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Death, What Of It?

Monday, September 21, 2026 I don’t want to think today. Is that too much to ask? I’m not sure it is. It would be nice to be able not to think for one day. I’d rather be think-less. Is that a word? I’m not sure it is. Spellcheck doesn’t think it is. Oh well if I want to make up new words? So be it. Or maybe I’ll add a hyphen to it! Yeah that will show them! Life doesn’t have to be this way. Everyday, all day. It’s a shame. It has to be something else…something better than anything else going on. I wish I didn’t care about certain things that overwhelm me. They aren’t important things to begin with, so why am I thinking about them to begin with? I don’t know, I don’t have a clue. Should I have a clue about such things? I’m not sure if I need to. It comes and goes in waves. Life will eventually come to a stop for everyone. Be it a supernova, or simply death deciding to catch up with those who’s time it is to go. Funny how that tends to work out. The whole death thing. It doesn’t have t...

This Life Feels Impossible

If life had a way to conquer our mind, what would that look like? I’m not sure I quite understand what’s going on with it all, just that we have to be able to figure out what it’s doing at any given moment. I wish I could understand and grasp what it’s doing to us, but if we can’t explain that…what are we even doing here? I simply do not know. I wish I had the ability to understand and grasp what this life has in store for me, but then again I don’t think I can do that. It’s life after all, I mean come on now. What more do you want from it? Exactly.

A Simulation Of Sorts

Sunday, September 20, 2026 Wake up Neo… The Matrix Has You. Those famous words were penned and screened into a movie. Life is a simulation it screamed. You aren’t really living in the 90s, it’s far into the future; and you’ve never used your body before. You’ve been plugged into a machine for who knows how long. Since you were hatched from the long line of machines that are in the real world. So, which pill do you take? The one that allows you to go back to sleep and enjoy reality as you think you know it, or take the pill that lets you see the real world as it really is. It’s up to you. The question is posed. What would you do if you woke up in a simulated world? It doesn’t have to be the matrix, it can be anything you want it to be. Of course if this were a real situation you wouldn’t have the ability to choose all of the circumstances of the simulation. If I had the ability to do what I was meant to do in this life, be it fake or real, I wouldn’t stop at anything. I owuld try ...

This Is Life

Oh what a life this is, I’m not sure what to think about it, but it is something. I wish I could figure out exactly what this life is meant to be about, but I do not know. It is something quite different from the rest of life, that much is true. But life will be whatever it wants to be and I have to live with that. So I will. It’s nothing to get worked up over mind you, just keep that in mind. Life will be whatever it wants to be and that’s what it will always be. Nothing too complex, nothing out of hand, just a life full of amusing thoughts.

Oh Life You Silly Thing

Life tends to come and go and we don’t have the ability to see what’s all going on there. Life will always continue to be whatever it wants to be, we don’t have the ability to do what we want. It’s life after all. Nothing beats wanting to escape this life, but we can’t always do that. There’s always something in the way that may drive us crazy at times. It’s life after all, there’s nothing wrong with that thought process, but it will be crazy if it is. Talk about crazy times that come along and we don’t have the ability to actually see what’s going on in this life. Ya know? Yeah, that’s what I was thinking about. It’s life, we don’t always have the ability to grasp it fully. That’s life.

Silly Life

This is such a silly life at times, we don’t always know what’s going on with it. That’s okay though! If life were meant to be other than silly, we wouldn’t have a clue about anything now would we? No, I didn’t think so. That’s what this life is all about. It’s meant to be strange at times and when that happens, we have to sit up and take notice. If we don’t? Then we’re pretty much in trouble. That’s just how life goes at times though. I don’t blame anyone but myself when that happens. It’s life and there’s nothing I’m able to do about it. So I don’t even bother.

Living Life

It’s a life we live, that’s what’s important in this life I think, it’s the best possible outcome at least. If we don’t understand that much about life, then what are we supposed to do about it? I mean, come on now. We’re meant to live and see what’s out there, aren’t we? One would think so! If we can’t do that, then we’re lost souls on this river, or ocean even and we cannot get past it all. We are lost at sea as it were cast about the waves unable to get past whatever it is we’re meant to get past. So, let’s live life to its fullest. Don’t overthink things, don’t allow yourself to become corrupt in such thinking. Supposedly not everything is black and white, I’m not sure how that works exactly. I wish I could have a handle on it all, but I don’t know how that tends to work. So I forget whatever is meant to be and I will understand it as it’s meant to come to me, if at all.

