Wednesday, December 25, 2019

Christmas Is Just Another Day

That's really all it is. These days, Christmas is just another day. I don't know what to do about any of that. I don't know what to do. I wish I did. It would be nice to be able to figure all of that out. It would be nice to be able to fully just understand everything. But I can't. Not until everything can find a way to make some kind of sense. There's nothing wrong with that I don't think. But I just wish I had an answer to any of it, most of it, all of it.

Saturday, December 14, 2019

Life Is Weird

So many things in this life that you cannot control. It's a weird thing to do to try and control your own life. Not everything makes sense, sometimes we all just have to deal with things in our own way. There's no right or wrong answer to any of it. We just simply live and let live. Is that a thing? I'm not sure. If it isn't, well there could be worse things to worry about and think about.

But here we are. Wondering if we've done the right thing. So many thoughts pass though our mind, we don't know what to do with half of them. So we sit and wait, wait and sit. See what happens and everything else. That's what this life is all about. Just waiting and seeing what happens.

Wednesday, December 4, 2019

I don't want to feel

There are so many things I don't want to feel. I just don't want to feel anything. Is that a wrong thing to think about? Is that something that shouldn't be anything at all to even consider? I don't know. I get that no one knows me. It's a thing for sure. So many things in this life don't make sense, they don't even matter. Yet here we are hoping and waiting for something better to come along and to actually make everything have some kind of sense. How do you do it?

Tuesday, December 3, 2019

Why Life

Why does life have to be such a crazy place to be some days? I don't understand it. I wish everything would just make sense.

Wednesday, September 25, 2019

The Music Plays

Life comes at us when we really least expect it to. Something goes a bit wonky, and we are left to put the pieces back together. The music simply continues to play on without stopping. Life doesn't stop because you are having a difficult time to get through something. Life doesn't just give up. It has to keep flowing for all the other billions of people around the world. It would be quite odd if everything just stopped because one person's heart gave way.

So, life doesn't work that way. Good to know. What are we to do with the broken pieces of a heart that's holding together with duct tape and hope? Can a person live off of hope alone? I'm not sure. I imagine one could really wish that would work out...if it does great. If it doesn't? Then there could be other issues down the road. Who knows. Whatever the case, life continues to move on. The music still plays.

Monday, September 23, 2019

Needs vs Wants

Wanting a need, needing a want. What ever happened to it all? There are needs and there are wants. Sometimes it's difficult to distinguish between the needs and wants. Difficult is really a tame word for it. It really sucks and I wish there was a way to differentiate between the two better.

But some days there isn't, and that hurts. Trying to figure it all out...it should be able to be figured out right? I mean people do it all the time. Do I need this or do I want this? It has to work out somehow...some day...somewhere. Yeah, something like that. If it doesn't? Well, what are you supposed to do with any of it? I don't know. I really don't have a clue.

Sunday, September 22, 2019

Why do people want to be wanted

It's a simple thought, is it not? Why do people want to be wanted? I want to be wanted, I want to actually feel that want. But why is that? Why do I want to feel wanted by someone?

Is that normal? Is it right?

What does any of this mean?

Things I Want To Say

There are things I want to say but am afraid to utter the words. It's like the words form on my lips, yet they cannot escape my thoughts. There's no reason for this, they need to be said. They want to be said. But why can't they be said?

Abandoned Feelings

Ever walk around a goodwill or other kind of thrift store? You see all of these things which people simply discard over the years. Some things look like they are useful to you, but they were discarded by someone else.

As I walk around these stores, I feel abandoned like these very same objects. I feel like an object at times. Tossed aside, not loved anymore. Simply dropped on the ground at a way station of life.

So that's what life feels like at times.

Penguins Don't Feel Human Emotions

It is true, penguins can feel emotions but they cannot feel human emotions. I wish I were a penguin who didn't need to feel anything. Who couldn't feel human emotions in anyway possible. So what does one do with these emotions? Do I talk about them? Do I discuss them? What am I to do with all of these emotions that I don't want to feel?

Another Day

Life comes at you another day
another year
everything else
just rests

So here we are
waiting and wondering
what all there will be
to discuss in the future

Why Is Life

For a moment, life almost felt normal again. It was great. I was trying to move on the best I could and see what was out there. It doesn't mean that's exactly what happened...but well you never know what will happen when you meet new people.

Amazing people with amazing smiles and personalities. Beautiful as well.

So here we are, just trying to do our best with what we have.

It Was All A Dream

Night had come early. Winter was in full swing. Cold nights and winter snow storms seemed to fill the air.

Sandra didn’t mind the cold air in the house. At night she would simply bundle up with more blankets. Sandra preferred to sleep naked. She felt better that way. The blankets helped add warmth to her already warm body.

As Sandra fell asleep she began to dream. Her dreams were typical most of the time unless she had a nightmare. Tonight’s dream would be something…different.

Sandra had just gotten back from the bar where she met a guy. He was six foot tall, blue eyes and black hair. Think Superman but without the super powers. She gave him her number expecting him to call, he never did.

Oh well it was probably for the best. She didn’t want to give her hopes up on some fucker who didn’t care about her.

Sandra’s dreams would prove different though that night.

She was in the bar sitting there talking and flirting with the bartender. Most bartenders would give her a free drink if she did the right kind of flirting. It didn’t matter the gender, she had been able to flirt with both men and women equally.

Tonight Jenny was working. Sandra was pulling out all the stops, she wanted to get drunk fast.

“So, Jenny” Sandra said “what’s a nice girl like you doing in a dump like this?”

The bartender smiled at the lame attempt. This wasn’t her first rodeo. She had been hit on by patrons before all to get a drink. There was something different about this woman in the red dress though, Jenny wanted to see what made her tick, so she played along.

“Oh the usual, just paying bills. Getting by.” Jenny smiled back at Sandra as she filled a glass of beer for another customer. “You know the drill.”

Sandra did know the drill. Everyone had bills to pay. Some days she felt as though she had more than most. But that was beside the point.

Jenny flashed Sandra a smile. They had been talking nonsense all evening. What she really wanted to know was if Sandra was interested in her. Not a relationship of course, she just wanted to fuck the girl and be done with her.

Biting her lip, Sandra watched as Jenny put a Martini down in front of her. “For me?”

Jenny nodded.

Taking a sip of the Martini, Sandra smiled. It was perfect, just as she had hoped.

Jenny continued to smile at Sandra. Soon this women would be putty in her hands, she could feel it. “Come by after work, I’ll fix you another.” She winked.

Sandra smiled. Taking her drink she left the bar and sat in a corner booth waiting for Jenny’s shift to end. She listened to the music, watched a game here and there. Simply enjoyed herself.

A man approached Sandra’s booth. His red hair shined in the dim light. “This seat taken?”

Sandra looked him up and down. “It is now.” She patted the chair next to her.

“I’m Jake.” The man said.

“Sandra” she introduced herself.

Without thinking, Sandra rubbed Jake’s leg. He didn’t stop her. Before long, she had his hard cock out and was rubbing the shaft up and down.

Jake leaned back in his chair and moaned.

Jenny looked over towards Sandra’s direction and saw what was going on. She smiled, at least someone was having a good time in the bar.

Sandra went down on Jake. His precum tasted good. Rubbing his balls as she sucked him, Sandra could feel her pussy getting wet. She was horny and turned on.

She kept stroking until the point where Jake came in her mouth. Swallowing all of his seed, she licked her lips.

“Mmmm thanks for dessert.” Sandra said. “You may go now.”

Jake looked at Sandra as he zipped his pants up. Go? He wanted to fuck her bad. “Come on now, we can continue…”

Sandra shook her head. “No thanks, you’re not my type.”

Jenny watched as Jake left the table. Fuck. She thought. She couldn’t wait to feel Sandra’s tongue on her clit as she ate her out. Reaching down, Jenny part her pussy lips with her finger and tasted herself. She loved the way her pussy tasted.

Sandra woke up. Her heart was beating fast. Noticing her sheets were soaked, Sandra gathered she had cum. She smiled at the fact.

Looking over to the clock she noted the time. Eleven PM. The bar was still open. Sandra hopped out of bed and got ready, Jenny would be getting laid that night.

