There are some tings that can be said about today that kind of make sense. Other things really don’t and tester on the edge of insanity. Most days it feels like I’m stuck in a feedback loop or possibly a time loop without the ability to cut ties to the loop and overcome whatever it is I’m meant to overcome. Panic sets in and I don’t know what to do about any of it. That’s when the fear begins to dance around in my mind. Fear and panic both play a role in what’s in store for whatever is to come next. I wish I had the ability to snap my fingers and everything would be back to normal. I’d be laughing and carrying on or whatever it is I do before this damn mental illness entered my life. It’s fine, it’ll be fine. I keep telling myself. When in reality I know it will never be fine and there’s nothing I am able to do about it. That’s just what I know about my life. Phycosis aside, there’s nothing that makes me more angry than the stigma that comes along with these medical conditions. Peo...
Life What Is It? May 23, 2019 People are always saying this and that about life. What exactly are they talking about? Doesn’t quite make sense if you ask me. But well people don’t ask me now do they, I don’t suppose that’s part of it all. Life has a way of simply being…something. Something you don’t fully understand or grasp to something which doesn’t matter. Maybe it does, who knows. Yet here we are simply trying to get by and understand whatever it is we’re meant to grasp and latch onto. Doesn’t make it easier to understand at all. Let’s imagine for a moment that life actually mattered… I mean does it matter? I’m not sure. It would be nice to know if something mattered in this life. yet we simply do not know if anything will ever matter now will we. No, I didn’t think so. that happens though. It’s okay for that to happen…I think? Maybe it’s not. Whatever the case, this life will continue on with or without you. There’s no reason to actually believe something better will come along...