Life In A Nutshell

Life is but a nutshell at times, there isn’t anything we can do about that. It would be nice to be able to do something, but well I don’t know how to do that. It’s life after all, nothing important nothing special. It’s meant to be something quite different I presume, but what exactly? I do not know. It would be nice to know for sure.

What Is Life?

Mon Jul 20 02:55:02 AM MDT 2026 I’m thinking again, life tends to feel like a bunch of bullshit at times. I don’t know what to do about that. It would be nice to be able to figure out whatever there is to figure out, but again I don’t know how to do that! I’m feel so fucking frustrated right now. I wish I had a clue about how to get over it, get through it, do something about it. But what can I do exactly? I don’t know. I don’t have a clue! It’s bugging the hell out of me right now. I wish I could do something about it, but again I don’t know what to do. Gah! What are you meant to do with this life when you just feel helpless? I wish I knew. I wish I could…do something about these feelings I am having at the moment. I don’t know what to do with them though? So many thoughts, emotions, feelings, all flooding into my head at once. Too much to focus on, too much to do anything with. I feel overwhelmed. What am I going to do about it? I need to figure out something. If I could do someth...

Um, Life?

Thu Jun 25 01:41:13 PM MDT 2026 Today feels like there are so many difficult things going on, and I don’t know how to even do that! It’s annoying at least, but what am I supposed to do about it? I don’t know. Life will always be what it will be and that’s all there is to it. I mean, come on. If I had the ability to make this life listen to me, do you honestly think I would be here thinking about it all? I highly doubt it. There’s nothing in this life that will make me want to understand it less than someone in my face yelling at me telling me everything will be “fine.” Yeah, that doesn’t fly for me. Not at all.

Blast From The Past: June 22, 2026

Mon Jun 22 01:04:57 UTC 2026 Ah, a brand mew day is here! This I can handle. I didn’t hear from the kids, kinda expected that. I never hear from them on Father’s Day. It’s whatever. I deal with it and move on is all. Nothing big. Nothing major. Nothing too crazy. I really shouldn’t be surprised by any of this. I mean it is what it is. I know I can call them but they’re probably celebrating that other man who they call Dad. Gah! I hate overthinking this. It’s like this every year. I need to stop thinking about it. That’s all there is to it! Mon Jun 22 08:10:05 AM MDT 2026 Welp! Back to work I go. Doesn’t mean it’s not useful of course, work is a good thing at times. I wonder how it all would go down if there wasn’t work? I mean that could be kind crazy right? Yeah, that’s what I’m thinking! Well, the kids did eventually call last night, around 10 PM. They didn’t have much to say. They never do. They never know what they’re doing or are up to. It can be frustrating at times. Maybe ...

Death Waits For No One

Commander Kim R’Jor knelt down, she rested her hand on her abdomen. It was in searing pain. “Captain.” She yelled out. Burke came running. “Commander? What is it?” “I don’t know sir.” She said. “I was standing there, and suddenly I felt this immense pain.” Burke looked around the cell they were in. He couldn’t find anything out of the ordinary, it was a simple Dominion holding cell. The force-field was a bit on the shocking side, you could easily get yourself singed. But other than that, it was a holding cell. “Vorta!” Burke yelled to a camera. “I want to talk!” A door opened and the Vorta in charge entered the holding area. “Yes captain? What can I do for your?” Burke held his restraint, he wanted to punch the Vorta though the force-field but knew that would be impossible. “She needs medical attention.” Burke said. “You’ll help her.” The Vorta shrugged. “If I don’t, what will you do? You’re in a holding cell, there’s no where for you to go.” Burke rested his hands on his hips....

Journal

Sun Jun 21 00:22:48 UTC 2026 Another day is here. That’s all there is to it I guess. I wish I had the oomph to do something good in the world. I’m not sure what that would be though. Talk about being in a rock and a hard place. However that phrase goes, yeah that! It comes to reason that life is cruel at times. I wish I had the ability to make sense of it all. But I can’t seem to do that at times. It is what it is though so whatever. I guess it would be nice to be able to figure everything out all at once. But if I dis that, where would the mystery be? Eh, who really knows how this world works anyway. I sire as hell don’t.