The Encounter

Steve walked up to Lilly. Looked her up and down. He could only imagine the hell she had been through. "I'll pay for this. Don't you worry."

Lilly shook her head "No, I have a check…"

Steve smiled. "Do not worry. I have it taken care of." Walking up to the front of the restaurant he paid for her meal. As Steve made it back, his bright blue eyes made contact with hers. He sat down across from her.

Lilly smiled, "That was kind of you. I can't believe that jerk stood me up like that."

Steve placed his hand on the table playing with a napkin. "Well jerks do exist in the world. I'm sorry you had to run into that guy."

Lilly nodded. She couldn't stop staring at him. it was as though she had met him before.

"Well, I'd better let you go." Steve said standing up.

Lilly smiled. "Thank you again." Taking a sip of wine, she watched as he left the restaurant.

Looking down at the table, something caught her eye. A business card? She picked it up... sure enough it was the man's business card. That sly devil wanted her to contact him. Putting the card in a safe location, she finished her meal and headed home.

The next day at work, all Lilly could think of was the stranger that helped her out from the night before. There was something in his eyes that screamed "take me now". Was she imagining it?

Lilly stared at the business card sitting on her desk. As she picked up the phone, she felt warm. Blushing as she dialed the number.

"Hello?" Steve's voice answered.

Lilly paused, almost wanting to hang up the phone.

"Hello?" Again the warm voice of the man spoke.

"Hi." Lilly finally said. "I wanted to thank you again for last night. This is Lilly." Her legs were shaking... the voice of a sexy man. She wanted him.

She could hear Steve smile. "Well hey there. Glad I could help." He hadn't expected to hear from her so quickly. He imagined what she was wearing and what he wanted her to be wearing. Or rather what he hoped she wouldn't be wearing... for the clothes, he imagined, would look better on the floor.

Lilly bit her lip. "I want to see you again."

Steve couldn't help but smiling. "Me too. What are you doing for lunch?"

Before Lilly could think, she said what was on her mind. "Sucking your cock." She froze.

Steve equally froze. Did she just say what he thought she said? "Well... that can be arranged." He said as he could feel his member perk up.

Lilly grinned. After agreeing on a place to meet, she picked up her purse and left her office.

Twenty minutes later, Steve arrived at the hotel. Room 4007 was his destination. As he made his way across the lobby he wanted to run. But he walked... quickly.

The elevator ride felt like an eternity. 1... 2... 3... finally the 4th floor. As he stepped off the elevator he could feel his heart beat faster. As he reached the door, he found it slightly open.

Steve opened the door. There was Lilly sitting on the bed. Her chocolate coffee colored skin glowed in the afternoon light. She was wearing a white blouse with a green skirt. The blouse was lightly falling off her shoulder.

As Lilly saw him, she smiled. Standing up she walked towards him.

Steve was wearing business casual. Slacks and a button up long sleeved shirt. As Lilly came near him, he held her. Placing his left hand under her skirt, he felt her thigh. His right hand at her back he pulled her in close. Feeling her back, Steve found her panty line, placing two fingers beneath her panties right on her ass he rubbed her lightly and leaned in for a kiss.

It was a deep kiss. His tongue explored her mouth, her tongue explored his. She put her right hand near his swelling cock... teasing it.

Steve continued to rub her thigh.

Pulling apart for a second, he lifted the blouse off of her and lowered her skirt down to the floor. Lilly unbuttoned Steve's shirt and removed it. Steve kicked off his shoes and socks. He loosened his belt and unbuttoned his pants. Lilly helped him unzip them and slid them down to the ground. Steve stepped out of them.

Lilly rubbed his cock through his underwear. As his members stiffened harder, he started to precum.

"Mmmm... tiger, getting excited are you?" Lily said as she kissed him more.

Steve smiled. "Maybe..." He placed his hand inside her bra feeling her large Double D breasts. He kissed her neck again and played with her hair.

Lilly went down to her knees... and looked at Steve's cock face to... cock. Taking his underwear band in her teeth, she pulled them down. Coming back up to his cock. she licked his head then made her way down his shaft.

Steve put his hand on Lilly's head lightly.

As she reached his balls, she focused on one ball at a time. Licking, and sucking. Lightly taking a ball in her mouth... she sucked on it. mmm clean shaven... she enjoyed it. Lilly started to stroke Steve's cock up and down with her hand while tickling his balls with her other hand.

Steve moaned. "Oh baby." He said. He took a fistful of her long black hair in his hand and tugged slightly.

Taking the clue, Lilly stood up.

"Turn around." Steve said. Lilly did so. Steve held her again... putting his hard cock into her back, she could feel the mixture of precum and saliva through her panties. Steve moved Lilly's hair to one side and kissed her neck. He cupped her breasts with both hands. Taking her bra off, it fell to the floor. Steve felt her full breasts. Massaging them. Rubbing her nipples lightly... with a little pinch to both of them. Lilly moaned.

She wanted his hard cock in her pussy which was starting to get moist with her juices.

Steve put his fingers in her panties... went to her front and ran his fingers over her smooth vulva. Soon her panties were on the floor.

Lilly led him over to the bed.

"Lay down." Steve said. Lilly laid on the bed, spreading her legs open for him.

Steve laid next to her, on her left. He traced the outline of her body. Teasing her... traced her right breast down her tummy to her thigh. Working his way across her thigh and back up the other side, tracing her breast up to her neck. Steve moved his fingers down her middle between her breasts, down back to her tummy and down to her pussy.

He gently rubbed the area right above her clit.

Lilly's breathing increased. Steve watched her chest rise up and down. It made his cock harder.

Lilly rubbed his cock... using his precum as lubricant. Steve moaned.

Lilly bit her lip.

Steve positioned himself between her legs. Kissing her inner thighs while he placed his left hand up and played with her right breast. Lilly guided his hand as she played with her left breast. Every once in a while, she sucked on his fingers.

Steve looked up at her... her nipples were hard and erect. He lightly licked her inner thighs. Lilly started to squirm.

Taking his tongue, Steve kissed her pussy lips. Lightly parting them with his tongue. She was extremely wet. Dripping her juices. He lapped them up with his tongue. "mmm" he moaned. "So yummy."

"You like that big boy?" Lilly asked.

"Mhmm hmmm." Steve responded. Parting her pussy lips, he started to suck on her clit while humming. "hmmmmmm"

Steve then licked Lilly's clit over and over again.

Lilly's back arched in pleasure. Steve continued to lick. Every lick causing more pleasure.

"I want you in me." Lilly said.

Steve smiled. Looking up again into her eyes... they were so inviting.

Moving up, and taking his hard cock. he teased Lilly's pussy. Inserting barely, he massaged her clit with the top of his cock head. Lilly moaned. She moved her legs up in the air and wrapped them around Steve's back.

Steve moved up a little more and put his hard erect member into Lilly's wet juicy pussy. His six inches fitting perfectly into her. He started pumping.

Lilly felt his smooth balls hitting the bottom of her pussy. "Oh God!" She screamed.

Steve continued to pump her, getting harder with every stroke. Lilly grabbed the edges of the bed. Steve grabbed the headboard. He could feel her wet throbbing pussy clench around his hard cock.

They continued pumping and receiving. Sweat dripped down Lilly's back as Steve kept eye contact with her. They both were smiling.

"I'm gonna cum." Lilly shouted. "Oh God!"

Steve moaned... "mmm cum baby.... just cum."

She did. Her pussy clenched around his cock, hard. Steve moaned loudly. "Me too."

Lilly grinned "Cum in me... I want it all."

Steve gladly complied. His cock started to pulse as cum released into her. He started to shake. "Oh... oh... God!" Steve screamed.

Their hearts were pounding hard. Breathing fast.

Steve removed his cock from Lilly's pussy and slid up next her. They spooned, cuddling. Lilly felt Steve's heart beating to her back. He wrapped his arm around her tummy. She held it.

Steve kissed her neck and nuzzled it as they fell asleep.


The Elevator

Joe stepped into the elevator. A woman stood there holding the door open for him. He smiled to her as he entered. The elevator smelled of old mahogany and furniture polish. All things pointing to an old building.

