Overthinking again, what a surprise. It’s life, that’s what’s going on today. Such an amusing thought process is all. If life has a purpose how would that look exactly? Is it so complicated a question? Life itself can feel quite complex at times. I don’t make the rules. They just appear when they want to. I can’t control them nor would I want to. It’s a pipe dream to think I’m in control over anything. I’ve long since learned I have no control over my life. There’s always someone else pulling the strings. That’s just how this life works. Life is but a game. A dangerous game at that, but what else is new? I want to die. But dying wouldn’t end my suffering. Why must life be so damn confusing most days? I’m not sure I fully understand it all. I mean come on now! Existing simply to exist doesn’t feel like it has much purpose in this life. I don’t have another way of expressing this thought. Where there is light, there is darkness. No matter how it’s spun, that’s the truth of it all. T...
Some days are a jumbled up mess on the great windshield that is life. Oh life, you silly silly thing! Where did you come from? If life has taught me anything it’s that this life can be quite complicated at times. Yeah, this life sure can be a mess at times. Talk about crazy. But if that’s what this life turns up to be, that’s how it is. Living int he fast lane, as it were, makes little sense most of the time. But that’s okay, it has to be okay. I mean I guess? It’s something that’s for sure! Anxiety can be one hell of a drug. Not a good one mind you. It tends to take a lot to get through a day without overthinking all the things. But that’s all part of this life I fear. What does that mean for me? I’m not sure. I feel like I’m fighting an internal losing battle and there isn’t a way back from the brink. Whatever that looks like, here I am living it.