People Just Want To Write

The title says it all. People just want to write. I just want to write. I don't want to worry about styles or anything like that. I just simply want to put words down onto paper, or digitally rather. Paper can come later. It's those moments where all you want to do is just throw out words and form sentences, you don't want to have to think about font sizes or selections. Should this word be blue, or red? Should it be Times new Roman or Arial? Forget those decisions and just simply write.

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Ah the great part of life...or something like that.

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Ever wonder if people have a clue what's going on in their own life, let alone the lives of others? At what point does a person actually become aware of another being's ability to exist? Having a clue is what's needed the most in this day and age, and by the looks of things not everyone has that understanding.

Focus On Today

Don't think about tomorrow, focus on today. Today is now. Today is what's important right this moment. Tomorrow can come when tomorrow comes. Do not worry about that. Don't look at tomorrow yet, it's not here. Focus on what you can do today.

Sounds Familiar - Teachings in Alma

The life of Elder Abel Thornton, late of Johnston, R.I. A preacher in the Free-Will Baptist Connexion, and a member of the R.I.Q. meeting


"And we see that death comes upon mankind, yea, the death which has been spoken of by Amulek, which is the temporal death; nevertheless there was a space granted unto man in which he might repent; therefore this life became a probationary state; a time to prepare to meet God; a time to prepare for that endless state which has been spoken of by us, which is after the resurrection of the dead." (Alma 12:24)

His life was his own

It wasn't until
the lad was three
that he did learn
how to handle his folks

No one knew
what to do
regarding the boy
when he learned how to fly

Soaring and going
the boy would move
through the sky
until the worst happened

The townspeople were scared
of the boy who could fly
they avoided him much
most of the time

The boy didn't let this
get him down
for he knew it all too well
his life was his own

A poem about life

What is this life
I whispered to the sky
out of all the options
in the day, I had no clue

Why must I suffer
and deal with hardships
when nothing else
matter will do

Sometimes The Words Just Don't Stick

There are many times in this life where the words just don't stick around...nothing sticks around. It would be nice to be able to just express whatever you wanted to express and not worry about any of it. Life has to come by its own way and you have to be able to understand what's going on.

Yet here we are, and not everything makes sense. It doesn't want to make sense. It doesn't feel like it should make sense. I don't even know what that means. But that's what it feels like.

I wish I could just snap my fingers and fix everything. Life doesn't work like that either.

A day in the life

Ever wonder if what you're going through you're not alone in it? It can be true, but most people aren't around or near you. What do you do then? Hope for the best? You wish and hope and pray that something good will happen in your life. There's not much more than that.

There are so many things to accomplish in this life. Best be awake when the opportunities arrive.

Adventures of Peach and Sock

Once upon a time what a silly way to begin a story… but whatever. Once upon a time, you know that really is a strange way to begin a story. I mean what on earth does it mean? Yeah, I don’t know either… Anyway where was I? Oh yeah, the beginning… ahem. Once upon a time, there was this little jellybean named Peach. Now Peach was an insomniac of sorts, never getting any sleep… or was that Winkie… darn I hate it when I get these little critters confused. hmmm

Anyway, there sat Peach at a desk, as she always did, listening to music. Walking into the room, I noticed that she was listening to Lords of Acid, and what an interesting song that was. Humming along to the melody… yes I said humming, not humping! um…. anyway, she looked up to me and nodded. I just looked at her and said “Well, at least you’re doing something constructive with your time.” Peach glared at me as though she were getting ready to bite my shoe.

Peach would get that way once in a while, doing this that and the other just to see what she could get away with. She was the rebelous one of the group. Always trying to find out what she could get away with, stretching the limits and finding her bounds. Once she found a boundry and her comfort zone, she would continue to stretch that boundary just to see how far it would go. Peach was always the one with a quip or cocky coment before a serious reply came.

A few minutes later, Sock entered the room. Sock was more of a reserved, shy type of um… personality. Always having a thought in his mind, but always afraid to tell others what that thought was. He liked to write Poetry and kept most of his inner feelings and thoughts to himself. Sock was very intelligent, but was afraid of what the future could hold… yet he still persisted and continued on scribbling his thoughts down on paper. Sock was the one to talk to when you needed a serious answer about something.

Of course then came along Winkie. Winkie was a red dino, and well that one is just self explanatory.

Anyway, these are the three personailities that make up kegg… lol No I don’t have multiple personality disorder… it’s just fun to pretend. But yeah, that’s um… it. That’s where I have placed them in my life. Oy… I think way too much!
How do they fit in your life? You know they do… What’s that? Over analyzing things again? I’m a blue personality! Read up on it… LOL ok ok, I think I’m having waaaay too much fun with this. Say hi everyone!

Originally posted by Peach
Hi!!!

Originally posted by SockPuppet
Hi!!!!

Originally posted by Winkie
Hi!!!!

Originally posted by Kegg
psst… hey you… yeah you, the person reading this extremely long post about…. well nothing. Dang if you read through all of that and you actually understood it… wow! Hat’s off to you! ‘Cause I don’t even know if I understood that… see my theory is when someone gets tired, really tired like I am right now… they tend to um… well talk about nothing! It’s great fun! You should try it sometime!

