Tue Jan 7 20:06:13 MST 2020 There has got to be some reason for these thoughts. Whatever thoughts come into my mind, I mean they have to have a reason right? Worry, regret, things I can’t control. Everything else which simply can’t be understood or controlled…things like that. I don’t know what to do with these thoughts. People tell me to simply forget about them. Let them go. Who’s to know how that’s meant to work out. I don’t have a clue. I wish I did. That would be nice, but I don’t. I mean, if life is meant to be simple…a breeze, something we’re meant to accomplish well into our 90s etc, if we live that long. Then aren’t we suppose to be able to do something with it? Aren’t we meant to be able to accomplish something and just be there for each other? No matter what happens? Life comes and goes, it’s not meant to be out there out there, but here we are. We don’t know what happens all the time. We don’t know what goes on when we aren’t listening or aren’t watching. We simply don’t ...
Life is a simulation. We are living in a simulation. There is no escape from this reality of it all. Once we accept our fate and the fate of the world as it were, we can be free from the pitfalls that befall us. Such an interesting thought process now isn’t it. Yeah, that’s what I was thinking too.
If we can understand the truth behind this life, then we can begin to grasp everything that goes along with it. We don’t always get the luxury of getting the entire story when it comes to life.
Whatever happens in this life is due to some sick and twisted mind behind it all. We don’t have control over what happens to us in this life. It’s all been mapped out long before we ever came here. That’s what this life is about. We don’t get to make the decisions we think we’re making. No, those decisions are made long before we are born and those decisions come to us because we are programmed to think them. That’s all there is to it.
Kind of a let down isn’t it? Yeah, when I found out the truth I too thought it was a giant hole that had to be filled. I don’t know how to make any of that real again. Make the thoughts come and go as they please. Sometimes those thoughts don’t allow us to move forward and we are stuck in the moment we can’t get out of.
Sometimes wanting to know the truth about life can lead us down dangerous paths. We don’t always get the opportunity to ask the right questions, or even the questions that we want to ask. That’s what makes this life so unique. If we had control, we could ask those questions and make everything better for us. Somehow that doesn’t work out the way we planned it to. That’s just the evil of the beast that is this life.
I know what you’re thinking, you’re thinking I’m nuts. Insane even. Well I can’t tell you how to label me. Life isn’t something that we can experience by playing it safe. We have to explore whatever there is to explore and see everything that is out there. See, that’s what this life is about. Exploring whatever we can about it, see where our real roots live and go on from there.
Personally I can’t wait to wake up from this nightmare and see the truth that is out there about this life. If life is indeed a simulation, then I am dreaming aren’t I? I mean that has to be the reason behind it all? Maybe, maybe not. It’s just a thought I suppose. So many thoughts that come and go in this life and we don’t always have the answers to them.
Feels a little bit like bullshit if you ask me. If we’re just pawns in someone elses chess game? What the actual hell are we doing here? I’d like to think I have some unique control over my destiny. But I know that’s not the case. That can never be the case when this life is concerned. I mean, think about it. Why would we be in control over things in our lives when they are already determined a long time ago? Doesn’t make sense does it.
God knows what decisions we’ll make in this life. He’s all knowing. He knows what we’ll do in any given situation. What’s the point of it all? We don’t really have agency in this life or in the life to come. Either we play by the rules of the game or we don’t play at all. It’s that simple. Or is it? I have a feeling that nothing is as simple as we want it to be. Such a waste of energy trying to make sense of it all. That’s all I’m trying to say.
So what are we supposed to do with this knowledge? I don’t suppose one can simply go about life the way they always have without thinking about that which has come to light. It’s a complicated topic for sure. We each have to find out our role in this life. There is no other option than that. Either we comply with what has always been or we are destroyed for unbelief. I’m not sure I like that thought. But that’s how things are it would seem.
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