“Thank you for holding the lift.” Joe said.

The woman nodded as she looked him over. Joe was wearing a dark grey suit with a bright colorful red tie. He was six feet tall of yummy goodness. She bit her lip as she thought about what he could do to her.

Joe pressed a button on the elevator console that would take him to his destination.

“I’m Sally” She said holding out a hand.

Joe shook her hand gently. Her skin was soft. “Joe” he replied.

Sally bit her lip. She imagined hitting the emergency button causing the elevator to stop. Imagined Joe taking her in his arms and kissing her gently, fully with tongue. Sally took a deep breath in. Her hand got closer to the emergency button. She glanced at Joe wondering if he had noticed her movement. He was too busy staring into her eyes.

Joe imagined taking Sally to his winter resort for a weekend and showing her a good time. Spreading her out on his bed, he would go down on her making her cum no less than three times before entering her. His hard cock was throbbing in his pants.

Sally had her hand on the emergency button now. She wanted to press it. She could feel her nipples tingling, her clit wanted to be licked. She wanted Joe to take her. Wanted him to tell her what a good girl she was.

Joe reached over to Sally’s hand and pressed the button.

Sally smiled.

Joe pushed Sally up against the elevator wall and pulled her panties to the floor. His cock was out and in hand.

As Joe thrust into her, Sally moaned. each thrust more forceful and deliberate than the last. Joe grabbed Sally’s ass hard as he fucked her. His cock rubbing against her clit fast and rough.

Sally grabbed onto Joe’s hair holding onto him for support. He continued to fuck her. She screamed and moaned.

A moment later, Sally came hard. Joe felt her juices rush over his cock. He smiled at her. Their hearts beating hard and fast.

Joe zipped his pants and reached for Sally’s panties that were laying on the floor. He pocketed them.

Sally raised an eyebrow and hit the emergency stop button to make the elevator start moving again.

They rode the lift in silence.

The doors opened, Joe stepped outside the elevator and turned to see Sally still smiling at him.

“Nice job counselor.” Sally said. “Let’s see how well you do before my bench in court.”

The doors closed.

Joe’s smile dropped. He had just fucked a judge.

The Desk

It was afternoon in the office. The phone lines had quieted down a bit from the morning rush. Susan sat in her office working on a proposal for the next day. Her legs were crossed under her chair as she swayed along with music playing in her office.

Tom looked up from his computer across the hall. He smiled as he saw Susan dancing in her chair. Tom shook his head as he continued working. He had a crush on Susan for a while now. It was something he hadn’t told anyone of course. One doesn’t just hit on the daughter of the president of the company. He had seen many guys try and ask her out but she had turned them all down one after another. The men weren’t fired because of it, but they couldn’t handle the stares of other co workers, so they left on their own.

“Tom” Susan’s voice could be heard over his phone speaker. He looked up towards her office. She was looking at him. “Come in here please.”

Tom activated his speaker “Right away.” He stood and cross the office floor to Susan’s office.

As he approached her office, he saw that she was wearing a short black skirt with a white blouse. Her shoes were off. Tom knocked on the door.

“Oh come in Tom” Susan said. She watched as he walked in. Tom was wearing dark pants and a button up shirt. She stood and walked over to him. Taking a deep breath, she smelled aftershave on Tom. He smelled good. Susan closed the door and then the blinds so no one could see in.

Tom smiled nervously. “What can I do for you?”

Susan sat on the desk and gestured to her chair. “Have a seat.”

Tom sat as ordered.

Susan placed her foot between Tom’s legs an inch from his crotch. She wondered if he was cut or if he still had a foreskin. She smirked. Susan would find out soon enough.

“Thank you for coming.” She said.

“I’ve been watching you Tom.”

Tom could feel his pulse quicken. She had been watching him? What did she mean by that?

Susan rubbed his crotch with her foot. She felt his cock with the tips of her toes. He was getting harder as she did so. She smiled at him. Tom looked afraid. She would have to fix that.

“I want you to fuck me Tom.” Susan said. “Take me right here and fuck me.”

Tom froze. His fantasies were coming true. He had wanted her for the longest time and now was his chance. He nodded. “Okay.”

Susan unbuttoned her blouse and let it fall to the floor. Her bra came off next. She threw it in Tom’s face. Tom pulled the bra off his face and looked at her. Her breasts stared back at him.

Tom stood from the chair and walked over to Susan. Taking a breast in his hand he sucked on it while massaging the other. Susan unbuttoned Tom’s shirt and took it off. She leaned her head back as Tom worked his way up to her neck. His pants were next to go.

Tom stood there in his boxers as he continued to caress and kiss Susan. He reached for her skirt and pulled it down her body as he continued to kiss her. She wasn’t wearing any panties. A shame, he had wanted to pull them down with his teeth.

Susan’s pussy was shaved. Tom started to lick her lips working his way to her clit. He massaged her vulva as he did so. Susan let out a slight gasp. She put her hands in Tom’s hair and grabbed hold. It was exactly like she imagined it.

Tom turned Susan around and bent her over the desk. Removing his boxers he rubbed his hard cock. Pre-cum was flowing down the side of his cock. He reached for Susan’s ass and spanked her. Susan jumped in surprise.

“Again?” She asked.

Tom spanked her again. This time leaving a light red hand print. Susan bit her lip so she wouldn’t scream. Tom put his tip on Susan’s pussy from behind and slowly worked his way into her. Susan grabbed onto the desk as she felt him enter. He filled her without any problems. She rubbed against him as she started to rock her hips back and forth.

Tom rocked with her each thrust a little harder than the last.

Susan reached to her clit and rubbed it with one hand as Tom reached around her and grabbed her left breast. He gently squeezed her nipple and rubbed her breast. Susan leaned her head back again. If he kept that up she would come soon. She continued to bit her lip as Tom continued to thrust into her.

As Susan came her legs started to shake. She held onto the desk for support. Tom continued to thrust into her. Her pussy was so sensitive now thanks to the orgasm. “Oh Tom” she said. “Give it to me.”

Tom continued to thrust. She was breathing hard now. After a few more thrusts, Tom withdrew his cock from her. he turned Susan around. Susan placed Tom’s cock in her mouth as she started blowing him. She massaged his smooth balls. In and out his cock went. Her mouth hungrily sucking on it. Tom grabbed hold of Susan’s head and held it.

“I”m coming.”

Susan moaned. Tom ejaculated.

She swallowed all of his semen as she continued to suck on his cock. It was as far as she could take it.

Tom took a step back removing his cock from Susan’s mouth.

They smiled at each other as they got dressed.

Tom kissed Susan. “That was fun,.”

She nodded. “Mhhmm. We’ll have to do it again sometime.”

Tom exited her office. They both went back to work.

Shower Time

Walking into the apartment I took off my jacket and tossed it on the couch. "Jen?" I called out.

There was no response.

Walking around, I heard the shower running. I slipped off my shoes and loosened my tie. I loved shower time, it was always a fun experience.

By the time I made it to the bedroom, my shirt was unbuttoned and my pants were on the floor. Kicking the pants aside, I tossed the shirt into the laundry hamper.

Opening the door to the bathroom, I took a peek in. There she was singing away. I removed my boxer briefs. They dropped to the floor as I stepped out of them. I stood there nude waiting for her to take notice.

She continued singing. "I'll give you something to sing about." I whispered.

I opened the shower door.

Startled, Jen turned around. Her nude body facing me, her tits staring me down. Her hips inviting me.

"Mike." She said as she bit her lip between words.

I smiled. "Hi baby, thought you could use a pick me up."

She grinned. "Yes please."

Walking into the shower, I closed the door. Starting with her neck, I kissed her. My hands exploring her body. Her bare ass, her breasts, her hips. Oh my her hips. I rubbed her all over feeling her moan. I worked my way down her body. My penis becoming erect as she stroked it.

Grinding my hard cock against her wet pussy, wet because of the shower and wet because of my teasing, I pressed against her. Taking her hands, I pushed them against the wall and ground against her more. She moaned and whimpered.

