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Voices?

So, the voices are obnoxious. They constantly badger me about what I’m doing wrong in life, and I don’t know how to handle it. So many voices doing what they do best, annoy me. To no end. They argue with each other. The constant nagging can be annoying at times. I don’t know what to do about any of this. Damn voices always doing whatever they want to do! I end up suffering from it all. Damn voices. If I didn’t have voices going off in my head? I think I would be better off. So many thoughts come and go in my head at times, I can’t tell where they’re coming from. Is it the devil that’s talking to me? Is it God? I doubt God would want to be messing with me like this…but he did create me the way I am? So I’m not sure about any of that. When the voices tell me to do things? Things I don’t want to do? Yeah, that’s when they tend to come in fighting. I don’t have a way of making them stop. I don’t have a way of making them go away. Maybe I need more medication? I wish I had an answer to al...
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I Don't Understand Life

There’s so many things in this life that I don’t understand. There doesn’t appear to be a day that goes by where anything makes senese. I don’t even know what I’m saying half the time. It feels like a bunch of nonsense if you ask me. But what do I know? Nonsense it simply another word for chaos. That’s what this life is right now, chaos.

I wish there were a way to overcome all of these thoughts and feelings I am having. I’m not sure I know how to get over them though. The anxiety is too much for me to handle, not to mention the stress of it all. I feel betrayed by my own thoughts, feelings, and actions. I don’t know who I can trust anymore.

Everything must go out the window. If I am to survive, I must find a way to throw everything out the window and not worry about it. I don’t know how to do that though. There are too many variables at play here, and I don’t know how to go about doing any of it. I feel like breaking down and crying. That’s where I’m at right now. It’s not a good place to be. I know this, I realize this. But what am I supposed to do about any of it? Everything feels like it’s stacked against me. I don’t like it.

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