DreamSense

That's really all it is. These days, Christmas is just another day. I don't know what to do about any of that. I don't know what to do. I wish I did. It would be nice to be able to figure all of that out. It would be nice to be able to fully just understand everything. But I can't. Not until everything can find a way to make some kind of sense. There's nothing wrong with that I don't think. But I just wish I had an answer to any of it, most of it, all of it.

So many things in this life that you cannot control. It's a weird thing to do to try and control your own life. Not everything makes sense, sometimes we all just have to deal with things in our own way. There's no right or wrong answer to any of it. We just simply live and let live. Is that a thing? I'm not sure. If it isn't, well there could be worse things to worry about and think about. But here we are. Wondering if we've done the right thing. So many thoughts pass though our mind, we don't know what to do with half of them. So we sit and wait, wait and sit. See what happens and everything else. That's what this life is all about. Just waiting and seeing what happens.

There are so many things I don't want to feel. I just don't want to feel anything. Is that a wrong thing to think about? Is that something that shouldn't be anything at all to even consider? I don't know. I get that no one knows me. It's a thing for sure. So many things in this life don't make sense, they don't even matter. Yet here we are hoping and waiting for something better to come along and to actually make everything have some kind of sense. How do you do it?

Why does life have to be such a crazy place to be some days? I don't understand it. I wish everything would just make sense.