Jen wasn't ever a fan of the teasing, she wanted it all and wanted it now. I knew this and it was my plan to tease her for a bit longer.

"Mike, please." She said "Just fuck me, fuck me hard. Now."

Feeling down to her pussy, I slid a finger in, then another finger in. Teasing her clit with each stroke of my fingers. She grabbed the back of my neck and then reached down to my balls. She rubbed them, squeezed them, tickled my penis with her fingertips. My penis welcomed her touch. At that moment, I couldn't take the teasing myself anymore.

Picking her up, I leaned her against the shower wall and started to fuck her. She grabbed onto my back for support as I thrust harder and harder.

"Oh god!" She screamed. "Yes! More!"

I continued to fuck her harder until she came.

Winking, I kissed her again. "Time to go back to work."

She pouted. "Why?"

I simply grinned. "Lunch time is over..."

"I don't recall you eating me out." She said, covering her chest with her arms. Her arms catching the water that was pouring down her breasts.

"That's tonight for dessert." I smirked as I left the room. I could only imagine what was going on through her mind. Hopefully it was anticipation for later that night. She was going to get it. She was going to get it good.

Sex


Sam stood from the bed. Her ass was red and her pussy was dripping seminal fluid. She had been a good girl during playtime. She looked back at her master who had started getting dressed again. Sam reached for her panties and received a slap on the wrist.


“No pet.” Her master said. “You can’t get dressed quite yet. I have plans for you still.”


Sam turned around and smiled. She loved that he still had more for her. Reaching down, she placed her fingers in her pussy and brought some of his cum up to her mouth where she licked them clean. Sam loved the way he tasted. The way all of him tasted.


“Yes Daddy” Sam responded “Whatever you say Daddy.”


Night Adventure

Sharon stepped out from the shower with a towel wrapped around her body. Looking at herself in the mirror she smiled. Sharon loved the way her eyes looked in the evenings, her boyfriend would be unable to resist her tonight.

Stepping from the bathroom, Sharon entered the living room. Her boyfriend Rob was sitting on the couch reading a book. He looked up to her “Hey baby.” Rob said.

Sharon walked over to Rob and took the book away from him. She set the book on the table and leaned down to him as she rested a hand on his leg.

Rob smelled Sharon’s hair. As he closed his eyes, Sharon dropped the towel and leaned in closer. “Come with me.” She said.

Sharon took Rob by the hand and led him into the bedroom. Once inside the bedroom, she stripped him down to nothing. Sharon grabbed hold of Rob’s cock and rubbed it, she took his left hand and pressed it against her shaved pussy.

“Do you like?” Sharon asked.

Rob nodded his head. “Oh yes baby. Daddy likes.”

Sharon nibbled on Rob’s ear. Flicking his earlobe with her tongue, she whispered to him. “Fuck me, I’m horny.” She said. “Eat me out.”

Rob nodded. He picked her up and led her over to the bed. Laying her down, he went between her legs and started to kiss the inside of her thighs. The scruff on his face gently rubbed against Sharon’s thighs as he kissed her. She placed her hands on Rob’s head pulling him towards her pussy.

Rob licked her slit, starting at the bottom and working his way up to her clit. His tongue flicked her clit as he sucked, licked, and tickled her.

Sharon moaned as he did so. Her hips moving up to meet his face as he continued to go down on her. “Fuck me baby, fuck me. I want your hard cock in my pussy. Now!” Sharon screamed out.

Rob moved up her body and kissed her breasts as he thrust his penis inside of her vagina. Rob grabbed onto Sharon’s legs as he thrust hard into her. The sound of their bodies against each other was loud as the couple made love. Each screaming out in lust.

“Oh baby, harder!” Sharon yelled out.

Rob continued to fuck her harder and harder. Sharon came almost immediately. Rob continued to fuck her as she came gain. Her pussy lips clamped tightly around his cock not wanting to let go. Rob could feel his cock twitching, he was about to cum himself.

Rob pulled himself up so their faces were across from each other. He grabbed hold of the bed as he came. Sharon started grinding against his cock. His balls were tight as he released into her.

Sharon arched her back. “Oh yes baby, give it all to me.” She said between breaths.

A moan later, the couple laid by each other. Out of breath, they cuddled.

“Mmmm” Rob said to Sharon, “My good horny girl.”

Sharon laughed as she looked into his eyes. “Mmhmmm” she said. “I am your horny girl.” She kissed him as they fell asleep.


Late Night Phone Call

It was a dark and rainy day outside. Georgia knew not to venture out into such weather conditions. Picking up the phone she called Sean.

Sean answered the phone with a groggy voice. "Hello?"

Georgia smiled at his voice. She had woken him up. "I need you." She whispered into the phone. "I need you right now."

Sean sat up in bed. His mind was racing. He recognized the voice, but wanted to make sure. No point in screwing this up before it got started. "Georgia?"

Georgia smiled. He remembered. "Good boy." She said. "I want you to fuck me hard. Take me in your arms and make me never forget." She purred into the phone.

Sean laughed. "I'll be right over."

Georgia's smile increased. "Good boy." She said again. "See you soon."

He Looked To Her With Lust

Stepping out of the shower, he noticed her. She was wearing a towel. Her breasts were popping out the top of the towel. It barely reached below her belly button. Looking into his eyes, she could tell he wanted something. She had the something he wanted.

Dropping the towel she smiled and placed her hands on her hips.

His heart quickened. Looking her up and down he memorized her body. From her shaved pussy up to her perky breasts. She needed to be sucked on. He was the one to do the sucking.

She looked over at him smiling. Inviting him to her. He walked over and turned her around so her back was to him.

Kissing her neck gently, he massaged her hips as he worked his way down her back. She moaned softly knowing if anyone were to walk through the door they'd be caught. Reaching around to her front, he started to massage her breasts. Her hands guiding him as he did so. She squeezed her right breast and nipple hard. Biting her bottom lip harder as she did so.

Laying her down on the cold tiled bathroom floor, he lifted her legs and massaged the tip of his penis on her clit. Rubbing it as his precum slowly coaxed her clit out of its hood. As he started to fuck her she felt the veins in his hard penis as he thrust in and out.

In and out.

In and out.

At first he was gentle, then he was a little more forceful.

Her nails clawed at his back. He moaned as she did so.

As he came in her she grinned.

Standing up, he let himself out.

They would have to do this again someday.

Couch Session

Her appointment with her shrink was at 2pm. As usual, she was prompt and ready for him a good ten minutes early.

Sitting in the waiting room, she could only imagine how his day was going, that and what she would talk to him about. Anna had been seeing the same doctor for the past seven years. He always knew what she needed to get her through the week.

"Anna?" She heard her name called out by the receptionist. "The doctor's ready to see you now."

Anna stood and walked into the office.

As Anna entered the room, their eyes locked. Soon her skirt was on the floor and her blouse was off. Anna unclasped her bra and let it fall to the floor. She never wore panties to her appointments, they always got in the way.

"On the couch." He instructed.

"Yes sir." Anna responded. "Anything you say Daddy." The word Daddy rolled off her tongue. She needed to be spanked, fucked, and anything else he wanted to do to her. She wanted it all.

Anna kneeled on all fours on the couch.

Taking his hard throbbing cock out of his pants, the doctor gave her what she needed. Grabbing onto her hips, he licked his fingers and then rubbed his cock. Finally he slid deep into her.

Anna wanted to scream in pleasure, but knew people could hear outside the room. So she kept quiet.

Daddy could feel her tight pussy around his hard member... she was nice and wet. "Such a good girl." He said as he continued to thrust into her as deep as he could.

He spanked her ass, hard. Anna jerked forward and smiled. Biting her lip, she begged. “Please again Daddy? Again for your baby girl?”

The doctor kept thrusting and spanking her. He was sure people could hear the spanking, but that didn’t matter. He was having fun. Anna was having her fun as well.

He came almost immediately but kept thrusting until she came.

As she climaxed, Anna grabbed the couch. Her nails digging into it. "Oh yes Daddy, fuck me." She whispered. "You always know how to take care of me."

