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It's Friday!

So, Friday came? I think? Maybe? Yeah, the jury is still out on that one. I for one enjoy when a weekend comes. It’s quite a nice detour through which everything is possible. No, I’m not sure if I understand what I just wrote either. But hey, it’s the weekend. There’s nothing to do but go and do whatever there is to do! The world is our oyster as it were. Nope, don’t have a clue where that phrase came from either. It would be nice to be able to determine something in this life. I think? Maybe? Who knows. As long as I’m livin’ I ain’t dyin’. I guess that’s one way to look at it all with a perspective that matches nothing. Been thinking lately, life isn’t as bad as I thought it was. I mean is. Yeah you know what I mean. It’s life after all. There’s nothing to worry about when life comes your way. You either buckle down and face the music, or you wimp out and let life do its thing. The choice is yours.

YouTube

Been uploading to YouTube lately again. It's not that bad of an idea. Helps keep my mind off of my depression and whatnot. It would be nice if it cured me of my depression altogether, but it won't. It can't. I still feel like bleh most days even with the meds I'm on. Maybe I shoudl talk to the doctor about my medications and see what they can do about it.

Depression

I've been diagnosed with depression. Pretty sure it's been going on for a while now. Not just recently. But it comes and goes. Mostly comes around and sticks around for a while. It's rather annoying to have this diagnosis. But what can I do about it? Not much I'm afraid. It is what it is and that's all which matters. Ever try and google what something is? Like trying to find out all the symptoms etc? Yeah it can be annoying at best. But it is life that I'm trying to live and get through whatever there is to get through with all of this. I've also been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder on top of the depression. Now there's a tongue twister for you. Again I wish I hadn't been diagnosed with any of these things. But I have and I have to learn to live with them. Trying my best to get through it all as best I can. I suppose that's why I'm going to therapy, to help me get through all of this. Sure the voices may never go away, but I'll ...

Life is weird at times

That's right, life is weird. There's nothing I am able to do with this life because that's what this life is all about, confusion. Some would say that life isn't confusing. But I would have to say otherwise. Life is very confusing at times. It's terrible. Mostly worrysome and simply terrible. How else can I describe it? I'm not sure.