DreamSense

It’s raining outside right now. Supposed to rain all day long. I don’t know what to think about all of that though. It’s rain, I mean we need it…I understand that. But with rain there is so much more to it than that. We can drown in rain if there’s too much of it can’t we? Yeah, that’s what I was thinking. Rain will always be around. There’s no stopping it. Rain woln’t destroy us, God made sure of that promise. I think something about a rainbow int he sky. So He won’t flood the Earth a second time. Talk about a relief. Rain will continue to fall though. It just woln’t be as dangerous.

So the voices want me dead still. I don't know why they want this from me, but it's not something I'm willing to give up. If they were to try to understand the real me, they would grasp that they don't need me gone. I'm not sure they know what's going on with that train of thought. They are simply voices after all. They don't hagve to understand a thing in their own life...if they have lives. If I could tell them one thing, it would be this. Go away. Leave me alone. You don't need to be around me all the time anymore. I think you've served your purpose. But I can't be for certain, you are just voices after all! I know it wouldn't work, but it would be worth a shot.

Thu May 28 07:57:02 AM MDT 2026 Seriously, what is this life all about these days? I’m not sure I understand it at all. It would be nice to be able to figure it all out eventually. But I’m not sure how to do even that. I mean I can guess and guess until I come up with something? But I don’t know how to do that exactly. There are so many things in this life that get confusing and I hate it. I think life has a way of fucking with you, and we don’t quite know how to deal with it when it does that to us. It’s a messed up world after all. I mean look around, there are so many things going on in life that we don’t understand, so many things that we take for granted. So many impossible things that need to be explored but we don’t because they might be supernatural. We tend to blame a lot of things on God. If life goes good? It was God’s doing. If life goes bad? God has a plan for us and we just need to be patient &c. I’d like to think God is up there watching and rooting for us, even w...

Thursday, August 27, 2026 If I had the ability to grab hold onto whatever this life was, I would do it in a heartbeat. But I don’t think that’s possible. Life will continue to be whatever it wants to do and I will be lost finally without a way to escape. Life must come down to a simple compromise. If life wants or needs something, it will have to do that all by itself. If, on the other hand, it wants for nothing? Then it needs to shell out whatever there is to be explained on a simple summary level. If we can’t have that? What’s the point?

Wed May 6 10:35:51 PM MDT 2026 Oh another day has come and gone, and who are we to thank for this good fortune? That’s right. Ourselves. For we are the ones who are able to put the past behind us. We are able to understand and grasp whatever there is to grab hold of. But we must hold on tight. For there will never be another time where we are able to understand fully what is going on in our lifves. I wish I had an understanding of how the world works. How history is made. How things get invented, but I don’t have that luxury. There are times in life where we simply don’t understand anything there is to understand. We must have the ability to grab hold of some kind of meaning. Anything to make us better than who we currently are. I wish I understood what all of that meant, but I don’t. I think if I had the ability, I would find a way to overcome whatever problems I have and seek out the best way of getting there. I’m not sure that’s possible. But I sure as hell would like to try! May...

I’d like to think life would come about and make more sense than it does at the moment, but I doubt that will ever happen. Life comes and goes as it pleases and I have no idea why it does what it does. It would be nice for life to make sense. Depression and all comes about because well I don’t know why it comes about, it just does and here I am trying to over do or overcome it or something. I don’t quite understand why this life has to be the way it is.