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We Must Try

Wed May 6 10:35:51 PM MDT 2026 Oh another day has come and gone, and who are we to thank for this good fortune? That’s right. Ourselves. For we are the ones who are able to put the past behind us. We are able to understand and grasp whatever there is to grab hold of. But we must hold on tight. For there will never be another time where we are able to understand fully what is going on in our lifves. I wish I had an understanding of how the world works. How history is made. How things get invented, but I don’t have that luxury. There are times in life where we simply don’t understand anything there is to understand. We must have the ability to grab hold of some kind of meaning. Anything to make us better than who we currently are. I wish I understood what all of that meant, but I don’t. I think if I had the ability, I would find a way to overcome whatever problems I have and seek out the best way of getting there. I’m not sure that’s possible. But I sure as hell would like to try! May...

YouTube

Been uploading to YouTube lately again. It's not that bad of an idea. Helps keep my mind off of my depression and whatnot. It would be nice if it cured me of my depression altogether, but it won't. It can't. I still feel like bleh most days even with the meds I'm on. Maybe I shoudl talk to the doctor about my medications and see what they can do about it.

Depression

I've been diagnosed with depression. Pretty sure it's been going on for a while now. Not just recently. But it comes and goes. Mostly comes around and sticks around for a while. It's rather annoying to have this diagnosis. But what can I do about it? Not much I'm afraid. It is what it is and that's all which matters. Ever try and google what something is? Like trying to find out all the symptoms etc? Yeah it can be annoying at best. But it is life that I'm trying to live and get through whatever there is to get through with all of this. I've also been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder on top of the depression. Now there's a tongue twister for you. Again I wish I hadn't been diagnosed with any of these things. But I have and I have to learn to live with them. Trying my best to get through it all as best I can. I suppose that's why I'm going to therapy, to help me get through all of this. Sure the voices may never go away, but I'll ...

Life is weird at times

That's right, life is weird. There's nothing I am able to do with this life because that's what this life is all about, confusion. Some would say that life isn't confusing. But I would have to say otherwise. Life is very confusing at times. It's terrible. Mostly worrysome and simply terrible. How else can I describe it? I'm not sure.