DreamSense

Death Please? Kyle Eggleston Death. It’s an interesting word. It’s an interesting goal. I mean no one gets out of this life alive. So the endgame goal of this life is to die. Right? Some want it sooner than later, some want it right now. Or yesterday. Either way, they wish to die. There’s nothing wrong with wishing to die just as long as you don’t act on it...or so I’m told. I don’t know. Death would be nice right now. It would be a welcomed relief to this life, this agony and pain I feel at times. It just would be nice to be done with it all. Instead, here I sit writing this. I don’t get to die. I don’t get to just leave this earth and see what else is out there. I have to suffer with this pain in my legs and hope for one day that the pain will be gone and I will be able to live as a spirit or something and not feel a thing. Yes, that would be nice. That’s the endgame goal I seek. Let it come.

Being in psychosis means experiencing a severe disruption in how your brain processes reality. It is a state of “losing touch” with the world around you, characterized primarily by hallucinations (seeing, hearing, or feeling things that aren’t there) and delusions (holding false, unshakeable beliefs despite contrary evidence). It is not an illness itself, but rather a set of symptoms often tied to conditions like schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, or severe depression, or triggered by extreme stress, trauma, or substance use. Key experiences and signs include: Hallucinations: Experiencing sensations that other people cannot share, such as hearing voices or seeing shadows. Delusions: Believing things that are untrue, like the feeling that you are being plotted against. Disorganized Thinking: Using incoherent language, jumping rapidly between unrelated topics, or having trouble concentrating. Changes in Behavior: Withdrawing from friends and family, neglecting self-care, or having ...

What The Fuck Life Kyle Eggleston Okay so the title isn’t very nice, it’s crude actually. I don’t know how best to express myself at the moment. Here we are. There doesn’t seem to be any kind of escape. Everything simply passes into the abyss and we are here hoping for something good to come out of it. I mean, is there anything good that can come out of it? I don’t know. There’s so much in life that we cannot even find the beginning of the good that might come around from it. What’s good in life? Can you give me one good thing that I can be thankful for in this life? I would love to hear it. I cannot think of something good. I can sit here yeah, but that doesn’t mean something good will actually come from any of it. It would be nice to simply breathe and be calm for a moment. I don’t know how any of this will play out. I don’t know how any of it will end, I’m simply at a loss and I cannot understand how anything will happen. It would be nice to be able to smile and allow everything ...

The voices are indeed angry today. I don’t know what to do about them. I mean they’re here for a reason, maybe? I don’t know. I wish I had a clue about why they like to torment me. That would be a good thing to get to the bottom of. They want me to do things, things I don’t want to do. So I won’t do them, because any sane person wouldn’t follow what the voices want them to do! I mean come on now. Isn’t that just logical? Yeah, something like that. Freezing today too. Might be because I have a cold and am sick. Not feeling good at all. All my joints are hurting too. The voices love to talk about that though. Oh yeah, they like to tell me it’s my fault I’m not feeling good. WTF! Seriously? I hate it. I really do. But what am I supposed to do about it? I haven’t a clue. That’s life I guess.

If I had the opportunity to tell the world something it would be this we are going to be okay Don’t believe anything else this world tells you it won’t come out to make sense in the end

Under Pressure by Kyle Eggleston Ever feel like you’re under pressure to believe or think a certain way? You’re just stuck in an ever going circle hoping to please those all around you, you never know for certain if you’ll actually please any of them but that’s what you want to do. You want to make other people happy and make sure they’re content in all and everything they do. So why can’t I focus on my wants and needs to make me happy in this life? Makes sense right? I mean I want to be happy, why can’t I find a way to focus on me for once? I’m too afraid of what other people will think and say...it’s almost better off if I were no longer living. If I were dead. Something like that. I would rather be dead than experiencing no joy in my life ever again. Why do I feel this way? Why don’t I understand how best to make my life better? You’re not worth it. I know that, don’t you think I know this? Of course I’m not worth the love I give others. I’m not worth allowing that same love t...