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This Life Is...

 Oh life, where are you leading me today. I don't know what is going on with you. There is so much to wonder about, and I am here doing the wondering. I wonder about why I am here at this time. What's the point of everything that goes on in my life. Is there an afterlife. What is it like. I want to know. I want to experience it for myself. I hear of people dying and I am jealous of them. They get to move on from this life, while I sit here wishing I was in their shoes. It doesn't make sense to me, yet I do it. That's how my mind seems to work most days. I don't want to be alive. There's no point for my life. I don't see a point in it.

What is there to this life that I am missing. That is the question I wonder about most. There needs to be something I am missing, but I don't know what it is. It would be nice to be able to figure out that missing piece of life. If I hate my life so much, why do I care about a missing piece. There's no point in it. So many things that don't make sense and here I am asking about them all.

There's so much anger that flows around the world. People find new ways to hate things. New things get hated as well. Hatred is wrong in any form. The human race are failing as a whole. Until there is no more hate, bigotry and the like, we cannot rest. It must be put down, violence is not the answer. It must be done through words and intelligence.

Dang people doing their meanest while not thinking of other people. I have no words for the monsters that they are. They truly are the worst the human race has to offer. If we are to be judged because of them, so be it. But we will go down kicking and fighting.

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