Life Feels Weird

Feels kind of weird today. Not sure why. Well aside from the normal/usual. I was feeling agitated so I took some meds. Well the first one was taking its sweet time to get to me. So I took another one. Yeah...that's what did me in. Now I'm sleepy. Tired at best. Just very very sleepy. Struggling to keep my eyes awake and open right now. Oh well. I'm sure it will be okay eventually. Just have to get through dinner and then I can go relax. Maybe even take a nap if I feel up to it. 

Hmm did the time change? I think the time changed. I'm not sure though. I recall someone saying something about a time different and/or change coming...possibly today. Maybe that's all it is. I don't know.

That Moment

You're in the middle of an anxiety or panic attack. You don't know what to do about it, so you sit there waiting for something to happen. Something bad? Maybe. Something terrible? Possibly. Your mind is racing and telling you this that and everything else. So you pray and hope it stops. Hoping it stops does nothing...yet you're here waiting. Simply waiting for anything to happen. Something good. You need something good to happen.

You take a pill.

After 15 minutes...the pill kicks in and you can relax.

Words on a Page

It is to be understood yet never quite fully understood, that we are here for a reason. We might never come up with the reason why we are here, but that is okay.

There are days where we simply don't understand anything going on in this life. We are here for some reason, but what is that reason exactly? I do not have all of the answers needed in order to fully comprehend any of this life. Such reasons and answers must come by their own way. They have to come from their own understanding and without any kind of objection from the thinker of the thoughts. Yet, if we do not think, we cannot be understood by others. To think before speaking is key.

Ever experience something so profound and yet so terrible at the same time? You're just sitting there and a thought crosses your mind. What do you do about it? Do you accept the thought? Do you allow the thought to go? Does that thought linger to a point where you simply don't know what to do with it anymore? Sometimes thoughts just pop into our heads for no reason and we just have to deal with them.

What You Had

There are things in this crazy life
when nothing else is known
Some call it water
others it's a stepping stone
Becareful where you sleep
and mindful where you tread
For a morning in the future
you might just end up dead
A wasted day of sleep
is more to the mind at ease
Rest is a forgotten word
amidst all the work
Take a moment to yourself
and recall both good and bad
You never know what it is you'll lose
you'll never know what you had

By grace are ye saved?

Ephesians 2:8-9 For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:
Not of works, lest any man should boast.

Oh I hear you trying to say that you have to have works, because "faith without works is dead", and that people will show you their faith through their works. There seems to be a bit of a confusion on how we are saved. Does not the bible say "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life?" We have to believe in Jesus Christ, we have to have faith in Jesus Christ, we have to believe in the word, read the word, allow the word to bury a root within us so we may be saved.

What Is That Noise

There’s a strange noise coming from outside my house. I dare say it’s the city working on something. It’s annoying. That’s what it is. Don’t even start to discuss why it’s annoying. Just a random noise, someone digging a hole or something. Fixing a pipe or something. It’s always “or something” isn’t it.

Let’s not think about all the times “or something” came to mind. It happens to get lost in the shuffle and destroyed within ones mind. Someone will come along and fix it all you think. Well that someone never comes along and you just don’t quite know or understand what’s going on with any of it. So we sit here and we think about what’s going on. We want to understand and grasp everything, but we simply don’t know or have a clue of what to do about any of it.

So we wait. What is it we wait for? Clarification of some kind. We hope and want to have an understanding of whatever that thing was. The noise that enters our mind keeps coming. We keep waiting. There appears to be no end in sight. That’s what’s going on in life. Those are the things we look forward to. A part or a piece of silence that calms all fears.

Only Through Christ Are We Saved

It is only through Jesus Christ that we are saved. It says so in the bible:

"'And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.' Thomas said to him, 'Lord, we don’t know where you are going, so how can we know the way?' Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. If you really know me, you will know my Father as well. From now on, you do know him and have seen him.” (John 14)

Good TImes

Remember The Good Times 

Times will come and go, as will life. You just never know when times will be good or bad. It's important to remember the good times.

It's those times you'll look back on fondly and remembering that things aren't always that bad.

Life can turn around faster than you think. Stronger than you ever hoped for.

Music Lyrics

My only friends are Pirates... ~ Kenny Chesney

Listened to this song today. Makes me wonder at times if I really am better just as a memory and nothing else.

Listen to the lyrics, you don't need to go further than that.

Sometimes all we feel is that we're not good enough for a person. We don't belong. We're an outcast or something along those lines. We simply don't belong anywhere, espeically in a relationship.

What Is Existence

To be or not to be, that is the question. ~ Hamlet

Ever have a moment in life where you simply wonder what is going on? If you exist, if you belong etc? I would hope I'm not alone in this thinking.

What if we don't actually exist? What if we are here and yet we are simply in someone else's mind. Our lives being played out in a dream.

