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If I Could Reach The Sky

Do you ever wonder what would happen if you could reach the sky? Yeah I do at times. We know what happened to Icarus when he flew too close to the Sun. His wings made of wax melted and he fell to the Earth. Now this of course is Greek Mythology, I’m not sure how much of it is real. If the myth is real, then man cannot fly that close to the Sun without getting burned. If it is indeed just a myth and not real, then there is nothing to worry about. I fear that some of us try to do things that we are not in control over our lives or destiny, that’s what it feels like at times. But what are we meant to think of that? I’m not sure. Whatever the case, Icarus tried and failed. But the thing to remember? He tried. If we try without worrying about what others think about us, we can tend to achieve amazing things. I hear you, “But Icarus failed!” Yes, he did fail but he tried. Isn’t it more important to try than to fail? Failure doesn’t have to be a bad thing, it can simply be a learning exper...
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Wrapped Up Tight

 I'm wrapped up in a blanket, and it feels great. I love a good blanket. There's nothing wrong with that. It feels so secure and warm to be able to snuggle up in one. Helps me to think better too, I think. There's not much room for warmth these days. I don't know what it is about basements, but they get chilly. Interesting how that works. Probably because they're lower in the ground usually. I like basements though, they feel warm and cozy to me. Something that I can deal with when life is too rough on my mind.

Still wish I could turn back time. But I can't and that's frustrating to me. There has to be a way to fix things. Somehow things must be fixed. But I can't seem to find a way. So that theory is shot all to hell and back now isn't it. No point in pursuing that train of thought. There are so many thoughts that need to just get thrown out and never thought about again. But I'm not sure how any of that even works. I just have to remember who I am and what I'm capable of. Or something like that.

Life seems to be playing tricks on me. I don't like it. There's got to be a way to overcome this nightmare of a life. Once you put the rocking chair in a locked position, you can no longer rock. I don't want life to end up the same way. Life is pretty messed up as it is, it doesn't need my help to get any messier.

So sleepy. That's what I get for waking up at 4:30 FOR THE FOURTH DAY IN A ROW!!! Yeah, it's pretty bad if you ask me. Usually, I'll wake up from some dream I'm having or something like that. It just jerks me awake and then I'm awake for the day. Kinda simple right? Yeah maybe. Maybe not, it's something to look into for sure. I'm not getting my usual number of hours of sleep. Should I be worried about that? I don't have a clue.

There should be an off switch for our brains. Something that you can switch on, and you don't overthink or hear voices or feel weird or anything. That would be ideal. But it would probably be abused and overused to the point of people going crazy. There's always a downside to something. Can't ever have all the upsides to any of it. Oh well, you live and let live.

The tiredness is starting to catch up with me from waking up early. I should probably take a nap or something. Wake up when I'm more alert perhaps. Eh who knows what's going on anymore. It's just life being weird to me. I don't need that.

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