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This Life Feels Impossible

If life had a way to conquer our mind, what would that look like? I’m not sure I quite understand what’s going on with it all, just that we have to be able to figure out what it’s doing at any given moment. I wish I could understand and grasp what it’s doing to us, but if we can’t explain that…what are we even doing here? I simply do not know. I wish I had the ability to understand and grasp what this life has in store for me, but then again I don’t think I can do that. It’s life after all, I mean come on now. What more do you want from it? Exactly.
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Don't Leave My Soul In Hell

For thou wilt not leave my soul in hell; neither wilt thou suffer thine Holy One to see corruption. (Psalm 16:10 KJV)

Ah the man who wrote these magnificent lines. I often say to myself please don’t leave my soul in Hell. I feel I am a good decent human being. I have no right to be thrust down to Hell because of unbelief in something like religion. I do not know the best way to go about this life most of the time. That’s the truth. I hope God doesn’t leave me to rot and burn in a place called Hell. I’m not even sure if such a place exists!

I believe we are in Hell right now. This is Hell on Earth if you ask me. There is nothing more terrible than this wicked corrupt state in which we are forced to bear. I wish I could figure out exactly what this life is meant to be like or about, but I’m not sure I am able to do that. Not now at least.

Maybe someday in the far distant future I will be able to see that which I am meant to see. Something that will cause me to give pause and thought regarding my situation in this life. I’m just no so sure right now at this present moment in time is all. But the future is coming, and with that future there will be something to be told. A story perhaps? Maybe. Experiences? Of course.

Life is something difficult at best. We cannot foresee the future. But we can look upon the past with 20/20 vision most clearly. If we are able to move forward because of what is behind us, I think we will do alright.

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