Journal

Sat Jun 20 19:49:07 UTC 2026 Oh what a day today brings. I don’t know what to do about it all. At the hospital right now just waiting for tests to be run. Exciting I know. I just hope everything will be okay. There’s no telling what will or won’t happen in here. Personally I hate doctors. They scare me. Anyone who can tale a look inside your brain shouldn’t be allowed to. But that is just my opinion on it all. See? Nothing too exciting. It’s life.

We Are Here For A Reason

Oh what a day today has been. I've been sick. Not feeling good. Emotions are running high, feelings are running deep. I have this cough. I am sick. It's just not a good thing. I've slept a lot today. I don't know how else to explain it. That's all that life will become of me. A sick person who doesn't know any better. But what can you do about it all? I don't know. Life has a part of wisdom I'm sure, but I don't know where that wisdom comes from. There doesn't appear to be a way to overcome whatever there is to overcome. I simply do not wish to overthink any of that. But it will happen someday. So we are here, in this life for a reason. I guess that's all there is to it.

Exactly What Are We Doing Here?

Fri Jun 19 02:06:33 PM MDT 2026 Ever wonder what it is we’re doing here? Yeah that’s what I’m thinking. It doesn’t always make sense to me. I mean we live for a purpose, a reason don’t we? If we don’t, then we’re in the wrong business of living. If there’s nothing to be done with living, then we need to figure something else out. I don’t know how that’s all possible though. Life certainly won’t find a way to make things easier or better simply because we want it to…or does it? I mean do we have that much control over this life that we can expect it to be different than it is? I’m not sure I buy into that. Fri Jun 19 03:27:01 PM MDT 2026 I do believe that today has been quite a day. Things have happened and that’s just the tip of the iceberg. I’m not sure exactly what has happened today, just things. All the things I fear. But that’s okay, life will always be that way. It will happen and take place the way it’s meant to.

Never Forget

Today Is Another Day

Thu Jun 18 08:35:39 AM MDT 2026 Today is simply a day, what more do you want from it? I’m not sure. It will be whatever it will be and there’s nothing else that can matter because of it. We have to accept everything that comes from today and don’t worry about what tomorrow will bring. Today will never come again. The past is the past for a reason. It will never cease to exist. The past will forever be the past and we cannot overcome that. It isn’t a curse or anything, but a common foe that we must try and overcome. This life will be whatever it wants to be. It will turn out the way it’s meant to turn out. I don’t have a clue how either of those statements work, they just do. So it will always be whatever it wants to be. We don’t have a choice in the matter. Life will come and life will go, it won’t make a difference if it happens today or tomorrow. It will always take place and happen.

Oh Life!

Wed Jun 17 08:28:05 AM MDT 2026 Okay, let’s face it. Life can get in the way at times. I accept that. I realize that. It can be a real pain in the ass at times and I’d rather it not be. But what can a person do about that? I don’t know. There are so many things in this life that come our way and we don’t have a rhyme or reason to do anything about it. That’s life for you. It will do what it wants, when it wants and you have to either accept it or deny it. If you deny it, well there are consequences. Oh boy are there consequences for our actions. Whoever said we have “free” agency was wrong, agency isn’t free if there are consequences. Talk about a mind fuck. I wish I could make everything that’s bad disappear for everyone. I’m not sure how that would look though. I bet it would be a complicated mess. That’s the last thing I need in this life is a complicated mess. I don’t need or want that to be going on at all. Life has a way of letting you know it exists, but if it constantly gets ...

All Or Nothing

Tuesday, September 08, 2026 All-or-nothing thinking (also called black-and-white or dichotomous thinking) is a cognitive distortion where you see things in absolutes—either perfect or terrible, right or wrong, good or bad. In reality, most situations have a mix of positives and negatives, and this extreme “either/or” style can fuel anxiety, depression, and perfectionism. I’ve been thinking this way for years. I doubt it will go away anytime soon. That’s simply how life is at times and I have to deal with it. Well, from that description…it can stem from anxiety or depression. Both of which I have. Sounds great to me don’t you think? Yeah that’s what happens when overthinking is normal. I wish it wasn’t this way. But it is and there’s not much I can do about it. Such is life.

