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Oh Life!

Wed Jun 17 08:28:05 AM MDT 2026 Okay, let’s face it. Life can get in the way at times. I accept that. I realize that. It can be a real pain in the ass at times and I’d rather it not be. But what can a person do about that? I don’t know. There are so many things in this life that come our way and we don’t have a rhyme or reason to do anything about it. That’s life for you. It will do what it wants, when it wants and you have to either accept it or deny it. If you deny it, well there are consequences. Oh boy are there consequences for our actions. Whoever said we have “free” agency was wrong, agency isn’t free if there are consequences. Talk about a mind fuck. I wish I could make everything that’s bad disappear for everyone. I’m not sure how that would look though. I bet it would be a complicated mess. That’s the last thing I need in this life is a complicated mess. I don’t need or want that to be going on at all. Life has a way of letting you know it exists, but if it constantly gets ...
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All Or Nothing

Tuesday, September 08, 2026 All-or-nothing thinking (also called black-and-white or dichotomous thinking) is a cognitive distortion where you see things in absolutes—either perfect or terrible, right or wrong, good or bad. In reality, most situations have a mix of positives and negatives, and this extreme “either/or” style can fuel anxiety, depression, and perfectionism. I’ve been thinking this way for years. I doubt it will go away anytime soon. That’s simply how life is at times and I have to deal with it. Well, from that description…it can stem from anxiety or depression. Both of which I have. Sounds great to me don’t you think? Yeah that’s what happens when overthinking is normal. I wish it wasn’t this way. But it is and there’s not much I can do about it. Such is life.

Life Is Hard

Tue Jun 16 11:25:43 AM MDT 2026 Life feels kind of difficult at times today. I’m not sure what’s going on with it all. I feel like something is out to get me. I don’t know what’s out to get me for sure, but it feels like something is out there waiting to destroy me. I don’t like that feeling. It feels so weird and off at times. I wish I had a clue of what it is all about. But I don’t. It feels like a large weight is on my chest and I can’t seem to breathe. That’s what it feels like. I don’t like it. I’m sure it will go away eventually. It can’t stick around forever. Right? Right? I sure as hell hope it can’t! Tue Jun 16 01:15:14 PM MDT 2026 If I had the ability, I think I would want life to make some kind of sense. I’m not sure how that’s meant to be though. If life doesn’t make sense, who am I to say otherwise. I don’t think I’m allowed to have such a command presence on such a topic. Life will be what it always is. It will either be good or it will be bad. I do not know how it i...

What Kind Of Day Is Today?

Mon Jun 15 10:29:51 AM MDT 2026 Today is but a day, there’s nothing else that comes from it. It will be whatever it wants to be and we cannot do anything about it. If I had complete control over my life, what would we need for a higher power to be watching over us? We need to have that higher being in place though, at least I think we do. Without Him watching over us, we might screw up bad beyond the point of no longer being able to do whatever it is we need to accomplish in this life. So confused at times, I’m not sure where this confusion comes from though. I need to be able to make sense of something in this life. If I don’t? Then what is the purpose of life? I don’t get it. Sure there are a ton of things I don’t get in this life, I guess that’s just how this life is meant to be? I don’t know. I wish … oh how I wish I could have it make sense to me. But it doesn’t ever want to make sense for me. Do you see the problem I’m facing here? The dilemma I have at times? If you don’t, we...

Friday's Come So Slow...

Fri Jun 12 09:10:21 AM MDT 2026 Today is Friday! (Friyay!) But it feels like they come so slow. It’s sad when you look forward to the weekend. I’m not sure how that ever came on the radar, but that’s what this life feels like at times. I wish I didn’t feel this way most weeks, but that’s how I feel. It would be nice to be able to get over whatever is causing this, but what am I going to do about it? So many questions that don’t have a way of making sense. There is never a way to make sense of it all I suppose, that’s what this life is all about. If I had a way to make the future possible? I would so be on that. I’m not sure how that works though. There needs to be a way to make this life manageable. I doubt there seems to be a way to overcome anything. So many possibilities and thought processes out there, I doubt there is a way to overcome a lot in this life. Fri Jun 12 10:09:44 AM MDT 2026 I wish I could understand what this life is meant to turn out to be! I don’t get it most da...

Today Is A Day

Thu Jun 11 11:18:25 AM MDT 2026 Let’s talk about what today is. Today is a rather ungrateful day. It’s a Thursday, so that’s got to mean something. Of course I thought yesterday was Thursday. Such a bummer. I’m freezing today. I don’t know how hot it’s supposed to get outside? But I feel cold. I don’t usually feel cold in the summertime. I hope I’m not getting sick or coming down with something. I’m sitting in my office and I have my minky on my lap because I’m freezing! Sami’s friend dropped off some chairs so we have a place to sit now. They’re nice oversized comfy chairs too! Only cost her eight dollars, so that’s what we paid for them. It feels good to have a place to sit in while writing or watching TV again. Talk about a good thing to have around. Last night, I had some crazy thoughts. Typical “life is a simulation” thought process. I don’t know why I am having these thoughts. They seem to come out of nowhere. It just happens to be that way though. I’m not crazy, sure I’ve be...

Oh Life, You Bastard

Wed Jun 10 08:43:42 AM MDT 2026 Life, you’re such a fickle son of a bitch. I’m not sure how you do it, day in and day out. There’s always something going on where we don’t have a clue about what to do. If swearing up a storm would fix things? I would be swearing all day long. But it doesn’t fix a damn thing. See I just swore, and it didn’t do anything. I rest my case. If life had a purpose, what would it be exactly? I’m not sure I know the difference between life’s purpose and anything else that’s out there. To speak of such things, feels rather illogical at times. Why pursue something that you cannot obtain? Maybe that is the goal in this life. See what you can do, and see what will become of it? Not sure. Don’t know. Wed Jun 10 09:33:27 AM MDT 2026 If today had a theme, what would it be? I wonder. I think it would be psychosis is a bad thing that can happen to you and you don’t know how it will affect you. Yeah, something like that. Wed Jun 10 10:37:25 AM MDT 2026 If I had a do...