I’ve had people tell me that I should just stop hearing voices. They tell me “No more voices!” Well it’s not that simple people. I can’t control what I hear and don’t hear. It just doesn’t work that way. I wish it did, but seriously it doesn’t. Life has it’s own mind when it comes to voices, and I simply can’t let it do its thing by trying to make them stop. Sure I can take medication, I’m on medication for it, but that doesn’t always take them away you know? I get it, maybe you’re tired of having to think that I have issues with voices and hallucinations. Maybe you’re tired of worrying about me. I don’t know the root cause of it all, and I can understand your frustration. But simply telling me to stop hearing voices? No, it just doesn’t work that way. I’m not sure what else to say about this. You didn’t understand when I said I was having suicidal thoughts either. Perhaps you’ve never dealt with someone that has these issues before? I’m not sure. Let’s face it, I struggle with life,...
Let’s face it, life can be a cruel bastard at times. I’m not sure what to make of it. I’d like to think that like with anything, life is possible to become so much more than it currently is. But I’m not so sure about that. Hell, there’s a lot of things I’m not sure about these days. But that doesn’t stop me from trying to become a better human than what I currently am. Isn’t that the point in life? To become better than who we currently are? Yeah, that’s what I was thinking. Oh well, if we can’t become better in this life, we can certainly die trying. I guess that’s a main staple in life that we die trying to do whatever it is we possibly can do. Not always what we want to do mind you, but what we are able to do. There’s a difference in wanting and able I’m finding out. It can be a pretty big difference given the circumstances.