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Who Decides What

 Seriously, who decides how this life turns out for people? There are billions of people on this planet. Who gets to decide what happens to each of them? Is it just dumb luck? Makes you wonder at times doesn't it. One would think people have the ability to choose their own path in life, but that doesn't feel like it's always the case. I just want this life to get figured out. Is that too much to ask? I'm not sure if it is or not. I wish for peace with my life. To accept whatever, it is I am going through. My mind wants to fight it that's a problem with this life for me.

Why the hell am I so stressed out at the moment?! I want to know the reason behind it all. Honestly, what's the deal here. There has to be a way to make things just better. Boom. No issues at all. But no, it doesn't work that way. Life just sucks.

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