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Life Has A Way

Life always has a way of doing whatever it needs to do. There’s nothing wrong with that thought process. It comes and goes without a second thought. We can’t easily figure out why life does this to us, we have to understand something at some point, but if we don’t? Well, no harm no foul. It’s life and we have to continue going forward to see everything that is out there. There’s nothing we can do about it. Life will move foreward without the ability for us to do anything but wonder what this life will eventually be like in the far distant future. Oh what a joy that could bring about. If life has a way, we will be able to get from point a to point b in no time at all. It feels like a circle at times. A = B = C, isn’t that what the crazy future guy in Star Trek: Voyager tried to explain? Yeah, something like that. It’s quite an interesting thought process to be sure. It’s life though, nothing can be done about it. So let life be what it wants to be, there’s nothing wrong with that tho...

What To Do

 What to do, what to do. That is the question that bothers my mind the most. It's rather annoying to be bothered by such a question. It would be nice to be able to figure out why my mind is constantly thinking about this. I know I have to make up my mind and do something. I just don't know how to go about it quite yet. I've been told everything will work out. But how is that going to happen?! I'm not seeing the end of the tunnel right now. It's very dark where I am and there is no light in sight. It would be nice to be able to question things without being looked down upon by others.

Questioning isn't a bad thing. To me it's healthy and quite an interesting thing to do. I'd rather question things than just follow in line mindlessly waiting for the next order. Is that what life is? Someone giving orders and everyone just takes it. I don't think I signed up for that. It would be nice to figure that out too.

What about those people who follow a leader like lemmings. What about them. They have opinions that matter too. Do they get a voice in whatever it is they are following? That's a good question isn't it. If you don't have a voice, how do you expect change to occur. Everyone's voice needs to be heard. There can't just be one person making all the decisions for everyone. It might come back to that person after voices have been heard, and they can decide which course of action to take based on the people's vote.

But we're back to thinking of what I need to do. That's finding a place to call my own. They say there's no place like home. Well, that's true. Finding a place, you can call home is so important. You have to have a place, that's all there is to it. Life can grow from there.

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