One would think this life would be easier than it currently is. I mean come on wouldn’t ou think that? Of course you would. So why can’t we each believe in it I for one would want to believe in it. It would give me something to do with my day at least. But well there’s something else on my mind. We have to be able to understand what it is exactly, if we don’t? Then that’s something quite different now isn’t it? Yeah that’s what I was thinking.
Do I have to die to be understood in this life? I’m not sure if that’s an unreasonable thought process. It doesn’t mean I’m going to take my own life, no that’s not the point at all. There tends to be something in this life that keeps me from taking my life. I don’t know what that is to be honest. If I did? Hell, I could tell you! But since I don’t have the answer for any of that, well I guess I’m stuck here waiting for something else to take place and happen. It doesn’t mean life will get better by any means. It could mean that I won’t get a good nights sleep until I can figure it all out. Too many close calls over the years. I’m not sure I should even try and remember what happened to them all, but they were real to me. It would be nice to be able to not worry or fret over any of that though. So many things have gone good in life and so many things have gone bad in life. It’s all part of the make up that is life I suppose. So where does that leave me? Huh? Where does that leave me ...