Thu May 28 07:57:02 AM MDT 2026 Seriously, what is this life all about these days? I’m not sure I understand it at all. It would be nice to be able to figure it all out eventually. But I’m not sure how to do even that. I mean I can guess and guess until I come up with something? But I don’t know how to do that exactly. There are so many things in this life that get confusing and I hate it. I think life has a way of fucking with you, and we don’t quite know how to deal with it when it does that to us. It’s a messed up world after all. I mean look around, there are so many things going on in life that we don’t understand, so many things that we take for granted. So many impossible things that need to be explored but we don’t because they might be supernatural. We tend to blame a lot of things on God. If life goes good? It was God’s doing. If life goes bad? God has a plan for us and we just need to be patient &c. I’d like to think God is up there watching and rooting for us, even w...
February 28, 2026 Dear Dad, Well you missed your fiftieth wedding anniversary. I don’t know if you are able to celebrate where you are. Or if things like anniversaries are even thought or cared about. It would be a nice thought if they were still considered for something, a memory at least. But I don’t know how any of that really works. Heck there’s a lot of things that I don’t know how it works right now and I have to be okay with that. Life is hard right now. I don’t know how else to put it really I don’t. It kinda sucks. But well here I am. It’s just how things are at the moment I guess. Whatever. I’ll get through it and figure things out. Wish you were here so I could just talk it over through with you. But you’re not, so I have to go it alone I guess. I read the news and it’s just terrible, so there’s no point in reading the news. It just gets in the way of everything else and I don’t know how to feel about it all. It’s getting under my skin at times, and I don’t like it! O...