He kept going until he felt Anna had her medicine. Sliding out of her, he wrapped his hand around his dick and rubbed. Lifting his fingers up to his mouth he licked and sucked off her juices. “Mmmm” He said, “You taste good. Daddy likes the way you taste.”

Standing up, Anna got dressed and waited for instructions.

The doctor took out a prescription pad and started writing. "I need to see you next week. The usual time." He handed her the slip.

"Yes Daddy. Thank you Daddy." Anna said as she exited.

Sitting down at his desk, he pressed the intercom button. "Rose, please come in here. I have something that needs your immediate attention."

Daddy was horny that day, he needed someone else to fuck.

Christmas

Looking out across the bed, I see her. She’s wearing a sexy Santa outfit. Something from one of the catalogs I imagine. Whatever the case, I won her. She’s mine for the night. Fair and square I got her. (Every year the company auctions off willing participants for charity.)

Slipping out of her robe and stockings, she stands there naked before me. The woman didn’t even bother wearing a bra. What’s the use? She was going to be naked before she knew it anyway. Oh yes, this is quite the life I live.

She looks at me with a smile. Her hips swooshing back and forth. Her breasts, oh my her tits are amazing. She crawls onto the bed. Her tits are in my face now. I can’t wait to cum all over them.

Her name is Nancy, I think she works in account payables, but can’t be sure. It was her idea to fuck me, not mine. I would never take control over such a delicate thing like that. Especially since she gave herself to me for a good cause.

My cock is writhing as it waits to be sucked on. But first, Nancy puts her tits in my mouth. Well not together, they’re too big for that. One at a time. She moans as I rub my hard cock against her throbbing clit. She wants it. Oh how she wants it.

She’s moaning my name now. Over and over she says my name. I turn her around and place her on all fours. I want to fuck her from behind. She likes the thought of this as she continues to rub her juicy wet pussy against my cock.

I enter her pussy. She gasps at the size of my dick. I tried telling her she was going to get quite a treat, she had laughed at the thought. I think she was nervous. But oh well, that was in the past.

Fucking her feels like heaven. She moans and screams as my balls slap against her ass. I spank her. She begs for more. I continue to spank her until her ass is red with my hand print.

“Oh Nancy!” I yell.

She begs me to keep going, so I do. Now she’s on her back again, legs up in the air. I fuck her against the headboard. She smiles as I do so. She’s biting her lip. Her eyes continue to beg me for more. I give her all I have.

I’m about to cum now. I ask her where she wants it.

“On my tits lover.” She says. “Cum all over my tits.”

Sliding out, I come up to her tits. She looks at my cock waiting for it. I can hear her rubbing her pussy. Her clit. She wants to cum at the same time. I don’t have a problem with that.

My balls are tight. I can feel them ready to explode all over her gorgeous tits.

I cum hard, it goes all over her tits. My warm juices. Some get in her mouth. She’s okay with that. Licking them up she smiles. Then her orgasm comes. It comes with a force. She can’t hold onto the bed. Oh my how she moans.

We’re glowing now. Climax has been achieved.

She smiles at me. I smile back.

“Merry Christmas” She says. I return the gesture and we fall asleep.

Barmaid

The bar was almost empty. There I sat nursing my drink, a scotch neat. A television blared in the background. Some kind of game was being played. Basketball? Baseball? Whatever it was, my attention wasn’t on the game.

My attention was on the busty barmaid wiping down the bar. She looked up once in a while and caught me staring each time. No smile, no wave. She just turned and went about her business.

I wasn’t sure if she was playing hard to get or what, so I kept it cool. Yet I still stared. Letting her know I wanted something. Maybe I could play hard to get also.

As the barmaid came over, she simply smiled. “Anything else stranger?” She asked.

She had blue eyes, blond hair, and a body that would rock your socks off. Perfect Double D breasts on a small frame. They had to be fake, but that didn’t matter. She was a looker. Gazing into her smile I couldn’t help but smile back.

I shook my head. “No ma’am, this will do me just fine.” I took a sip. “Besides, too much of a good thing and I’m bound to find trouble.”

She continued to smile. “Who said trouble was a bad thing. I’ll be over here if you need me, name’s Annie.”

Annie’s red lipstick stuck out as she spoke. I found myself wondering what it would be like to kiss those lips. Make out with those lips. Have those lips for a night.

I smirked as she walked away. “If you only knew the half of it.” I said under my breath taking another swallow of my drink. I watched her go thinking how easy it would be to tear through her short shorts and find what she had going on under the hood. Her shirt would be an easy rip away as well. I imagined she wasn’t wearing any underwear and her ass needed a good spanking. I wondered what kind of sexual fantasies she had going on in her head.

Before long we were in her car making love to the Beatles. That is, we made love while the Beatles were playing on the radio. Not making love to actual beetles. It was times like this that made life worth living. We’d move to my place for harder love making and more drinking. In the morning she’d give me her phone number. I’d forget her name by noon.

That’s just how life was, a quick give it to me now attitude. Nothing mattered beyond that. Here today gone tomorrow. What more to life was there than that? The thought struck me that drinking and partying was all meant to be fun. But that wasn’t what life is all about. There was a deeper meaning to life. Something beyond the likes of Angie, Alice... damn I had already forgotten her name. It wasn’t noon yet. I was losing my touch. At least I hadn’t forgotten it during the love making. That would have been embarrassing.

“Excuse me miss, can you please tell me your name again? I seem to have forgot it. I need something to scream out.”

Yeah that would have gone down smooth.

Looking over to the broad, I watched as she slept. Her perfect breasts rising up and down in the crisp night air. They were real after all. Her perky nipples standing at attention wanting more from me. More was something I wouldn’t be willing to give her.

Running my hand along her smooth leg, I sighed. Part of me didn’t want to go. But I had to get a move on. There was a reason it was called a one night stand, not a one night see you tomorrow kind of thing.

I slid out of bed and went on my way. Leaving her a note that I’d be back in the morning. I wasn’t sure if I would be back for her or not. Sure I’d be back for my apartment, but not for her. She wouldn’t mind. She’d probably been in this situation before many times in the past.

She could be the type that hated guys like me. What if it was more than just a drink to her, more than a one night stand? I’d have to find a different bar if that were the case. Damn woman. How dare she confuse me like this. I wasn’t one to be easily confused or confounded. Somehow this gal had done just that.

Sliding on my jeans, I got dressed. A button up shirt later I was ready to get out there. Where I was headed exactly? That was unknown to me. That’s how I liked it.

Walking out the door of my studio apartment, I took one last look at ms. perfect. Blowing her a kiss I laughed as I headed out the door.

The morning was already off to a good start. It could only get better from there.


After Hours

It was after closing hours. The lights were off. Joe walked around the building to make sure the doors were locked up tight. That’s when he noticed a light on in the conference room. Taking out a flashlight, Joe held it in case he needed to hit someone upside the head. Turning a corner into the room, he saw her.

Jessica was seated at the conference room table going over some notes. She smiled at Joe as he walked in.

“Oh, sorry ma’am.” Joe said as he saw her. “Thought everyone had gone for the night.” He put the flashlight away.

Jessica looked up from her work. “It’s okay.” She said. “I was just about finished here.

Joe looked at her their eyes locked. He smiled at her. “Very well. I’ll be out here if you need me.” He turned and exited the room.

Jessica looked down between her legs where her co worker was. His tongue was currently pressed against her pussy lips licking them. His finger was massaging her clit. Jessica put her hand on his head as he licked her. “That was a close one.” She said.

The man kept licking. “Mmmhmmm” he managed to say as he licked. “Put your legs up.”

Jessica did as ordered. Leaning back in her chair she rested her legs on top of the table spreading them. Placing two fingers on her pussy she spread her lips for him. He continued to lick her, nibbling on her lips here and there. She came rather quickly. Her breathing was fast. She moaned as she came. The man continued to lick her. Taking two fingers, he put them in her vagina and stimulated her G-Spot. He continued to massage her as she was coming. Jessica came even harder.

“Don” Jessica said “Don, I can’t...”

Don smiled. “Yes you can.” He continued to massage her. A moment later, he removed his fingers and pushed Jessica’s chair back. Don crawled out from under the conference table. He motioned onto the table, Jessica leaned against it. Her chest flat on the table. Don unzipped his pants and pushed her skirt up.

