Thu Jun 11 11:18:25 AM MDT 2026 Let’s talk about what today is. Today is a rather ungrateful day. It’s a Thursday, so that’s got to mean something. Of course I thought yesterday was Thursday. Such a bummer. I’m freezing today. I don’t know how hot it’s supposed to get outside? But I feel cold. I don’t usually feel cold in the summertime. I hope I’m not getting sick or coming down with something. I’m sitting in my office and I have my minky on my lap because I’m freezing! Sami’s friend dropped off some chairs so we have a place to sit now. They’re nice oversized comfy chairs too! Only cost her eight dollars, so that’s what we paid for them. It feels good to have a place to sit in while writing or watching TV again. Talk about a good thing to have around. Last night, I had some crazy thoughts. Typical “life is a simulation” thought process. I don’t know why I am having these thoughts. They seem to come out of nowhere. It just happens to be that way though. I’m not crazy, sure I’ve be...
Do I have to die to be understood in this life? I’m not sure if that’s an unreasonable thought process. It doesn’t mean I’m going to take my own life, no that’s not the point at all. There tends to be something in this life that keeps me from taking my life. I don’t know what that is to be honest. If I did? Hell, I could tell you! But since I don’t have the answer for any of that, well I guess I’m stuck here waiting for something else to take place and happen. It doesn’t mean life will get better by any means. It could mean that I won’t get a good nights sleep until I can figure it all out. Too many close calls over the years. I’m not sure I should even try and remember what happened to them all, but they were real to me. It would be nice to be able to not worry or fret over any of that though. So many things have gone good in life and so many things have gone bad in life. It’s all part of the make up that is life I suppose. So where does that leave me? Huh? Where does that leave me ...