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Why Must Life Be This Way

If there’s one thing I don’t quite understand about this life, is why must it be this way? I mean, we have to deal with some things in life and we cannot easily allow them to be what they want to be, at least I don’t think that’s how it works. If it did? Then everything would be fine, we could continue on about whatever we wanted to do and there would be no harm or foul. That’s the problem with this life though. Nothing ever fully makes sense at times and we are left holding the problem end of the cord. There are times when life will come clean with us, we don’t always get that kind of protection mind you. So what do we end up doing? Do we want to keep thinking and going on about whatever there is to go on about? I’m not sure that’s a safe course of action. Hell, what is safe anymore? I do not know. What I do know is life will continue to be the way it’s meant to be. There’s no stopping it. No matter what happens in this life, we will always be stuck with whatever we’re meant to be st...
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Slump

 I feel like I'm in a slump. I can't even think of what to write about. The cursor just sits there. It's a staring match that won't end. So why not type out my thoughts. Yeah, I thought it was a good idea until I started. There are so many thoughts in my brain right now that I don't even know what to do with them all. This could end up just as a big wall of text, with nothing of substance. Yep, it could end up just like that. Who knows what the future will bring. There are so many opportunities out there. Some might be good others could be bad. Either way? They are coming. Day in and day out I come to the realization that this is my life. What more could there be to it. That's a possible question I have to figure out.

Wow a new paragraph. We're making progress.

Feeling this way is upsetting to me. I'm not sure how to articulate the sensation, but it is annoying at best. I wish I could figure out what to do with all of these thoughts and emotions that come into my mind. But I don't see any possible way to deal with them. Not yet at least. Eventually I should be able to do something with these thoughts, hopefully sooner than later.

If you could see inside my mind, the mess that has become what it is. I wonder what you would think of it. Would you be scared? Would just the idea of looking into someone else's mind scare you off? Makes you wonder doesn't it. What would you do, dear reader, what indeed.

I need to write a book. Yes, a book would be wonderful to write. But what should I write about? Ah the age-old question indeed. I'm sure I will come up with something. Anything at this point would be progress. I have an idea of what I want to write about, but I'm not sure how well it would turn out. But the idea is sound.

Love when a plan gets together. I wish more things in life would shape up and get together too. But what do I know. I'm just me. Just me and my thoughts it seems. I wonder how anyone gets anything done when they have thoughts jumbling around in their head. I know I can't concentrate very well. It would be nice to be able to figure it all out for myself.

If I ever figure things out, I'm sure I'll be the first to know.

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