Life Is Hard

Tue Jun 16 11:25:43 AM MDT 2026 Life feels kind of difficult at times today. I’m not sure what’s going on with it all. I feel like something is out to get me. I don’t know what’s out to get me for sure, but it feels like something is out there waiting to destroy me. I don’t like that feeling. It feels so weird and off at times. I wish I had a clue of what it is all about. But I don’t. It feels like a large weight is on my chest and I can’t seem to breathe. That’s what it feels like. I don’t like it. I’m sure it will go away eventually. It can’t stick around forever. Right? Right? I sure as hell hope it can’t! Tue Jun 16 01:15:14 PM MDT 2026 If I had the ability, I think I would want life to make some kind of sense. I’m not sure how that’s meant to be though. If life doesn’t make sense, who am I to say otherwise. I don’t think I’m allowed to have such a command presence on such a topic. Life will be what it always is. It will either be good or it will be bad. I do not know how it i...

What Kind Of Day Is Today?

Mon Jun 15 10:29:51 AM MDT 2026 Today is but a day, there’s nothing else that comes from it. It will be whatever it wants to be and we cannot do anything about it. If I had complete control over my life, what would we need for a higher power to be watching over us? We need to have that higher being in place though, at least I think we do. Without Him watching over us, we might screw up bad beyond the point of no longer being able to do whatever it is we need to accomplish in this life. So confused at times, I’m not sure where this confusion comes from though. I need to be able to make sense of something in this life. If I don’t? Then what is the purpose of life? I don’t get it. Sure there are a ton of things I don’t get in this life, I guess that’s just how this life is meant to be? I don’t know. I wish … oh how I wish I could have it make sense to me. But it doesn’t ever want to make sense for me. Do you see the problem I’m facing here? The dilemma I have at times? If you don’t, we...

Friday's Come So Slow...

Fri Jun 12 09:10:21 AM MDT 2026 Today is Friday! (Friyay!) But it feels like they come so slow. It’s sad when you look forward to the weekend. I’m not sure how that ever came on the radar, but that’s what this life feels like at times. I wish I didn’t feel this way most weeks, but that’s how I feel. It would be nice to be able to get over whatever is causing this, but what am I going to do about it? So many questions that don’t have a way of making sense. There is never a way to make sense of it all I suppose, that’s what this life is all about. If I had a way to make the future possible? I would so be on that. I’m not sure how that works though. There needs to be a way to make this life manageable. I doubt there seems to be a way to overcome anything. So many possibilities and thought processes out there, I doubt there is a way to overcome a lot in this life. Fri Jun 12 10:09:44 AM MDT 2026 I wish I could understand what this life is meant to turn out to be! I don’t get it most da...

Today Is A Day

Thu Jun 11 11:18:25 AM MDT 2026 Let’s talk about what today is. Today is a rather ungrateful day. It’s a Thursday, so that’s got to mean something. Of course I thought yesterday was Thursday. Such a bummer. I’m freezing today. I don’t know how hot it’s supposed to get outside? But I feel cold. I don’t usually feel cold in the summertime. I hope I’m not getting sick or coming down with something. I’m sitting in my office and I have my minky on my lap because I’m freezing! Sami’s friend dropped off some chairs so we have a place to sit now. They’re nice oversized comfy chairs too! Only cost her eight dollars, so that’s what we paid for them. It feels good to have a place to sit in while writing or watching TV again. Talk about a good thing to have around. Last night, I had some crazy thoughts. Typical “life is a simulation” thought process. I don’t know why I am having these thoughts. They seem to come out of nowhere. It just happens to be that way though. I’m not crazy, sure I’ve be...

Oh Life, You Bastard

Wed Jun 10 08:43:42 AM MDT 2026 Life, you’re such a fickle son of a bitch. I’m not sure how you do it, day in and day out. There’s always something going on where we don’t have a clue about what to do. If swearing up a storm would fix things? I would be swearing all day long. But it doesn’t fix a damn thing. See I just swore, and it didn’t do anything. I rest my case. If life had a purpose, what would it be exactly? I’m not sure I know the difference between life’s purpose and anything else that’s out there. To speak of such things, feels rather illogical at times. Why pursue something that you cannot obtain? Maybe that is the goal in this life. See what you can do, and see what will become of it? Not sure. Don’t know. Wed Jun 10 09:33:27 AM MDT 2026 If today had a theme, what would it be? I wonder. I think it would be psychosis is a bad thing that can happen to you and you don’t know how it will affect you. Yeah, something like that. Wed Jun 10 10:37:25 AM MDT 2026 If I had a do...

Seriously, What Is Life?

