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Life Happens Only Once

 Life tends to happen only once. There's nothing wrong with that. It comes and goes before you are able to even blink your eyes at it. It really isn't that difficult of a process. Life just tends to happen. I don't know how it happens, just that it happens. It's an odd thought process to think about. But it is part of the equation which this life stems from. It would be nice to be able to understand all about what is going on, but I don't think there's a way to grasp what it is all about. So, we continue forward hoping that something will happen in a good turnabout of events. If those events don't happen though, life won't be able to turn out the way we want it to. I bet this life has things planned for me that I don't even know about yet. It would be nice to be able to figure all of that out now though. Maybe in time I will be able to figure out things that I do not understand now. That would be an ideal situation.

I wish I had the ability to look into my own future and see all there is to see. If I could grasp onto that future and never let go, if it's a good future of course, then I would do that. Does that sound crazy? It might to some. I'm not sure if that would be the case for most interested parties. Who are those interested parties though, I do not know.

Maybe there is a time in life that just makes sense to everyone. Wouldn't that be an amazing feat? I think it would be. Something has to happen before any of that can take place. I don't know how it works. That's all there is to it.

If a mental hospital would make everything better, I would land myself in there. But those places only work for a little while. They don't tend to do good long term. That's where therapy and psychologists come into play. They help out immensely.

It's funny how life tends to just come at us without warning. I wish I could tell reality from what's fake somedays.

I'm all alone. I have no one. What will I do when I have an episode? What will I do when I have issues that I just can't figure out and contain? So many what ifs. I don't know what to do about any of them. I just don't know how to control these emotions I have going on at the moment. There must be someway to overcome whatever these emotions are.

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