DreamSense

Under Pressure by Kyle Eggleston Ever feel like you’re under pressure to believe or think a certain way? You’re just stuck in an ever going circle hoping to please those all around you, you never know for certain if you’ll actually please any of them but that’s what you want to do. You want to make other people happy and make sure they’re content in all and everything they do. So why can’t I focus on my wants and needs to make me happy in this life? Makes sense right? I mean I want to be happy, why can’t I find a way to focus on me for once? I’m too afraid of what other people will think and say...it’s almost better off if I were no longer living. If I were dead. Something like that. I would rather be dead than experiencing no joy in my life ever again. Why do I feel this way? Why don’t I understand how best to make my life better? You’re not worth it. I know that, don’t you think I know this? Of course I’m not worth the love I give others. I’m not worth allowing that same love t...

Sometimes we have to dream for today and live in the present. We can’t afford to live in the future when it hasn’t come yet. Nor can we afford to live in the past. We must be present in the present, if that makes any sense. I know it can be confusing at times, but that’s what we must to in order to strive to do what’s right in this life. When life comes into focus, when it comes into view, we are able to see clearly what needs to be changed about it. That’s how life works at times. We don’t always see what’s going on, but we need to look deeper into the true meaning behind it all. We can’t live behind a curtain forever. We have to someday accept our fate, the facts are there laying in the sand and written on the wall for all to see. That’s what this life is all about. We have to be able to do what is necessary in order to accept what is true. To accept our fate and destiny.

Will It Ever End? by Kyle Eggleston The question stands as it was initially presented. Will it ever end? That is, will the war that goes on in my mind ever cease to exist? One would hope it would. One would imagine it would go away eventually. But we cannot always decide what will happen in this life. We cannot determine if something will go our way or if it will not. We simply cannot hope and wish for something to happen hoping it will go away. The war I speak of is a constant battle in my head. I deal with it everyday. There doesn’t appear to be an end in sight. It tells me to do bad things to myself, I have to stand firm and strong ignoring it all the time. It’s not always easy, but I keep at it and I try to defend myself at all times. So far so good, we’ll see how long it will last.

Oh voices, get out! Get out! Get out! You don’t need to be there telling me what to do and what not to do. Who to do it to etc. You need to go away. Is that too much to ask? I doubt it. But I fear the voices will never go away. They’ll be with me for a long time, and I don’t like that. Do the voices have a purpose in life? I doubt it. I don’t think they have a good purpose with anything. They’re evil voices after all. There isn’t anything good about them! At least I don’t think there is anything good about them. If there were, they wouldn’t be doing all the things now would they? No, I didn’t think so.

Life? Kyle Eggleston What is the purpose of life? I’m really getting stumped at this level of thought. I mean I know what we’re supposed to believe is the purpose of life, to do all we can become to live with God again, have multiple wives, create our own planets and have lots of spirit babies so they can do exactly what we went through while we were here on earth. However, that really doesn’t answer the question. If that’s all we’re here to do...I mean doesn’t that seem kind of redundant and boring to you? It does to me. I’d rather think we’d live with God instead of going off on our own. Wouldn’t you want to be with that being who gave you life forever? Instead of going off being your own god and creating whatever you wanted etc? I don’t know...there has to be something more to it than that. Maybe I’m just not thinking about it all clearly, and I don’t know what’s going on at all. Perhaps that’s just how this life is meant to be played out? Who’s to know exactly how this life wor...

Life by Kyle Eggleston You’d think we would be able to solve everything in this life without problems. All of these humans could learn to work together and solve every issue that came up. Right? But instead we have people going to war with each other and life just doesn’t get a win, ever. How many scientists are out there? How many have one piece to the puzzle and others have another piece to the puzzle? What if they all just worked together and added those pieces together instead of working alone. What would happen? Ever think and wonder about that? Most people don’t, well I’m assuming most people don’t.