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Blast From The Past: January 7, 2020

Tue Jan 7 20:06:13 MST 2020 There has got to be some reason for these thoughts. Whatever thoughts come into my mind, I mean they have to have a reason right? Worry, regret, things I can’t control. Everything else which simply can’t be understood or controlled…things like that. I don’t know what to do with these thoughts. People tell me to simply forget about them. Let them go. Who’s to know how that’s meant to work out. I don’t have a clue. I wish I did. That would be nice, but I don’t. I mean, if life is meant to be simple…a breeze, something we’re meant to accomplish well into our 90s etc, if we live that long. Then aren’t we suppose to be able to do something with it? Aren’t we meant to be able to accomplish something and just be there for each other? No matter what happens? Life comes and goes, it’s not meant to be out there out there, but here we are. We don’t know what happens all the time. We don’t know what goes on when we aren’t listening or aren’t watching. We simply don’t ...
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Waking Up Is Good

 So I woke up this morning, I suppose that’s a good start right? I sure hope so. Had some interesting dreams last night, mostly about work. I do believe my mind is causing me to think through the stuff that it doesn’t want to during the waking moments. Eh, not too bad this time around. It was work related… but I did live in a sweet house. It was rather nice. Reminded me of the house I lived in when I was 12. Let’s see… what else. Came in to a VM from Vonage asking if there was anything they could help me with. Heh, yeah I’ve never used Vonage… never will either. I hope they call back, I wanna have a nice little chat with them. But that’s just me. Oh, I also tend to respond to junk e-mail . Shoot they paid for the postage, why not send them back a letter. I’ll have to dig some up that I’ve sent back and post them. They’re quite fun. It looks like it will be a nice day today. Already starting out alright.
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Time

  Ah Time, quite an intriguing topic. They say that you live in the present, you visit the future and you leave your past behind. The only part of your past that you can truly take with you is your memories. Wouldn’t it be amusing if, for an instant, you could travel to any time frame you wanted to? Let’s say for example that you wanted to witness the great pyramids being built. What if you could just close your eyes and imagine you’re there. All of a sudden you’d be there. To me that would be quite an interesting adventure. Of course there are other methods of time traveling that one has at their disposal. When was the last time you wrote something down on paper? Or in a book ? Saved a file on your computer perhaps? You have the ability to write down whatever you’re experiencing and save it for future generations . Long after you’re dead your words can continue on, people will be able to read about you and get to know you. Even after hundreds of years have pa...
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Anxiety

  So one of the annoying things about life is how anxious I can get. I’m not sure why this happens, I just know that it does happen. Sure I’ve been diagnosed and all of that good stuff, but in the end anxious me is still anxious me. It can get annoying at times. Especially if it’s a really important day. Kinda sucks if you ask me. Sometimes I wonder, “what doesn’t suck”. It’s an interesting thought process. I try to name the good things about life and keep positive thoughts in my head. Doesn’t always happen like it should though. That’s where Xanax comes in. It can be a good thing if you ask me. Sure you’re not asking me, but if you were to… I’m sure you’d understand. For instance right now, I’m rambling on about nothing. I’m sure you’ve noticed this… hell I’ve noticed this, but eh what else is new. I do believe I’m in anger mode … sure wish I knew what that meant. I don’t have a clue what that means at all. My mind just came up with it, my mind does that from...
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