 Lionello DelPiccolo

Need to Breathe

Have to focus
need to breathe
want to find a way
to live

Survival of the fittest
never seemed to be
the easiest way
to thrive

Living as a metaphor
surviving in the night
hoping for a life
to be just quite right

First Vision Accounts

There are multiple First Vision accounts for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. That is, the experience of Joseph Smith seeing God face to face and talking with Him and Jesus Christ.

Last General Conference, a worldwide church meeting for the LDS faith, President Russel M. Nelson stated that church members need to brush up on the First Vision. He didn't state where to read it.

Earlier this year, it was clarified that one should go to the Pearl of Great Price for the version to read.

Interesting how just the other year, the church changed its narrative regarding the First Vision in it's book Saints. It attempted to mash all of the different accounts into one.

DS9 LCARS

Ah Lcars interfaces... I managed to get a few screenshots from a video game, DS9 Harbinger. So I created my own "bash" of the two. Obviously a Federation LCARS wouldn't be showing up in a DS9 interface, but I found it interesting for sure. I plan on creating my own Cardassian LCARS interface, I need to do some major research on it first to see how it all works and looks though.

CoronaVirus = Zombie Apocalypse?

I mean it is possible right? The CDC has an entire section of their website for such a thing of zombies... some could think it was a joke. Others might think it is for real. Does the CDC know something we don't?

Could the Coronavirus be linked to a zombie pandemic at all, and we're just sitting here twiddling our thumbs waiting for something to happen? Yeah something like that. It would be nice to be able to figure out for certain. I mean who know what might happen with it all. If we do end up as zombies, I hope I die a quick death.

https://www.cdc.gov/cpr/zombie/index.htm

Doctors and their ways

Doctors can be interesting at times. You just never know what they'll do next or how they'll go about doing it. I mean some doctors do things they think is right...I suppose all doctors do things they think is right. You just never know which doctor is right and which doctor is wrong. Who do you fully believe ya know? Yeah, that's a weird thing for sure.

Life is just weird

I'm not sure how else to explain it. Life is weird... it's more than weird, it's annoying and evil and just plain down right disgusting. I"m wide awake right now and I don't know what to do with myself. I mean come on now, I should be able to figure out something in this life. Yet I can't and here I am wondering what will happen when life is all over and everything ends. Will I be happy? I'm not happy now....that's not fair though. I should be happy. I should be able to be happy. I don't understand it. Happiness doesn't come simply because I will it to come, something has to give.

Life?

What is the purpose of life? I’m really getting stumped at this level of thought. I mean I know what we’re supposed to believe is the purpose of life, to do all we can become to live with God again, have multiple wives, create our own planets and have lots of spirit babies so they can do exactly what we went through while we were here on earth.

However, that really doesn’t answer the question. If that’s all we’re here to do...I mean doesn’t that seem kind of redundant and boring to you? It does to me. I’d rather think we’d live with God instead of going off on our own. Wouldn’t you want to be with that being who gave you life forever? Instead of going off being your own god and creating whatever you wanted etc? I don’t know...there has to be something more to it than that.

Maybe I’m just not thinking about it all clearly, and I don’t know what’s going on at all. Perhaps that’s just how this life is meant to be played out? Who’s to know exactly how this life works. We all live here for a reason maybe...or maybe it’s just a fluke that we’re all here living and there isn’t anything after we die. We just sleep and there’s nothing beyond that. Hopefully I’ll figure it out one of these days.

Most days I just want to die. There’s nothing personal against anyone, I’m just tired of living in pain and well living. Thinking. Talking. I’m just tired of it all. It doesn’t mean I’ll ever be able to get over such thoughts, but well they do tend to happen. So that’s why we live here I suppose in this life. We have to deal with dreaded thoughts and living a life in pain. Yep, that’s a good conclusion. Come on now, there has to be more to it than that!

What is Life?

What exactly is life? I mean is it something to be happy about? Is it something to be cherished and needed, wanted, wished for? Makes you wonder at times doesn't it. Yeah, that's what I think too.

Who are you talking to?

Oh hello there, I'm talking to my audience would you like to join in?

No, not really.

Okay, you can just sit there...I guess and um do what...

Observe

Right, observe.

We'll um let that one observe sure... what was I talking about? Oh right, life. Why do we live here on this planet? I mean, if there's to be a belief in some supernatural being, why are we here? If there isn't a belief in a supernatural being, why are we here? What is life's purpose?

There are a lot of people who want to believe in a supreme being. They want that figure to look over them and watch out for them. Others don't know what they want...they look to other things to hope for.

It's an interesting thought process if you think about it.

I'm starting to draw a blank on what the purpose of life is. Some would have you believe it's just to be good to each other. Others would have you believe something different. It really is a confusing process to think about.

Had A Vacation

 Yep, that's right, had a vacation. It was nice to get away. Actually it was just very much needed to visit family after the latest bout I've had. Getting divorced and going through all of the mental things...was just a bit too much for my mind. I had to get away for a bit. So I did. It was relaxing, didn't have any panic attacks and was able to come back calm, cool, and collected. Like I said it was very much needed. Visited with family while I was away, and that was good.