DreamSense

 Had some crazy dreams last night. I don't remember them all, but I do know they were just plain crazy. I wonder why the mind thinks up these thoughts and considers them dreams. It doesn't make any sense most of the time, yet here we are and those are the dreams to be had.

 Let's face it, I'm not a fan of life. I hate it. There I said it. Does that surprise you? If it does? You don't know me that well. It's just what this life is all about. People constantly seeking other people's praise. What is going on with that? There's no reason for it. You don't need praise from other people to make yourself look or feel better. Sure it can help, but it won't last. So I hate this life. Life needs to be better than it currently is. I know only I can make that change in my own life, like you are the only person who can make that change in your life. It is what it is. That's all there is to it. So you deal with it and move forward the best you are able to. There's no other thing keeping you from doing it, except yourself. If I had the ability, I would simply remove myself from the equation. However there's something blocking me from doing that. There's no reason to keep that thought process going. I'm here to stay, u...

 Life doesn't feel fair most days. I don't know how else to describe it. The anxiety rises as does the depression within me and I just don't know what to do about it. Sure I take my medication and prescribed and all of that but sometimes it just doesn't feel like it helps. I know I know, go see my doctor and see what they can do. But sometimes it doesn't feel like the doctor even listens to what I have to say and they do whatever they feel like doing. Get another doctor you say. Easier said than done. Takes time to find a doctor and to find one who I can trust. Yeah they all have the same credentials and all of that, but someone who will take time to listen to me, that's what I need. I know my body more than they do. I'm the one hearing the voices and whatnot. Why can't they just see it for what it is.