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Missing My Dad And Other Things

Sun May 17 04:56:34 PM MDT 2026 Missing Dad I am missing my dad so much today. I don’t know how I can get through this life without thinking about him everyday of my life. I don’t know what to do about it. I mean I’m here, he’s not. He’s dead. There are so many emotions that come flooding in from time to time and I can’t seem to deal with any of them. It would be nice not to worry about anything anymore. I worry about the life after this one the most. What’s going to happen when we all die? Who will be there waiting on the other side for us? I hope my dad finds me. I hope he hasn’t forgotten about me. There are things in this life that don’t always make sense . I think living and dying are some of those things. It would be nice to be able to really understand what’s going on and figure it all out day by day, minute by minute. I don’t know if there’s an option for that though. Life seems to get in the way at times. It’s rather annoying. I don’t want it to be in the way of anything t...
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SQLite Read File

There is a simple way to read a file into a SQLite database. The syntax looks like this: INSERT INTO images(name, img) VALUES('my_photo', readfile('photo.jpg')); Naturally you wouldn’t want to do this for very large files. The database would grow rather large I would expect and might become unmanagable. But for small files like icons? Things like that? Yeah I don’t see why not. Seems like such a simple little thing to do doesn’t it. Yeah, that’s what I was thinking.
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Whatever This Life Is...

There are things in this life that don’t always make sense. Hell, I don’t even understand it most of the time. It would be nice to be able to understand something from this life without having to jump through all the hoops in order to get there. I know that sounds so much easier than it is, but it’s not really that easy at all. Life is just hard at times. That’s all there is to it. Hell, I don’t have all the answers to this life. It comes and goes in waves. That’s all which matters most to it all I suppose. You have to ride the current if you’re going to go swimming with the sharks. Does that make sense? It kinda makes sense to me in my head right now, I’m not sure if it will ever make any sense to anyone else. But for now, it’ll have to do. There are times we don’t want to be alive, I get that. I understand that. But the important thing about it all? Is to appreciate what we have in this moment in time. There doesn’t have to be something going on everyday of our lives. It can be ta...
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Blast From The Past: May 28, 2019

Silly Weird Things May 28, 2019 Life doesn’t always work out the way you wanted it to, or hope it to, or expect it to. Life just doesn’t work out that way. It is destructive and intrusive. It will destroy you. No matter where you go in life, you are bound to be destroyed. You can build yourself back up, but you have to be destroyed first. Don’t ask me what that means. I have no idea…it’s just a running thought in my head at times. Does that mean anything? I don’t know. Should it? Who knows. Who cares. Life is like that a lot…a lot of things just don’t matter anymore and here we are walking around in circles waiting for something to come along and take control from us. Whatever it is, it will find a way. So that’s life in a nutshell.
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Simulation Time

Life is a simulation . We are living in a simulation. There is no escape from this reality of it all. Once we accept our fate and the fate of the world as it were, we can be free from the pitfalls that befall us. Such an interesting thought process now isn’t it. Yeah, that’s what I was thinking too. If we can understand the truth behind this life, then we can begin to grasp everything that goes along with it. We don’t always get the luxury of getting the entire story when it comes to life. Whatever happens in this life is due to some sick and twisted mind behind it all. We don’t have control over what happens to us in this life. It’s all been mapped out long before we ever came here. That’s what this life is about. We don’t get to make the decisions we think we’re making. No, those decisions are made long before we are born and those decisions come to us because we are programmed to think them. That’s all there is to it. Kind of a let down isn’t it? Yeah, when I found out the truth...
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Blast From The Past: May 24, 2019

Silly Weird Thoughts May 24, 2019 Today has to get better. There’s nothing wrong with thinking that. It will get better right? Everything has a purpose supposedly…this is just a trial? I don’t know what this is. Things get better? I think? I hope? Maybe? Who really knows what goes on in this life. It’s just a life…just a silly stupid life which doesn’t make sense. So here we sit waiting for something to happen. Will it ever happen? I don’t know. It’s just a life ya know? yeah…something like that.
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Smallville Season 3

Been watching Smallville as of late. Yeah I’m trying to binge my way through it. I’m not sure how far I will get this time around. But I want to get all the way to season ten. I’m currently in Season 3. I’m liking the season so far, havne’t had any issues with it yet. It’s nice to see some familiar faces pop back up during this season. Lex going to the loony bin? Yeah that hit close to home as you can imagine. But I’m enjoying it. Like really enjoying it. I do believe I’ll be able to get all the way through season ten this time around instead of stopping at season six like I did last time. Not sure why that happened, but it did and that’s all there is to it.
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