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Depression Sucks

I’m kind of depressed today. I’m not sure where it’s coming from if I’m being completely honest with you. But it’s depression for sure. There doesn’t seem like there’s a way to overcome it. I’m not sure what to do about it. I don’t want to go to a mental facility. They’ll keep me for over a week. I think I’ve been depressed ever since I’ve moved back here. It’s a nice place to live, don’t get me wrong. But I just feel depressed here. There’s nothing I can do about it. I have to keep my head up and try and fit in, make things better wherever possible. Not sure exactly how to do that though. Life manages to get in the way at times. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life a lot of the time. Life just has a funny way of fucking with you. There doesn’t appear to be a way to overcome it. I wish there was someway I could make life do whatever I want it to do and have it stick. Yeah that’ll be the day. Whatever that happens, if it happens. I highly doubt it will though. Life isn’t meant to ...
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Blast From The Past: June 11, 2019

Sometimes You’re Just Wrong Jun 11, 2019 That’s right, sometimes you are just plain wrong. It happens and that’s fine. There’s nothing wrong with being wrong…say that three times fast! Yeah, nothing wrong about it at all. So here we all are, trying to do something for the good of the community etc. and that’s all which really matters.
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Latest VIMRC Setup

So, here’s my latest .vimrc file. So far I like it. The statusline is very helpful in letting me know certain things about the file. Like what kid of file it is, character position, where I’m at in the file, and the word count, it’s useful: " Set the maximum width of text to 80 characters set textwidth=80 " Optional: visual indicator for the 80th column set colorcolumn=80 set number " formatoptions settings: " t: Auto-wrap text using textwidth " c: Auto-wrap comments using textwidth " q: Allow formatting of comments with "gq" set formatoptions+=tcq set expandtab " Use spaces instead of tabs set tabstop=4 " Number of spaces that a tab counts for set shiftwidth=4 " Number of spaces to use for each step of (auto)indent set softtabstop=4 " Number of spaces that a tab counts for while performing editing operations syntax enable " Always show the status line set laststatus=2 " Define the format (File pa...
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Sometimes Life Changes Us

There are times where this life changes us. We don't always know or understand why that happens. Perhaps this life is meant to be better than it currently is? If that's the case, then I need to be able to figure that out. Nothing really makes sense anymore. I get that. But if I'm meant to be something better than I currently am, I best find out how to make that happen.
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Blast From The Past: June 10, 2019

What Even Is This Jun 10, 2019 There are times when life doesn’t quite make any sense. There are other times when life really doesn’t make any sense. Here we are inbetween those times and life really doesn’t make any sense. I suppose that will just have to do for now.
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Life Isn't Anything Normal

Let’s think about life for a moment. It’s something quite amusing and interesting at times. There are so many things in this life that we don’t fully grasp. It’s not that we don’t understand it, but more the fact that we can’t comprehend what’s going on with it all. That’s what life is. It’s a matter of time that makes us wonder about why we are here. I suppose if we understood everything there was to know about life, we wouldn’t have these problems we currently have. Life would be reasonable and understandable. It would be quite interesting to say the least. But we don’t have that ability now do we? No, I thought not. Life will always be a mystery to me. There isn’t anything I can do about it to make things better. It won’t always be miserable, but for the time being it can be the worst thing in the world, and I do mean the worst thing to come. It’s a simple fact that life doesn’t make much sense these days. I don’t get it, let me assure you. That’s what’s wrong with life most day...
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Therapy Isn't For Everyone

So … I had a therapy session. Messaging therapy. Yeah it’s not for me. I need to be able to speak with someone face to face, or audio or something. Just chatting over a messaging service is not what I had in mind when it comes to therapy options. Eh, it’s whatever. I’ll deal without the bullshit that is what was offered as a “free” plan. I’ll get over it. I’ll just find something else that will work for me, that actually works out well and will meet my needs better. I don’t blame the company or the person I spoke with briefly, but it’s just not for me it would seem. That’s okay though. I gave it a shot. Figured that’s the least I could do considering my mental health and everything that goes on. They just weren’t equiped with the kind of service I need I think. Maybe I don’t need therapy. Perhaps I can do without and I’ll be just fine. Yeah that’s a good idea. I can deal with life without the though process of a therapist seeking to help me. There’s nothing wrong with that. In a way...
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