DreamSense

Had a nightmare last night. I dreamed Dad died al over again. In my dream he managed to survive the choking incident in 2024 on Christmas Eve. The doc wanted to run some pressure tests by putting him in a huge tub of water, he would be fully submerged and wearing a mask so he could breathe. Well apparently it didn’t go so well. I received word in the mail from my uncle sending his condolences. I was in shock. How could he die? Again? My mom was furious that the doc waited a week to perform some kind of surgery on him. As I was talking to my mom I was choked up, I could barely breathe or talk. She then said I had leukemia in my brain and in my…appendix[?] Can’t remember where. I just broke down crying. Woke up in a panic and was very happy to see all was right in the world, that it was just a dream. But still, man. Talk about a trip!

Let’s face it, life isn’t fair. I don’t know how to explain it. I don’t suppose it’s meant to make any sense really. But who am I to say that? I’m a nobody. Sure it doesn’t feel like that at times, but trust me I’m a nobody. It would be nice not to feel like a failure. I don’t know how to feel that way though? I just feel that way and it’s all I’ve ever known. Talk about an anoying thought process…but it is what it is. Whatever would be nice doesn’t always make sense to me. It’s that strange of a thought. It would be nice to have self esteem, some self confidence even. But where am I going to find that? I don’t know. It’s just one of those things, I think. Doesn’t quite make sense when you’re not looking for an answer. Only when you’re constantly thinking about it are you under some kind of…trance. That’s the best way I can describe it. I don’t know how else to do that. It’s whatever. I don’t know what it is.

Why This Life? Kyle Eggleston Some wonder why this life. It’s a simple question without any kind of simple response. It would be nice to have an answer to it all. But we don’t. Not all answers come easily to us. There are some that avoid us at all costs. Life is one of those questions that seems to avoid people. Where are we going after we die and all of that. It would be nice to be able to figure it all out eventually. If that is at all possible.

Life Is Weird Kyle Eggleston Life is weird. I don’t know how else to explain it. Life is simply weird. To some people it seems normal to others it’s weird. I wish I could comprehend exactly what’s going on with life to make it not weird and everything else. But I can’t. So I will simply keep these thoughts to myself. Life is weird.

Sometimes we want to store the date/time as an integer. It makes sense sometimes. If you want to run updates on everything higher than a certain number, you can do it quite easily with an integer. If you want to run everything all over again, compare it to zero. All records will be processed again. Easy peasy. Here’s how one of my tables looks to achieve this integer method for a date/time: CREATE TABLE notes( id INTEGER primary key, title TEXT, note_txt TEXT, created_dt INTEGER not null default (strftime('%s', 'now', 'localtime')), exported_flag INTEGER not null default 0 ); See how that works? Yeah, it’s pretty neat if I do say so myself. Of course you have to convert it to make it human readable. To do that, I usually do something like this: SELECT id, title, note_txt, created_dt, strftime('%Y-%m-%d %H:%M', created_dt) as formatted_dt FROM notes ORDER BY id DESC LIMIT 1 But, I can see what you’re thinking. Why do it...

Son of a Bitch! Okay maybe not that bad. But still, I don’t feel good today. Maybe that was an attention grabber. Did it grab your attention? Well did it? It’s not like I screamed out MotherFucker! Not that would be a dang attention grabber. But I digress. What’s the point of it anyway? Yep, that’s what I was thinking. Life is good at the moment. I have a loving wife who I love and adore. It’s a good life to be sure. Sleep would also be good, but when you don’t sleep…what can you do about it? Not much I’m afraid.