Tue Jun 9 01:56:22 PM MDT 2026 I tend to wonder what this life is all about at times. I’m not sure I quite understand everything that happens in life? But that’s okay. Maybe if I had an inkling of what this life was about, I could answer my own question regarding it. But I doubt that will ever happen or take place. Life has a tendency to hide when certain things come out of nowhere. If I had my own way of doing things? I would figure it all out in one fail swoop. That way it would be understood without question. Naturally that isn’t the case, no such method exists for anyone out there. Life is tricky that way. It can foul you up long before you know it’s doing it. Perhaps I can try and figure something else out about this life. Something I haven’t thought about yet? Now there’s a thought. I…I don’t know exactly what the purpose of this life is meant to be. Some say it’s so we can be happy. Others believe it’s so we can grow from the experiences we have. I don’t know what any of that...

Walmart and Customer Service AI

Wednesday, September 2, 2026 I had to call Walmart Customer Service today regarding logging into my Walmart+ account. So that went…interestingly. An AI bot answered my phone call. They seemed quite attentive to my needs, walked me through getting into my account. We never got into my account, so I have to make a new one. But it was interesting to basically have an almost “human” conversation with an AI bot. I’m sure it will just increase in knowledge as time moves on. That will happen before the AI Uprising of 2030. Yeah that’s when I’m predicting it. We don’t have much time before that happens!

What Will Today Bring?

Wednesday, September 02, 2026 I often wonder what today will bring. It doesn’t have to be complex. Just a simple question to be fair. I wish I could see into the future. If I could do that, I might be able to determine which is the best road to go down. Life wise anyway. We can’t all be like Robert Frost and take “The Road Less Taken.” That’s just not how this life works at times. Doesn’t feel fair at times if you ask me. I wish I could see into the future. But I guess if I could do that, the future wouldn’t be special for me.

What Is Life Exactly?

Mon Jun 8 08:08:34 AM MDT 2026 I’d like to know for a fact what this life is all about. I don’t seem to understand its true potential most of the time. What is one’s own true potential? I’m not sure I even understand what that’s all about. Are we ever meant to fully understand what this life is about? I doubt it. It remains a mystery to us all. Why does life have to be a mystery at all? I don’t get it. I mean it makes sense on some level? But not really. Maybe life isn’t meant to be figured out at all? I mean that’s possible right? Right?! Yeah, that’s what I was thinking. Apricots are delicious! I have some this morning for breakfast, that and toast. I rather enjoy me a good apricot. Cute little fuzzy things they are! I like those and peaches most. Who knows what other fruits I enjoy. It’s been a while since I’ve actually enjoyed some fruit. I need to change that in my diet. Mon Jun 08 09:25:05 AM MDT 2026 If life had a purpose, what would that purpose be? I mean we’re here for ...

Another Day?

Fri Jun 5 07:47:57 AM MDT 2026 It’s another Friday! Or as I like to call it Friyay! Yeah it’s stupid I know, but it’s a thing. Don’t squash it. I’d like to be able to wake up without some kind of rooster going off in my ear. I don’t think they’re legal where I live? But then again, I doubt the neighbors even care. Then there’s the cats. So many cats. Cats with babies, cats without babies, cats making babies. It goes on and on, and there’s nothing I can do about that either. Talk about crazy! I keep having these … dreams. I’d call them nightmares? But I’m not sure if they are at times. They’re rather troubling to me. Some are sexual in nature. Others are just there waiting for me to say or do something about them. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to have these dreams anymore. I don’t think I think about sex a lot. I don’t know where these dreams are coming from. Then there are dreams that feel like I’m reliving memories. Memories I don’t want to have. I’d call them a previous l...

What's In A Day

Thu Jun 4 02:05:29 PM MDT 2026 Well, today is another day. It would be nice to be able to understand this stress and anxiety I have been facing. It’s been going on for far too long. I need it to stop, or find a way to make it stop. Some medication can help from time to time, but I don’t want to be reliant on that medication every single day. I don’t know, maybe there’s no way to get around that thought process? Not sure. Not sure I ever know what this life is all about with these challenges I face on a day-to-day basis. Easier than it sounds, right? Yeah…that’s what I’ve been thinking. Too many damn thoughts in my mind at times. I’m not sure what to do with them all. Some are out to get me, I fear. I can’t let them win though. They need to stay the hell away from me! Life has its ups and downs, no one can argue that point. It’s not meant to be a terrible place to live in, but if I can’t figure it out? What am I supposed to do about it? I don’t know. Thu Jun 04 02:21:33 PM MDT 2026...