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Life Has A Way

Life always has a way of doing whatever it needs to do. There’s nothing wrong with that thought process. It comes and goes without a second thought. We can’t easily figure out why life does this to us, we have to understand something at some point, but if we don’t? Well, no harm no foul. It’s life and we have to continue going forward to see everything that is out there. There’s nothing we can do about it. Life will move foreward without the ability for us to do anything but wonder what this life will eventually be like in the far distant future. Oh what a joy that could bring about. If life has a way, we will be able to get from point a to point b in no time at all. It feels like a circle at times. A = B = C, isn’t that what the crazy future guy in Star Trek: Voyager tried to explain? Yeah, something like that. It’s quite an interesting thought process to be sure. It’s life though, nothing can be done about it. So let life be what it wants to be, there’s nothing wrong with that tho...
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So This Is Life

Life can come at you in so many different ways.

Sometimes you don't want to see how it's coming at you. You want to run and hide from it all. You don't even want to care about how it's coming at you. That's how terrible it can feel at times. It's not always like that, but some days it is. I'm not saying that's how it always is of course. So don't be trying to take that from this.

20 Years this website has been in existence. It has gone through many iterations. I never have figured out the exact format I want it in. Not yet. I suppose that's what life does to you.

Sometimes it's not easy to live in this life, that much is certain. Yet here we are hoping everything will work out in the end and we will be able to figure it all out.

There's a word that defines me the most, that's anxiety. It's a pain in the butt.

The end of one's life can be a quick thing or it can take a while. What is it about death that makes people uneasy? It would seem like a natural part of life. Would it not? I get it you don't want your loved one to go away and all of that. But sometimes it's just time. But people are afraid to die themselves.

This life is ever so fragile. Everyone has their vulnerabilities. Some may not want to show those to other people and that's okay, but everyone has them. That's just how this life works out for the most part.

Sometimes thinking about life can drive you up the wall. Never knowing what to expect sounds like it's a good reason to worry about things for certain. It could be worse you could be hearing voices and what not. Now that's a crazy time to be had I know I've experienced it firsthand.

Then there are visual hallucinations. Those are where you see things that aren't there.

Speaking of crazy. Is it possible for me to call myself crazy but not like it when other people call me that? Is that a thing? It sounds kind of petty at first. But in a way I am crazy to a degree. Sure everyone we know is crazy to a specific degree/setting in life. But to just blurt out that they are crazy seems to be quite a turn around.

I wonder at times if this life even matters. Does it matter to me? Does it matter to other people? who exactly does this life matter to? I don't understand. If it matters to someone, why doesn't it really matter to me? Maybe that's the question I should be asking.

There are times the thoughts can be too much for me. They stick around because there's no place else for them to go I think. 

  1. Life Isn't Always Easy 
  2. Anxiety 
  3. Diary 
  4. Mental Illness 
  5. Medications 
  6. Schizoaffective Disorder 
  7. Suicide 
  8. The End of Life 
  9. Death 
  10. Worry 
  11. Voices 
  12. Visual Hallucinations 
  13. Whispers 
  14. Demons 
  15. Crazy 
  16. Suicidal Ideation 
  17. Over Thinking 
  18. You Can't Tell Me To NOT Hear Voices! 
  19. Psychosis And Trauma 
  20. A Simulation? Maybe. 
  21. Overthinking 
  22. Depression With Psychosis 
  23. Mental Illness 
  24. Simulation 
  25. Voices And Hallucinations 
  26. More Psychosis 
  27. Anxiety Vs Depression 

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