Don took his hard cock out from his pants and placed it against Jessica’s right ass cheek. He rubbed it there for a moment feeling his erection get harder. His balls tightened as he did so. Don spread Jessica’s legs a little farther, rubbing his cock as he did so.

Jessica bit her lip anxiously waiting to see what he would do next to her. She loved not knowing what was going on. Would he slip his engorged cock into her wet waiting pussy? Or would he force it into her ass. She wanted both to happen. She could feel her clit throbbing. Jessica wanted to reach down and massage her clit. But she knew that doing so would go against what Don had in store for her.

Don raised Jessica’s skirt up higher so he could see her perfect round ass. Licking his finger he spanked her on the right side. Then on the left. He continued this a few times. Jessica grinned as he did so. Her ass felt warm as he did so. She enjoyed it when he did that to her. Jessica loved being spanked. She loved having someone else in control of how the encounter was going.

Jessica looked back at Don. Their eyes locked. She smiled at him. He smiled back at her. “Good girl.” Don said praising her.

“Yes Daddy.” Jessica said. “Thank you Daddy.” She continued to smile as she looked forward.

Don rubbed his hard cock some more. He stroked the length of his cock starting at the balls and working his way up to the purple engorged tip. He gave his balls a slight squeeze. He was ready for her. Don picked up a condom off the table and sheathed his erect penis.

Slipping his penis into her wet vagina, Don felt her vaginal walls as he entered her. Her pussy clamped around his hard member welcoming him.

Jessica let out a gasp as Don’s cock brushed against her cervix. He was in deep. As deep as he could go.

Don grabbed hold of both of Jessica’s hips and started thrusting. In and out he went. Jessica's breasts rubbed against her blouse on the table. Her nipples were hard. She moaned as he thrust into her. Each thrust was harder than the last. Jessica loved it rough. She loved how he thrust into her knowing he wouldn’t hurt her. That trust was the best part of it all.

Don continued to thrust. As he did so, he reached down with his right hand and rubbed Jessica’s swollen clit. She moaned in pleasure.

Don came and ejaculated into the condom. He grabbed hold of Jessica’s waist as he did so.

Jessica came as well. Her pussy contracted around Don’s cock. Pleasure released throughout her body. As Don withdrew from her, she was limp against the conference room table. Don caught her as she was about to pass out.

“You okay baby?”

Jessica looked up into his eyes. “Oh yes Daddy. More than okay. You always know what to do.” She smiled at him.

Don smiled back at her. “Good girl.” He kissed her slowly as she melted into his arms.

Don smirked. After hours wasn’t a bad thing after all.

Thursday, September 19, 2019

Why Is Life Confusing?

So many things out there in life and they all appear to be confusing. I wish I had an answer to all of it. Something to grasp and hold onto. Something to fully just understand. Self sabotage seems to be something I'm good at. It's not right, I know it's not right...and yet it exists. So I have to find a way to get around that and not let it happen.

So many decisions to come to. So many things that overwhelm the mind and senses. It's all just a big glob of goo that I wade through. At times I feel alone, even though I know I'm not.

Difficult to express, even more difficult to comprehend at times.

Thursday, September 12, 2019

They Shared A Moment


He awoke to the sound of movement... it wasn't near him, but at the other end of the house towards the guest bedroom. Where she was sleeping.

Climbing out of bed, he walked down the hallway and prepared himself for whatever struggle might be going on.

As he turned the corner, there was his guest. Nude on the bed pleasuring herself.

He smiled.

She was enjoying herself. Rubbing her wet pussy. Moaning as her other hand was rubbing her round tits. The bed gently rocked against the wall. As she rubbed her clit her pussy got wetter and wetter. She thrust a few fingers inside and then brought them up to her mouth where she tasted herself. She grinned in delight as she continued to rub her vulva.

His cock was hard as he had started rubbing it. Hoping and wishing that he would be the one that was pleasing her. His precum light at first got thicker and thicker as he stroked. Rubbing the precum up and down his shaft then around his balls. The veins on his penis pulsed with each rub.

Wrapping his right hand around his cock, he squeezed and jerked his penis as he continued rubbed his balls. He could feel himself on the verge of coming. He continued to stroke until he climaxed. His cum exploding all over his hands inside of his boxers.

He must have let out a moan for her eyes were watching him now.

His face flushed as they made eye contact. She smiled at the visitor. Kicking a sheet off the bed she made sure he had a full view of the show. Her throbbing clit needed more attention, it demanded it. She rubbed her clit more and more. Biting her lip as it became more sensitive with each stroke of her fingers.

She continued to masturbate, not taking her eyes off him. Her left hand rubbing her clit, as her right hand squeezed and rubbed her perky nipples. Pulling her left breast to her mouth, she sucked on her nipple and then softly blew on it. The air hitting her nipple became cool. Goosebumps formed as she started to rub her breasts.

He watched as she arched her back, she kept watching him; kept the eye contact until she came as well.

They shared a smile as he exited the room and headed back to his own bed.

In the morning he would fuck her for sure.

Wednesday, April 24, 2019

It wasn't alleged tho

Another matter. We hope that you who teach in the various organizations, whether on the campuses or in our chapels, will always teach the orthodox truth. We warn you against the dissemination of doctrines which are not according to the scriptures and which are alleged to have been taught by some of the General Authorities of past generations. Such, for instance, is the Adam-God theory. We denounce that theory and hope that everyone will be cautioned against this and other kinds of false doctrine.
Our Own Liahona, President Spencer W. Kimball, October 1976 General Conference

Gone are the days

Gone are the days when a student asked an honest question and a teacher responded, “Don’t worry about it!” Gone are the days when a student raised a sincere concern and a teacher bore his or her testimony as a response intended to avoid the issue. Gone are the days when students were protected from people who attacked the Church. Fortunately, the Lord provided this timely and timeless counsel to you teachers: “And as all have not faith, seek ye diligently and teach one another words of wisdom; yea, seek ye out of the best books words of wisdom; seek learning, even by study and also by faith.”

The Opportunities and Responsibilities of CES Teachers in the 21st Century, Elder M. Russell Ballard

Tuesday, April 16, 2019

Sunday, April 7, 2019

Policy Changes


Once called revelation, a difficult policy has been reversed. Children of gay parents can now be baptized into the LDS church before the age of 18, they are now eligible to have a baby blessing and all other ordinances allowed to other members of the church.

People in a same sex marriage are no longer to be disciplined under grounds of apostasy.
These changes come a short 3.5 years after they were put into place.

There are some questions I have regarding this.

  1. Did God change His mind? It was spoken as revelation at the start, and now it’s more revelation to end such a practice? Which revelation is correct?
  2. What of those who were excommunicated during the policy because they were found guilty of apostasy? Does God simply shake his head at it and say oops...that shouldn’t have happened.
  3. How long before all of this is swept under the rug and people claim it never took place to begin with?
  4. What about those who testified about the road the church took? How important it was and how God is never changing? What will they say now regarding it all?
  5. Perhaps more importantly, what about those who committed suicide because of the harsh policy? They were told they weren’t welcome, weren’t wanted, and now the policy changes and it’s suddenly okay? As though nothing happened before November 2015.

I do not have answers to any of these questions. I doubt I will ever find an answer to these questions in my lifetime. Perhaps at the very end, I can ask God what He was thinking when he prompted these revelations.

This weighs heavy on my heart and soul.

He Never Changed His Mind... until 2019


https://www.lds.org/church/news/elder-christofferson-says-handbook-changes-regarding-same-sex-marriages-help-protect-children?lang=eng



https://www.lds.org/church/news/policy-changes-announced-for-members-in-gay-marriages-children-of-lgbt-parents?lang=eng

Two Churches


Oh Conference...


https://www.sltrib.com/religion/2019/04/06/after-many-recent-changes/

https://www.sltrib.com/religion/2019/04/07/latest-lds-general/

Tuesday, March 5, 2019

Living In The Past

Your touch excites me
breathing in the night
bodies communicating
through feeling each other

Sounds whisper softly
in the darkest of days
craving to touch the other
if only for a moment

Saturday, March 2, 2019

Why Remove Part of the Scripture? - Preach My Gospel

Preach my Gospel, Page 5


3 Nephi 27:17 

Question: Why did the LDS Church remove "hewn down" and "from whence they can no more return" from the quote?

