DreamSense

Tuesday, August 25, 2026 Why must I be missing my dad today of all days? I don’t get it. I’m not sure I want to understand it. Life doesn’t make sense when I miss my dad. I need his guidance and wisdom around me. Without it? I feel lost and that’s only half the story. We had a great relationship growing up, he was my mentor, my super hero. The one I looked to whenever I had a problem. When things went well I let him know, when things went badly, I let him know. He was my hero. Correction: He IS my hero! Dad if you can hear me? I love you.

Life came out to play one day and I was not ready for it. In fact I was never ready for it. That’s just how the ball bounces around me. I’m never ready for life to happen. So here I sit waiting to see what else life will throw at me.

If I had to choose what to do on a new year such as this, I think I would try and figure out the best possible outcome for a new me. Think about it for a moment. Life doesn’t have to be possible for everything to come together. I mean it helps? But what will this new year bring for us all? I have to simply wonder that. I don’t know myself, but I sure as hell hope it’s something wonderful and amazing!

What exactly matters in life these days? Are there things that actually make some kind of sense? I don’t know. I wouldn’t really know about any of that stuff. I mean come on now, think about it. If life had its way we would all be eaten up by sharks or worse. But it doesn’t have its way at all. Life has the ability to sink down further into the depths of the ocean then you will ever begin to believe. That’s what life will do to you. Sink you till the end.

I tend to find that life is meaningless at times. I don’t know what that is mind you, I just do. It’s not a good thought process to have at times. But I have it so it must be true inside my own brain somehow, right? Yeah…that’s what I was thinking. If life weren’t meaningless, would I even be interested in such a topic? I’m not sure. But there are many topics in life that make us wonder at times. Are we going down the right path, are we doing the right things in life. Are we going to make it through our next trial that comes along? Be it a trial of faith, intelligence, strength…whatever. Are we going to be strong enough to get through it? I often have these questions in my life and I don’t know how to get around them. I wish I knew how to overcome these thoughts, but they keep coming and I don’t have a way of making them stop. So I will have to figure them out as they come to me.

They say life has a way of messing with you. You don't always have the ability to understand what's going on in life. It will screw with you long before you are able to grasp what is going on. But that's supposed to be okay with it all. I don't know how it's meant to be okay, but that's what it is doing and we are but waiting for something to come along and everything else will become whatever it needs to become. So don't allow it to be what it wants to be, let it be what it doesn't want to be. Make it angry, make it upset, don't allow it to become more than important.