I feel like I'm dropping lately. Falling into an endless sea where I'm being swept away by currents I don't understand. So many thoughts going through my head. I can't articulate them all. That's how bad it is in there right now. I wish I had a way to simply ignore these thoughts and get over them. But I don't think there's anything I am able to do about it. I wish I could, trust me. I can't though. Something about all of this feels wrong. I shouldn't be flailing my arms about trying to float. I should be floating peacefully knowing where I'm going. But it doesn't feel like that.
Over the years I've had to deal with suicidal ideation. Those are thoughts of being dead, some more extreme than others. It causes issues for me a lot of the time. It's not an easy thing to talk about at all. Here's what it is: Suicidal ideation ( suicidal thoughts ) are thoughts or ideas centered around death or suicide . Experiencing suicidal ideation doesn’t mean you’re going to kill yourself, but it can be a warning sign.
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