I don’t have control over much anymore. I wish I could find a way to take it all back ya know? I don’t know how to do that. So many things would be nice to have about right now…I don’t know how to make that happen. So, I’ll keep running. What is it I’m running away from though? Will it ever catch up with me or will I be able to outrun it forever? I’m not sure if I know how to continue onward anymore. One would think I could get past or through whatever it is that’s troubling me. Isn’t that a basic instinct we all have? A basic part of life is to keep moving forward? It’s someting like that, I don’t know if I have the wording right though. I feel like a prisoner trapped in my own mind at times. I do...
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