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Another Day?

Fri Jun 5 07:47:57 AM MDT 2026 It’s another Friday! Or as I like to call it Friyay! Yeah it’s stupid I know, but it’s a thing. Don’t squash it. I’d like to be able to wake up without some kind of rooster going off in my ear. I don’t think they’re legal where I live? But then again, I doubt the neighbors even care. Then there’s the cats. So many cats. Cats with babies, cats without babies, cats making babies. It goes on and on, and there’s nothing I can do about that either. Talk about crazy! I keep having these … dreams. I’d call them nightmares? But I’m not sure if they are at times. They’re rather troubling to me. Some are sexual in nature. Others are just there waiting for me to say or do something about them. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to have these dreams anymore. I don’t think I think about sex a lot. I don’t know where these dreams are coming from. Then there are dreams that feel like I’m reliving memories. Memories I don’t want to have. I’d call them a previous l...
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What's In A Day

Thu Jun 4 02:05:29 PM MDT 2026 Well, today is another day. It would be nice to be able to understand this stress and anxiety I have been facing. It’s been going on for far too long. I need it to stop, or find a way to make it stop. Some medication can help from time to time, but I don’t want to be reliant on that medication every single day. I don’t know, maybe there’s no way to get around that thought process? Not sure. Not sure I ever know what this life is all about with these challenges I face on a day-to-day basis. Easier than it sounds, right? Yeah…that’s what I’ve been thinking. Too many damn thoughts in my mind at times. I’m not sure what to do with them all. Some are out to get me, I fear. I can’t let them win though. They need to stay the hell away from me! Life has its ups and downs, no one can argue that point. It’s not meant to be a terrible place to live in, but if I can’t figure it out? What am I supposed to do about it? I don’t know. Thu Jun 04 02:21:33 PM MDT 2026...
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What Is It About Life?

Will the Real McCoy stand up please? We have to be able to have a consensus about this life, we can't allow it to simply be and then allow it to become whatever it wants to be because it can't determine what's going on. Does that make sense? I'm not sure it does...but if it did, then I'd allow it to happen. Life has to find a way to become what it needs to become, not what it wants to become...but what it needs to become. Life will eventually get there, but not until it finds a way to make it so we all understand what's happening with everything that goes on in this life. Don't allow life to overthrow itself. You'll regret it, every step of the way.
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What Is Life?

Tue Jun 2 11:35:44 AM MDT 2026 I’m not sure I understand this life much at all. It would be nice to be able to understand something from this life, but I’m not sure I can even get that far. It will be whatever it wants to be? I guess? Yeah, I’m not so sure about it. Life will just be life. Whatever it wants to be, it will be that. So I will have to deal with whatever comes my way. I guess. Yeah, that’s the gist of it I suppose. I mean, what else can it be? Man I wish the voices would stop. They’re fucking with my head, my mind, my soul even. I don’t know how to get them to stop. But they have to at some point don’t they? I wish they would just go away.
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It's Raining Outside

It’s raining outside right now. Supposed to rain all day long. I don’t know what to think about all of that though. It’s rain, I mean we need it…I understand that. But with rain there is so much more to it than that. We can drown in rain if there’s too much of it can’t we? Yeah, that’s what I was thinking. Rain will always be around. There’s no stopping it. Rain woln’t destroy us, God made sure of that promise. I think something about a rainbow int he sky. So He won’t flood the Earth a second time. Talk about a relief. Rain will continue to fall though. It just woln’t be as dangerous.
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The voices want me dead...still

So the voices want me dead still. I don't know why they want this from me, but it's not something I'm willing to give up. If they were to try to understand the real me, they would grasp that they don't need me gone. I'm not sure they know what's going on with that train of thought. They are simply voices after all. They don't hagve to understand a thing in their own life...if they have lives. If I could tell them one thing, it would be this. Go away. Leave me alone. You don't need to be around me all the time anymore. I think you've served your purpose. But I can't be for certain, you are just voices after all! I know it wouldn't work, but it would be worth a shot.
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WTF Is Life?

Thu May 28 07:57:02 AM MDT 2026 Seriously, what is this life all about these days? I’m not sure I understand it at all. It would be nice to be able to figure it all out eventually. But I’m not sure how to do even that. I mean I can guess and guess until I come up with something? But I don’t know how to do that exactly. There are so many things in this life that get confusing and I hate it. I think life has a way of fucking with you, and we don’t quite know how to deal with it when it does that to us. It’s a messed up world after all. I mean look around, there are so many things going on in life that we don’t understand, so many things that we take for granted. So many impossible things that need to be explored but we don’t because they might be supernatural. We tend to blame a lot of things on God. If life goes good? It was God’s doing. If life goes bad? God has a plan for us and we just need to be patient &c. I’d like to think God is up there watching and rooting for us, even w...
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