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Smallville Season 4 Episode 17

I loved this episode! It truly put forth what would eventually become Clark and Lex’s real friendship. Their battling each other, Lex using Kryptonite against Clark was genius, and when he said the following line? You were right about me all along, Mr. Kent. I am the villain of the story, WOW! Talk about an amazing delivery. We finally got a taste of what they would be in the future. Pure enemies. But that line was the best part of the episode.

So This Is Life

Life can come at you in so many different ways.

Sometimes you don't want to see how it's coming at you. You want to run and hide from it all. You don't even want to care about how it's coming at you. That's how terrible it can feel at times. It's not always like that, but some days it is. I'm not saying that's how it always is of course. So don't be trying to take that from this.

20 Years this website has been in existence. It has gone through many iterations. I never have figured out the exact format I want it in. Not yet. I suppose that's what life does to you.

Sometimes it's not easy to live in this life, that much is certain. Yet here we are hoping everything will work out in the end and we will be able to figure it all out.

There's a word that defines me the most, that's anxiety. It's a pain in the butt.

The end of one's life can be a quick thing or it can take a while. What is it about death that makes people uneasy? It would seem like a natural part of life. Would it not? I get it you don't want your loved one to go away and all of that. But sometimes it's just time. But people are afraid to die themselves.

This life is ever so fragile. Everyone has their vulnerabilities. Some may not want to show those to other people and that's okay, but everyone has them. That's just how this life works out for the most part.

Sometimes thinking about life can drive you up the wall. Never knowing what to expect sounds like it's a good reason to worry about things for certain. It could be worse you could be hearing voices and what not. Now that's a crazy time to be had I know I've experienced it firsthand.

Then there are visual hallucinations. Those are where you see things that aren't there.

Speaking of crazy. Is it possible for me to call myself crazy but not like it when other people call me that? Is that a thing? It sounds kind of petty at first. But in a way I am crazy to a degree. Sure everyone we know is crazy to a specific degree/setting in life. But to just blurt out that they are crazy seems to be quite a turn around.

I wonder at times if this life even matters. Does it matter to me? Does it matter to other people? who exactly does this life matter to? I don't understand. If it matters to someone, why doesn't it really matter to me? Maybe that's the question I should be asking.

There are times the thoughts can be too much for me. They stick around because there's no place else for them to go I think. 

Life Isn't Always Easy 

Anxiety 

Diary 

Mental Illness 

Medications 

Schizoaffective Disorder 

Suicide 

The End of Life 

Death 

Worry 

Voices 

Visual Hallucinations 

Whispers 

Demons 

Crazy 

Suicidal Ideation 

Over Thinking 

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