WTF Man

 I'm so confused right now. Trying to balance bills and whatnot. It's not an easy task. Just trying to live life you know? It's never easy when life is considered. I don't know if I am able to figure out all of this at one time. I need to figure something out. A spreadsheet to figure out bills maybe? I don't know. It would be nice to be able to just sit down and figure out everything all at once. Is that possible? I don't know. I wish I could figure out everything there was to figure out, but it doesn't seem like there's a way to do that at the current moment in time. There has to be a way though, doesn't there? One would think so, maybe. I'm just rambling, aren't I? Yeah, that's what I thought.

I'm not sure what this post is about actually. It just seemed like a good starting point. WTF is a classic phrase to go along with anything that makes sense. WTF is this? For example. That's what I'm asking about what this post is. It's something, definitely something. But I don't know what it is. So why should we bind ourselves to one thing at a time. Can't there be multiple whatever's out there and we can be bound to all of them at once? That's what I'm thinking.

If you have the ability to think past all of the progress you've made in life, can't you see what your potential will be? I mean that's a nice thought and all, but who knows what's going to happen when this life is all over. I don't know, do you?

I wish I could simply lay down and die. It's a feeling I have several times throughout the year. Wouldn't life be easier if I were dead? People around me would think so. They wouldn't have to worry about me. There's nothing wrong with being dead is there. I mean lots of people die every single day. What's one more to the pile? Doesn't quite make sense does it. No, I didn't think so. But that's what it is and that's what I will have to deal with when the time comes. There's no point to this life. There doesn't feel like there's a point to this life right now. I'm just floating by watching the waves crash down around me.

There isn't that many thoughts in my head at the moment. I wish I could make myself understand what is going on most of the time, but I don't think that will ever happen in my lifetime. That's just how this life is at times, I fear. Panic sets in and then we are all sorts of jumbled up and nothing else matters. Why can't I figure it all out? I want it all figured out right now at once. Is that too much to ask for? Is that goal nothing good to go for? I don't know. It would appear that life needs to get a handle on itself before anything else happens.

So I say WTF to it all.