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Today Is A Day

Thu Jun 11 11:18:25 AM MDT 2026 Let’s talk about what today is. Today is a rather ungrateful day. It’s a Thursday, so that’s got to mean something. Of course I thought yesterday was Thursday. Such a bummer. I’m freezing today. I don’t know how hot it’s supposed to get outside? But I feel cold. I don’t usually feel cold in the summertime. I hope I’m not getting sick or coming down with something. I’m sitting in my office and I have my minky on my lap because I’m freezing! Sami’s friend dropped off some chairs so we have a place to sit now. They’re nice oversized comfy chairs too! Only cost her eight dollars, so that’s what we paid for them. It feels good to have a place to sit in while writing or watching TV again. Talk about a good thing to have around. Last night, I had some crazy thoughts. Typical “life is a simulation” thought process. I don’t know why I am having these thoughts. They seem to come out of nowhere. It just happens to be that way though. I’m not crazy, sure I’ve be...
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We Live In A Simulation

 You read that title right. We live in a simulation. Nothing is real. It's as real as you want it to be. But that doesn't mean it's actually real. So, what does it mean to be in a simulation? You're a lab rat. Being tested here and there, to see how you react. React to what exactly? Life. Everyday life. You think that's air you're breathing? Nah, it's recycled in some factory where we are all in pods. Just waiting to wake up from this hell. It's not easy being in a simulation once you know the truth behind the lies. They want you to think you're living a life. Any life you wish to live. But it's all been directed into your mind via some sophisticated computer program. How else would the simulation run? That's just how it tends to work out. You have no choice but to go along with the simulation. If you try and go against it? They inject you with medication to ensure you obey. Obedience is the basis of it all. Will you be obedient to whatever i...
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Where Do I Go From Here?

 Ever come across a day where you don't feel good mentally? Emotionally you feel down and you wish you just had a day to figure out what these feelings are? Yeah, that tends to happen a lot for me. I never know what is going on in my own life it feels like. Am I up? Am I down? Depressed? Not depressed? It's all a big roller coaster for me. I'm not sure exactly how to make it all stop to be honest. It would be nice to be able to just give myself a break. But I don't know how to do that. Where do I go from here? That's the main question I want answered. If I am but a babbling person with no idea of what's going on, then so be it. I've been diagnosed with different things over the years, some of those diagnoses have changed. Some have stayed the same. The ones that have stayed the same, I seem to be able to have a hold on, for now. The ones that have changed into something else? Yeah, that's a different story. I'm not quite certain where I belong in all...
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Do It Today

 There are days when you have to wake your mind up from the danger it is experiencing. Sure to everyone else it might not seem as danger, but to you it's quite real. When things get real, that's when the danger sets in. There is no escape. I may want things in this life I cannot have. That much is true. But it doesn't mean I'm going to stop dreaming. Dream big, that's my goal. Whatever I do in this life, I will somehow make things work! Death is inevitable. No one can escape it. It's that simple don't you think? ut when it comes to life, nothing is ever simple. There are too many rules in this life. Too many and no way to understand why or how they interact with each other and you. So allow it to happen as it will. You cannot change the past. You can only look towards the future with hope. That's the key now isn't it? The future awaits you. The past can be learned from but never changed. Decide now how you will choose to live. Do not wait until tomor...
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Depression

 Depression is not something to be taken lightly. Having Major Depressive Disorder, I can only hope for a better future. I get it a lot of people wish to have a better future. There's nothing wrong with that. I don't think. Why not wish for a better life? If wishing works, let it work. Personally I wish the voices would leave me, but it's not as simple as that. They run amok from time to time. My only hope is that they'll get a clue. Yeah it's crazy at times that's for sure. If I could, I'd wish them upon no one else.
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Dreams

 I believe in dreams. There are several types of dreams, here's a few I've noticed in my life: 1. A warning / vision of the future 2. Entertainment 3. To help solve a problem your subconscious mind has been worrying about Having experienced all three types of dreams, I can say some are helpful and some weird me out. I guess there's a fourth kind of dream. I can only describe it as the "school dream". You know what I'm talking about. Yeah, don't make me go there please.
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