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Voices?

So, the voices are obnoxious. They constantly badger me about what I’m doing wrong in life, and I don’t know how to handle it. So many voices doing what they do best, annoy me. To no end. They argue with each other. The constant nagging can be annoying at times. I don’t know what to do about any of this. Damn voices always doing whatever they want to do! I end up suffering from it all. Damn voices. If I didn’t have voices going off in my head? I think I would be better off. So many thoughts come and go in my head at times, I can’t tell where they’re coming from. Is it the devil that’s talking to me? Is it God? I doubt God would want to be messing with me like this…but he did create me the way I am? So I’m not sure about any of that. When the voices tell me to do things? Things I don’t want to do? Yeah, that’s when they tend to come in fighting. I don’t have a way of making them stop. I don’t have a way of making them go away. Maybe I need more medication? I wish I had an answer to al...
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Blast From The Past: June 27, 2019

Why Jun 27, 2019 Why today? Why at all? Why must there be this stupid thought process going on in my head and why can’t I seem to control it? Doesn’t make sense. I don’t get it. I don’t understand any of it. Life has to get better somehow. How will that happen?
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What Is Your Purpose?

Ever wonder what your purpose is in life? Yeah I tend to do that from time to time. It would be nice to be able to figure out exactly what I’m meant to do on this Earth. I mean it can’t always be just whatever that comes to mind, can it? No, I highly doubt that’s the case. It would be nice to be able to sit down with my thoughts and ask them all my questions. Hoping to actually get some answers. Is that a long shot? Maybe. Should I do it anyway? Yeah I think I should. But then the thoughts enter my head and they aren’t so nice. They tend to downplay anything and everything that happens in my life. I don’t think there’s a day that goes by where I don’t have to listen to those damn thoughts. They are always around. So I tend to ask myself “What is my purpose in this life?” It feels like a simple and straightforward question to answer. But it really isn’t. There are so many confusing things in this life that don’t quite make sense. It all comes down to wanting to have a basic understan...
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Blast From The Past: June 26, 2019

Today Is A Day Jun 26, 2019 That’s right, today is a day where life begins and ends. People come into this world and they die right out of this world. There’s nothing worth living for. If we’re all just going to end up dead eventually, why bother with any of it? Is that not the case?
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Life Is Hell On Earth

Not feeling good today. I don’t know what’s going on here. There must be someway to feel better. It can’t go on forever you know? I seem to run out of energy quite easily these days. I’m feeling quite congested these days. I don’t know why that is. The internal thoughts have quieted down a bit. I call that a plus. I wish I didn’t have them to begin with, but what can you do about it? Reality is the true illusion in this life. If nothing is real, what’s the point of it all? Life has an interesting way of messing with you. It likes to remind you that it’s still alive and kicking. That’s what this life likes to do. Eh, what do I know? If I had to stab a guess, I’d think everything leads to paranoia one way or another. It’s not a fully fleshed out thought of course, not yet at least. Think about it for a moment. How can this life be anything but an illusion! We are all part of some sort of experiment. Whoever is in charge of it all has got to be off their rocker. But think about it for...
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Miss You Dad

I miss my dad. I just want to talk with him, is that too much to ask? Gah! There’s nothing I can do about that now can I? I can just hope he knows I’m thinking about him and I care. This is rough. Death is a mystery you see. No one but those who have passed on know what it’s all about. I wish I had an idea about it, but I don’t and that’s a shame. Oh well, such is life.
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It's Friday!

So, Friday came? I think? Maybe? Yeah, the jury is still out on that one. I for one enjoy when a weekend comes. It’s quite a nice detour through which everything is possible. No, I’m not sure if I understand what I just wrote either. But hey, it’s the weekend. There’s nothing to do but go and do whatever there is to do! The world is our oyster as it were. Nope, don’t have a clue where that phrase came from either. It would be nice to be able to determine something in this life. I think? Maybe? Who knows. As long as I’m livin’ I ain’t dyin’. I guess that’s one way to look at it all with a perspective that matches nothing. Been thinking lately, life isn’t as bad as I thought it was. I mean is. Yeah you know what I mean. It’s life after all. There’s nothing to worry about when life comes your way. You either buckle down and face the music, or you wimp out and let life do its thing. The choice is yours.
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