Sunday, February 24, 2019

To Fully Repent, One Must Tithe And Obey The Word Of Wisdom


Gospel of Jesus Christ





Romans 3:23

For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;



Romans 3:10

As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one:



Ecclesiastes 7:20

For there is not a just man upon earth, that doeth good, and sinneth not.



Psalm 5:5

The foolish shall not stand in thy sight: thou hatest all workers of iniquity.



John 3:16

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only
begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but
have everlasting life.



Hebrews 4:15

For we have not an high priest which cannot be
touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points
tempted like as we are, yet without sin.



1 John 2:2

And he is the propitiation for our sins: and not for ours only, but also for the sins of the whole world.



Matthew 12:40

For as Jonas was three days and three nights in
the whale's belly; so shall the Son of man be three days and three
nights in the heart of the earth.



Acts 13:30

But God raised him from the dead:



Revelation 1:18

I am he that liveth, and was dead; and, behold, I am alive for evermore, Amen; and have the keys of hell and of death.



Matthew 28:18

And Jesus came and spake unto them, saying, All power is given unto me in heaven and in earth.



Matthew 28:19-20

Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost:



Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you:
and, lo, I am with you alway, even unto the end of the world. Amen.



Acts 2:33

Therefore being by the right hand of God exalted,
and having received of the Father the promise of the Holy Ghost, he hath
shed forth this, which ye now see and hear.



Acts 17:31

Because he hath appointed a day, in the which he
will judge the world in righteousness by that man whom he hath ordained;
whereof he hath given assurance unto all men, in that he hath raised
him from the dead.



Acts 2:38

Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized
every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins,
and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.



Romans 5:1

Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ:



Romans 6:1

What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound?



Romans 6:11

Likewise reckon ye also yourselves to be dead indeed unto sin, but alive unto God through Jesus Christ our Lord.



Isaiah 64:6

But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our
righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf; and
our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away.



Ephesians 2:8-9

For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:



Not of works, lest any man should boast.



Romans 8:13

For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live.



1 John 1:8

If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us.



1 John 1:9

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.



1 John 2:1-2

My little children, these things write I unto
you, that ye sin not. And if any man sin, we have an advocate with the
Father, Jesus Christ the righteous:



And he is the propitiation for our sins: and not for ours only, but also for the sins of the whole world.



Luke 9:26

For whosoever shall be ashamed of me and of my
words, of him shall the Son of man be ashamed, when he shall come in his
own glory, and in his Father's, and of the holy angels.

Thursday, February 21, 2019

Thursday, February 14, 2019

Word of Wisdom (coffee, tea, chocolate, and cocoa...)

We have heard considerable of late, especially since twelve months today, on the subject of the Word of Wisdom. Almost every elder who has spoken from this stand has felt the necessity and importance of calling the attention of the people to this subject. We are told, and very plainly too, that hot drinks—tea, coffee, chocolate, cocoa and all drinks of this kind are not good for man.

Word of Wisdom—Fish Culture—Dietetics
Discourse by Elder George Q. Cannon, delivered in the New Tabernacle, Salt Lake City, April 7th, 1868.Reported by David W. Evans.

Tuesday, January 29, 2019

Life and then Some

Sitting here
waiting for something
anything to happen
yet it won't, it doesn't know how

Life occurs
beyond bliss
and reason
yet here we sit, waiting

Saturday, January 12, 2019

Article of Faith 2

We believe that men will be punished for their own sins, and not for Adam’s transgression.

The second Article of Faith clearly states that we don’t believe in original sin. Original sin, is the sin which Adam and Eve committed in the Garden of Eden. That is, hearkening unto Satan and eating of the fruit. In turn, we are only responsible for the sins which we commit here in our own lives. Seems nice for sure, don’t have to be held to another person’s sins to dictate our lives.

Well...that’s not the whole truth though.

You see, in November of 2015 The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints included some things in their Official Handbook of Instructions (Handbook One) redefining apostasy. It included in that definition that members in homosexual relationships would be declared in apostasy. (It’s okay to have the thoughts, just don’t act on them.)

It also changed a few things around for children of those same sex couples. Children who have two parents who are the same sex, cannot be baptized at the age of eight. Thus they are being punished for the “sins” of their parents...which appears to go against the 2nd Article of Faith.

Adam is our first parent, those to whom we are direct descents of are our biological parents. Either way, we shouldn’t be judged for either of their sins. Like the story of the blind man in the New Testament of the Bible. The Savior’s disciples asked who had sinned the man or his parents that he had been born blind. The Savior’s response was that neither had sinned. It wasn’t his or his parents fault that he was born blind.

Should not this be the case with children who are born to same sex couples? People should be allowed to love each other no matter their gender. Didn’t God teach love? Didn’t Jesus teach that we should love everyone no matter what?

What Is Doctrine?

There are times in this life where we cannot fully understand or grasp it all. I do not know exactly how any of that works or happens, but here we are and that should be enough? Maybe not. I do not know exactly how this life is meant to be played out. It racks my brain more than anything else at the moment. It has indeed become a downfall of repressed memories, upon the likes which I cannot find myself the trouble to handle at times.

If there was a pre-existence and we did live with God before this life...we shouted for Joy to be able to come down and gain a body like he did? We wanted to forget everything we knew and simply come down without any sort of knowledge before hand what we would be getting ourselves into?

I have often stated that I hoped God would have taken each of us aside personally and spoken with us explaining that which was about to happen, personally to us. Instead of just tossing us down here without any kind of preparation. Even though we would forget all such things we had grown accustomed to. If that didn’t take place? Even to calm the nerves of children afraid of the future, then I am saddened by that thought.

There are quotes from general authorities about certain people being born with “limitations” and the like because of their not being fully righteous in the pre-existence. I find that thought abhorring. Here is the quote in question:

"The privilege of obtaining a mortal body on this earth is seemingly so priceless that those in the spirit world, even though unfaithful or not valiant, were undoubtedly permitted to take mortal bodies although under penalty of racial or physical or nationalistic limitations."1

It brings about an interesting thought does it not? President Lee felt that those people born with a disability were less valiant in the pre-existence. People believed this thought back then. It has taken a change in later years, as we no longer teach this thought. Like we don’t teach that black people were cursed with the mark of cain because of not being valiant in the pre-existence. Yet these teachings were taught at one time. They were believed to be doctrine.

Doctrine has an...interesting ring to it. The terminology itself is not what one would assume. Can there be many types of doctrine within the church? There is the Doctrine of Christ, which the Savior stated would be the most important doctrine one can follow in order to return back to Heavenly Father. Is that the only doctrine we need to know and follow?

If so, then why must there be so many different policies and doctrines upon which a member must follow and believe in, in order to obtain Eternal Life? Is it wrong to question such things? Is it wrong to want to have an understanding of these matters?

There is the notion that we would choose which path to be in, that depending upon our wanting to find the gospel, we would be born where we were. In order to find the gospel, we would need to be born into certain homes, nations, with the ability to reach the gospel as easily as we needed to. This thought comes from the bible:

26 And hath made of one blood all nations of men for to dwell on all the face of the earth, and hath determined the times before appointed, and the bounds of their habitation;

27 That they should seek the Lord, if haply they might feel after him, and find him, though he be not far from every one of us:2

So, apparently we would reach after the gospel based on our pre-existence and how we lived there. How noble and righteous we were there depends on how and when we would find the gospel of Jesus Christ during this state.

I cannot say for myself how I was in the pre-existence for I do not remember any of it. Like everyone else here I have that vail over my mind. It is a tricky thought to accept that isn’t it. We accepted such a handicap to come down here. I imagine it was either that or we wouldn’t be allowed to come at all.

