DreamSense

Just watched the episode of Smallville where Clark gets influenced by red kryptonite. Yeah, that episode. If you don’t recall the episode, the school makes class rings out of red meteorite. Instead of rubies. Clark puts one on, and we see a completely different side to him. He’s arrogant, not confidence, it’s complete asshole arrogance on his part. He’s a jerk. I wanted to shout at my television and yell “NOOOOO Don’t Do It!!!” I didn’t but I wanted to. Good thing Pete and Mr. Kent were able to stop him before he continued his evil ways. I felt for Clark at the end, he felt bad about what he did but couldn’t tell anyone what had actually happened. I know Pete knows about him by this point in the series. But no one else knows except for his parents and that one-off kid that we’ll probably never see again. Good episode overall. I enjoyed it.

Sat Apr 28 09:42:30 MDT 2018 I had a dream last night. The location of it is unimportant. But there was a man there who was boasting of a new prophet which he believed in. I told him it was false. he turned to me and said, how do you know your church is true? The thought came to me. If the church is true, why need I fear? If the prophet is a good man and holds up good works and deeds, why need I fear? For such the church I belong to was truer than this prophet of which he claimed to be true because I knew. I’m not sure what to think about said dream, for it is a dream… is it not? My mind has been weighed down for a while now about such matters. If it is just my mind trying to figure things out? I don’t [know] what to say.

So I think I’m depressed. I haven’t been depressed for a moment, so I’m not quite sure if this is depression or what it is. I need to get through it somehow. I just don’t know how to do that. It would be nice to be able to go without being depressed, but I’m not sure my body or mind knows how to do that. I’m on medication, so that should help matters right? Yeah, that’s what I was thinking. Somehow I’ll get over it. I just have to remain vigilant and make it happen.

Been drinking Body Armor to get some good things in me and keep me hydrated. I usually drink Gatorade or Powerade , but I thought I would try Body Armor. The Strawberry Banana is by far my favorite flavor. I’m trying the Orange Mango right now, and to be honest, not my fav. I don’t know what it is about it, it kinda tastes bitter to me. I tried a Strawberry Orange flavor, I think that’s what it was. That was quite tasty a well. Then of course I’m trying to push water . They have a special going on at the gas station. You can buy one for 3.59, or two for 5.50. So I ended up buying four of them. Drank two yesterday, drinking two today, then of course the water on top of it all. I wonder if it’s possible to overhydrate yourself. I know you just can’t slam a gallon of water like it’s nothing. That’ll kill you. It’s happened to people before. So the key of the matter? Don’t drink too much water in one sitting. Simple right? Problem solved? Yeah, maybe not. People will hear that and t...

Today is another day. That’s all there is to it. I don’t suppose there’s much to be said about it but the fact that we are here means something. I guess. We survived to live another day. We woke up to the sounds of nature cascading over that which we called sleep. Feeling alive must mean something in this life. I’m not quite sure what that feeling is. Is it meant to be something unique? Something wonderful? Whatever the case, being alive is what we are. Alive. There’s nothing else we can do about it to avoid whatever it is we wish to avoid. Avoidance doesn’t have to be a bad thing. It doesn’t even necessiarly mean it’s terrible. Living life is just that, living. If we want to be able to be better than we currently are, we must step up to the plate and take that first swing. There’s nothing wrong with missing now and again, everyone misses eventually. No one gets it right on the first pitch. What is the meaning of life? I suppose it changes depending on who you ask. The meaning of li...

Fri Apr 27 19:18:08 MDT 2018 Let’s not discuss that which shouldn’t be discussed. Perhaps there’s another time when this life can adequately be figured out. I mean if we don’t understand everything that’s going on right now? Who’s to say that we’ll ever understand it. So that’s where I’m at. This life doesn’t always make sense. There are so many thoughts and processes which come and go. You need to figure out everything that can be determined. I mean what else is there? Is there really anything else to be figured out at this point? I doubt it. So, where does that leave us? In the dark? I think not. It would leave us in a determined place. Somewhere between night and daytime where we can actually figure out life. Yes that life which will eventually make sense… maybe? Maybe. We’ll have to wait and see I suppose. Yes indeed. Either way? We’ll live. That’s all there is to life. Simply live. Do what you can do and see what takes place.