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Superman and Lois (Spoilers)

Talk about an amazing show. I was hooked from the start. It took a new unique approach on Superman and Clark Kent. Not to mention, Lois, Lana, and the rest of the gang. Of course then there are Jordan and Jonathan, the children. Hell even Lex Luther was amazing in this show. But, there is one character that was beyond amazing, and it’s one of the villains. That’s right, I’m talking about. Doomsday. This show did something right with the character. They kept killing the subject over and over until it became Doomsday, an unkillable creature. Just like the comics. Sure in the comics they started with a baby on Krypton. But Superman and Lois’ way of doing it is acceptable to me as well. It felt like each season built upon previous seasons. Lois’s breast cancer, Clark’s human heart. When they both died in the finale, it broke my heart. Superman isn’t supposed to die, but well the way the storyline went, he did; and you know what? I’m OK with that. Lois also died from her cancer that came ...

Over Thinking

What Do You Do? What is the point of living if you are miserable most of the time? Say you have to go through dialysis twice to three times a week. What’s the point of living? You’re tethered to a machine three times during the week without any kind of escape. Feels like at some point all hope is lost and goes out the window. So, what do you do at that point in life? I mean do you simply give up and call it quits? I’m not sure what the answer is for that. I feel heartbroken not being able to reach out and help those who need my help. If I had a way to do it, I would. But I’m not sure if I know how to go about doing that. I feel stuck in a place without anywhere to go. Without anyway to overcome whatever it is I am feeling right now. These feelings suck to be honest. Wishing Wishing my dad was here to help doesn’t make matters easier. I still have him in my phone, his phone has long since been disconnected. I’ll never hear his voice again. Wishing never did a damn thing for me. I fe...

Let Me Die

Let death come for me. I feel done. I don’t know if that makes sense to anyone out there, but that’s how I feel. Life can be so upsetting at times. Upsetting and overwhelming. I don’t know which is worse if I’m being honest about it. I’ve always wondered what it would be like to die. Stare death in the face as he comes to take my soul wherever souls eventually go when we leave this existence. But dying comes with a price, that’s experiencing dying. I have a fear about dying. I fear the actual process of dying. I don’t want to feel death. There’s a term for being obsessed with death and fear of dying. It’s thanatophobia. So that’s a thing. It would be nice not to worry about dying. I don’t know how to do that. I see life in a very black and white methodology. It’s not for everyone, not everyone sees life that way. But that’s how I see life. Kinda strange? Maybe. Perhaps not. Eh, it’s a thing. I don’t know how it all works, just that’s how I live life. But what’s living life exact...

Death Among Us

Some say that death is the ultimate boundary to cross. It’s something we all must eventually face. There’s no lie to those thoughts. They are actually truthful as there is truth in them. Sometimes we have to wonder when death will take us. How it will take us. Why it will take us. Well, I suppose why is already known. People just grow old and die. Sometimes there’s no rhyme or reason for any of it. When death comes knocking, you have to go. There’s no turning back. Once you go through that door you have to keep on walking. They say when you’re going through hell you have to keep on walking. Sometimes hell is all we have. that’s not to say it’s a bad thing. On the contrary, it could mean so many different things all at once. I wish I had an example of it, but alas I don’t. I think there’s a lot of things I don’t grasp or understand in this life. It would be nice to be able to figure out what’s going on most days. But I doubt I’ll ever be that lucky. Maybe this life isn’t meant to b...

Story Of My Life

They say time comes and goes as it pleases, but we have to make the determination to make choices in this life whether they be good or bad. But what exactly makes a choice good or bad? Who decides that? Who is the goto for everything that is either good or evil? The black and white thinking can be the death of me at times. I can feel it in my bones. There doesn’t always seem to be a simple solution to the question at hand. Sometimes we have to simply wing it, whatever comes our way and be prepared as best we can before everything blows over, and we’re caught in the thick of it all. For once, I think it would be nicde to be able to simply figure things out as they come to me. But that’s not how this life was made. Perhaps I’m made to be broken. If that’s the case, what is the purpose of it all? Doesn’t quite make sense to me. It feels like I’m in a trance at times. There’s nothing wrong with me, at least I don’t think there’s anything wrong with me. But who’s to even say if there is?...

Unprecitable

Life can be scary at times. I don’t know how else to say it. I hate being told what to do how to think or act given any kind of situation. But here I am with these fears that make it impossible to wind down at night. I just woke up to a loud banging from somewhere above or next to my apartment. I want to feel safe here, but now I’m not so sure if I can. That’s what’s scary about life most times. It’s unpredictable. It would be nice to be able to try and not worry about life and all of its misconceptions. But I don’t know how to do that. Maybe I’m not meant to understand the ways of the universe as it were. Not yet at least. If I can’t feel safe in my own home, where can I feel safe at? I’m not sure if I’ve ever felt safe in a place I’ve lived. There are too many variables that can happen. So many things that can take place. It’s down right scary at times. Yet I manage to muddle through somehow, heaven knows how I do it, but I do. It would simply be nice if I could calm down for a m...