Mon Jun 15 10:29:51 AM MDT 2026 Today is but a day, there’s nothing else that comes from it. It will be whatever it wants to be and we cannot do anything about it. If I had complete control over my life, what would we need for a higher power to be watching over us? We need to have that higher being in place though, at least I think we do. Without Him watching over us, we might screw up bad beyond the point of no longer being able to do whatever it is we need to accomplish in this life. So confused at times, I’m not sure where this confusion comes from though. I need to be able to make sense of something in this life. If I don’t? Then what is the purpose of life? I don’t get it. Sure there are a ton of things I don’t get in this life, I guess that’s just how this life is meant to be? I don’t know. I wish … oh how I wish I could have it make sense to me. But it doesn’t ever want to make sense for me. Do you see the problem I’m facing here? The dilemma I have at times? If you don’t, we...
I, for the lack of better words, am just sad and alone. I'm sure there are better words to describe what I am going through right now, but I can't seem to find them. I wish I could simply disappear into nothing. Who knows what I would find there. Maybe I would find happiness finally. I thought I had found happiness twice and it didn't turn out to be that.
So, here I sit waiting whatever comes my way. Hopefully it will be something I can actually take care of and make sense. Maybe it's just not in the cards for me to be happy. Can I accept that? Supposedly God has some kind of plan for me, and I don't even know what that plan is.
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