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Everything Goes Underwater

 No matter how you live this life, it will always tend to go underwater. You get swept away in the tide and out into the drink as it were. There's no escaping it. You're going to drown. That's all there is to this life. Drowning and then the not drowning, but the not drowning is much more uncommon than the drowning.

So, there you are trying to tread water. You know you can only do it for a minimal amount of time. There's nothing wrong with that, but sooner or later you're going under.

Life feels like a huge ocean wave crashing down on me at the moment. I don't know how to respond. I don't know how to do any of it. No matter how high I keep my head above water, I seem to get pulled under. My emotions, my feelings, everything is just coming to a head at the moment. I don't like it.

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