Tue Jan 7 20:06:13 MST 2020 There has got to be some reason for these thoughts. Whatever thoughts come into my mind, I mean they have to have a reason right? Worry, regret, things I can’t control. Everything else which simply can’t be understood or controlled…things like that. I don’t know what to do with these thoughts. People tell me to simply forget about them. Let them go. Who’s to know how that’s meant to work out. I don’t have a clue. I wish I did. That would be nice, but I don’t. I mean, if life is meant to be simple…a breeze, something we’re meant to accomplish well into our 90s etc, if we live that long. Then aren’t we suppose to be able to do something with it? Aren’t we meant to be able to accomplish something and just be there for each other? No matter what happens? Life comes and goes, it’s not meant to be out there out there, but here we are. We don’t know what happens all the time. We don’t know what goes on when we aren’t listening or aren’t watching. We simply don’t ...
So, what is this life exactly? We come here, we’re born that is. We seek out to do that which is good eternally and then we die? Is that all there is to it? I mean sure we’re meant to build up the Kingdom of God on the Earth as it were, but we can’t do it alone now can we? It would be nice if there was a guidebook that we could follow. No I’’m not talking about the Bible, sure that’s a good guidebook in itself, but there are problems with it. Not talking about the Book of Mormon either. There are problems with that too. But I’m not allowed to speak out against such matters, it is too sacred a thing to do so. So I don’t. If I had to wager a guess at what this life is all about, I would hazard a guess that it is something unique and special. That’s about as basic as I can get. There doesn’t appear to be anything else that can be said about it all. I wish there was, but I am unable to fully see what it is all about. Maybe life will have a way of letting me in on that secret someday? I d...