We learn that those who add to or take away from the Doctrine of Christ are to be punished. They should not be followed and are false prophets. I wonder about those people who would say that certain doctrines are doctrines of salvation…or rather for salvation. Without them we cannot return to God. Is that really the case? Does God only love those who follow His rules to a T without faltering? I mean, we all make mistakes sure. But will He cast those aside who did not choose the exact one religion which He established on the Earth?

Will they be tossed aside without further thought? Or will mercy take over, and will one learn what they didn’t quite grasp down here? If there is only one true religion, wouldn’t that religion include everyone in their worship service and not throw out those who are different then them?

Above all, I believe Jesus taught that we should love our neighbor. We should love the Lord our God first, but then we should love our neighbor. Sometimes I wonder at how policies and practices are in place that do not show that love. Certain beliefs in the LDS church are not all inclusive of people, of everyone. They are set out to separate people and not allow them to be together in the eternities. All because some people do not agree with the theology or doctrine of the church.

People are not made to worship idols, or churches, or leaders of churches. God would not approve. Yet some leaders allow this hero worship to occur. Even to be able to enter the Holy Temple, people have to say the believe in a restoration, they have to believe Joseph Smith to have been a prophet in order for that restoration to occur. How does that affect my eternal salvation in the slightest? How does believing in and following modern revelation affect my eternal salvation?

I thought I was supposed to follow Christ and love God and His ways not the will of man.

1. Harold B. Lee, Decisions for Successful Living, pp. 165
2. Acts 17:26-27

Living The Truth

There are times when you have to simply live the truth. Whatever truth that is. Does the bible not teach that:

The truth shall set you free?1

I believe it does. So, what does that mean exactly? Personally to me, it means that no matter where the truth will lead you. As long as you study it with intent and with actual pure of heart, with no desire to deceive anyone not even yourself, you will come across that which will help you feel at peace.

Personally I for one, would love to have peace in my life. A religion which causes you to experience anxiety over simple things doesn't make sense to me. I believe that's one reason why I no longer believe. But only one. There are many reasons why I no longer believe in the LDS religion or faith. Those questions have come from and have lasted a long time without having answers to any of it. It is rather troubling to my mind if you ask me.

1. John 8:32

Changes Over The Years





Looking over at lds.org, I found a discrepancy. It has to do with Joseph Smith and money digging. In 1989, this was taught that Joseph had no dealings with money digging or “peepstones”. A peep stone, is a stone used to look for buried treasure, an act that Joseph was indeed doing.

Here’s the quote from a 1989 article:

The Knight families knew Joseph Smith in the earliest days, when he was accused of gold-digging and using peep stones. If Joseph Smith were a charlatan or disreputable money grubber as detractors charged, the large Knight clan would not have felt such deep trust in him. Their loyalty to him was based on firsthand, intimate knowledge, which stands today as a solid witness that the Prophet’s character, from when he was twenty to his death at thirty-eight, was righteous and good.1

And now a quote from the new church history volume, Saints:

In September 1826, Joseph returned to the hill for the plates, but Moroni said he was still not ready for them. “Quit the company of the money diggers,” the angel told him. There were wicked men among them. Moroni gave him one more year to align his will with God’s. If he did not, the plates would never be entrusted to him.2

So apparently, over time the story can and does change.

Thursday, January 10, 2019

First Presidency Statement 1969

December 15, 1969

To General Authorities, Regional Representatives of the Twelve, Stake Presidents, Mission Presidents, and Bishops.

Dear Brethren:

In view of confusion that has arisen, it was decided at a meeting of the First Presidency and the Quorum of the Twelve to restate the position of the Church with regard to the Negro both in society and in the Church.

First, may we say that we know something of the sufferings of those who are discriminated against in a denial of their civil rights and Constitutional privileges. Our early history as a church is a tragic story of persecution and oppression. Our people repeatedly were denied the protection of the law. They were driven and plundered, robbed and murdered by mobs, who in many instances were aided and abetted by those sworn to uphold the law. We as a people have experienced the bitter fruits of civil discrimination and mob violence.

We believe that the Constitution of the United States was divinely inspired, that it was produced by “wise men” whom God raised up for this “very purpose,” and that the principles embodied in the Constitution are so fundamental and important that, if possible, they should be extended “for the rights and protection” of all mankind.

In revelations received by the first prophet of the Church in this dispensation, Joseph Smith (1805-1844), the Lord made it clear that it is “not right that any man should be in bondage one to another.” These words were spoken prior to the Civil War. From these and other revelations have sprung the Church’s deep and historic concern with man’s free agency and our commitment to the sacred principles of the Constitution.

It follows, therefore, that we believe the Negro, as well as those of other races, should have his full Constitutional privileges as a member of society, and we hope that members of the Church everywhere will do their part as citizens to see that these rights are held inviolate. Each citizen must have equal opportunities and protection under the law with reference to civil rights.

However, matters of faith, conscience, and theology are not within the purview of the civil law. The first amendment to the Constitution specifically provides that “Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof.”

The position of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints affecting those of the Negro race who choose to join the Church falls wholly within the category of religion. It has no bearing upon matters of civil rights. In no case or degree does it deny to the Negro his full privileges as a citizen of the nation.

This position has no relevancy whatever to those who do not wish to [p.223] join the Church. Those individuals, we suppose, do not believe in the divine origin and nature of the church, nor that we have the priesthood of God. Therefore, if they feel we have no priesthood, they should have no concern with any aspect of our theology on priesthood so long as that theology does not deny any man his Constitutional privileges.

A word of explanation concerning the position of the Church.

The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints owes its origin, its existence, and its hope for the future to the principle of continuous revelation. “We believe all that God has revealed, all that He does now reveal, and we believe that He will yet reveal many great and important things pertaining to the Kingdom of God.”

From the beginning of this dispensation, Joseph Smith and all succeeding presidents of the Church have taught that Negroes, while spirit children of a common Father, and the progeny of our earthly parents Adam and Eve, were not yet to receive the priesthood, for reasons which we believe are known to God, but which He has not made fully known to man.

Our living prophet, President David O. McKay, has said, “The seeming discrimination by the Church toward the Negro is not something which originated with man; but goes back into the beginning with God….

“Revelation assures us that this plan antedates man’s mortal existence, extending back to man’s pre-existent state.”

President McKay has also said, “Sometime in God’s eternal plan, the Negro will be given the right to hold the priesthood.”

Until God reveals His will in this matter, to him whom we sustain as a prophet, we are bound by that same will. Priesthood, when it is conferred on any man comes as a blessing from God, not of men.

We feel nothing but love, compassion, and the deepest appreciation for the rich talents, endowments, and the earnest strivings of our Negro brothers and sisters. We are eager to share with men of all races the blessings of the Gospel. We have no racially-segregated congregations.

Were we the leaders of an enterprise created by ourselves and operated only according to our own earthly wisdom, it would be a simple thing to act according to popular will. But we believe that this work is directed by God and that the conferring of the priesthood must await His revelation. To do otherwise would be to deny the very premise on which the Church is established.

We recognize that those who do not accept the principle of modern revelation may oppose our point of view. We repeat that such would not wish for membership in the Church, and therefore the question of priesthood should hold no interest for them. Without prejudice they should grant us the privilege afforded under the Constitution to exercise our [p.224] chosen form of religion just as we must grant all others a similar privilege. They must recognize that the question of bestowing or withholding priesthood in the Church is a matter of religion and not a matter of Constitutional right.

We extend the hand of friendship to men everywhere and the hand of fellowship to all who wish to join the Church and partake of the many rewarding opportunities to be found therein.

We join with those throughout the world who pray that all of the blessings of the gospel of Jesus Christ may in due time of the Lord become available to men of faith everywhere. Until that time comes we must trust in God, in His wisdom and in His tender mercy.

Meanwhile we must strive harder to emulate His Son, the Lord Jesus Christ, whose new commandment it was that we should love one another. In developing that love and concern for one another, while awaiting revelations yet to come, let us hope that with respect to these religious differences, we may gain reinforcement for understanding and appreciation for such differences. They challenge our common similarities, as children of one Father, to enlarge the out-reachings of our divine souls.

Faithfully your brethren,
The First Presidency

By Hugh B. Brown
N. Eldon Tanner

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