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Depression VS Human

 I don't know where the depression stops, and my own thoughts begin. That's how bad it can be at times. I feel so alone, so down in my life. I haven't felt this down in a long time. I wish someone had all the answers to it that wasn't medicine. But I doubt anyone has any answers like that. It's just a thing I have to get through, I guess. So many things in this life that don't make sense and here I am sitting in the middle of it all. So, what am I supposed to do about all of this? I need to do something. Anything. I don't want to talk to another therapist. All they do is cost money. I keep paying and paying and it feels like a waste of time. Something needs to happen. Something good. I just don't know what it is. Life just isn't fair right now. If I could go back to the way life was, I might be able to figure out things better. But there's no going back is there. No, I didn't think so.

This life is difficult at best. I'm drowning in just about everything imaginable. You name it I've probably got it going on. There needs to be some let up somewhere anywhere that I can just figure things out. But I don't know how to do that. There needs to be a light at the end of the tunnel, I'm just not seeing it.

Been stressed lately. You would be too if you were in my shoes. I don't know what to do about all of it. It would be nice to be able to just figure something out, but I'm not sure on how to do that. Life is just growing too complex at the moment. I don't know what to do.

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