What Is Life

Thu May 14 06:42:20 AM MDT 2026

Today Is A Mess

Let’s face it, today is a mess. I don’t feel like doing anything about it. There’s not much going on in this life if I’m to be honest with you. So many consequences out there and there’s nothing I can do about any of them. So, that’s just what this life is at times. I guess. I mean, what’s the point of it all? I don’t understand anything that happens in this life. It feels like evryone and everything is against me. Now if that’s not a kick in the butt, I don’t know what is.

I wish I had the ability to overcome these thoughts. Whatever they are, but I’m not sure I am able to do that. I mean, we’re here for a reason. There are so many reasons to understand yet I don’t know what to do with any of it.

I’ve made decisions in this life, financial decisions, and they weren’t the best. So there’s noting I can do about it all. Everything comes back to bite you in the ass.

If there was anything I can do about this life, I wish I could figure out what to do. It doesn’t take much to understand what is going on in life. People need to understand what is going on. But their ignornace will never allow that to happen. They will remain in the dark confused forever by whatever shiny object comes along next.

Why This Life Though?

There are so many things in this life that don’t make sense to me. I wish I could understand and grasp them all. I wish I could make things better. I don’t know how to do that though. Life comes at you quick and hard and there’s nothing you can do to stop it. I’ts a bummer really. I mean, what if there were a way to overcome all of this? Wouldn’t you want to be able to do that? I know I would.

But I don’t think there’s a simple way to get that under control. I mean if we had the ability to understand what was going on, wouldn’t we at least want to know? One would think so. Maybe that’s where the catch 22 comes in. We’re damned if we do and damned if we don’t. Life happens that way I guess. I’m not sure what to do about any of it though. I don’t have control over anything anymore.

That sucks. I want to have some sort of control over my life. There doesn’t seem to be a way to do that. If I had the ability, I would try and get past whatever these thought processes are and how they manage to engulf my life. But that’s a different story for a different time I think. Maybe this life could make me become a better person, I don’t know. That’s just what this life does for me. Everything has to come with a price. There’s nothing in this world that doesn’t come with a prcie attached to its head.

I need to chill the fuck out, that’s what I need to be able to do. There’s not enouch medicine inthe world that can help me with that. It’s an unfortunate trait in this life I’m afraid. Nothing to be grateful about, nothing to be honest about. It’s just life and we are here living in it.

Maybe Life Isn’t Real

There’s always the possibility that life isn’t real. We live in a simulation. Nothing is real anymore, not since World War 2 when everything was changed. We have Hitler to thank for that. He really fucked up royaly. I’m not sure he was even human. No human could stoop that low, yet he did. What a motherfucker.

But we got off on a tangent. We’re supposed to be talking about how this life is a simulation. None of it is real. That’s a fact. I don’t have proof of it of course, but who needs proof when everything is sitting out there in front of you? Exactly.

Nothing matters anymore, unfortunately. That’s just how this life is. We don’t get a second chance at life. There’s nothing keeping us here, we can leave anytime we want. But the damnation that comes upon us all because of it can never be forgotten. We are but pawns in a chess game when we thought we were playing checkers. It’s quite a different scenario to be certain. But what’s life without a little danger applied to it?

If it is all a simulation, we just have to wait to wake up. It feels so real though. Anytime I cut myself, I feel the pain and the blood trickling down. There doesn’t seem to be a way out of it. Everything is there for a purpose. I don’t know how else to explain it.

So the simple solution is to let it all go. There’s nothing keeping us here. Only our own thoughts and presentation of those thoughts. I wish I had the ability to understand and grasp what is going on in life most of the time. But I don’t, I can’t. There’s so many things in the way of this life that I am not allowed to understand what is going on most days.

That’s where I’m stuck in this life. Without the simulation, life would be quite different I suppose. It might even be bearble. I don’t know though. It would be nice to be able to see through all the sham and glitter. The magic of it all simply to see what is real and what is not. I don’t know how else to make things happen. This life is a mess for sure.

We’re Just Living In It

There’s nothing wrong with surviving in a most unfortunate environment. There’s nothing wrong with thinking that we can become something more than who we are. I don’t know how to deal with any of that. I wish I could snap my fingers together and make everything a better place. Unfortunately I cannot do that, no one can. Life is rather finite as far as mortality is concerned.

We go through three stages.

1. We’re born
2. We live
3. We die

That’s pretty much it if you ask me, or any other person on this world. There’s nothing after death. We simply go to sleep. Oh how I wish I would have known that earlier. It makes so much more sense now, and we are but toys being played with by some upset angry child who doesn’t know what they want.

So that’s life in a nutshell. I wish I had better answers, but I don’t. We have to find a way to wing it. I’m not sure how that’s possible. But we have to make it work out in one way or another. I wish I knew what this life had in store for me. Then maybe I could grab hold for dear life and hang on. Until then, I’m just doing my time. That’s all I can do. Isn’t it?

Life Isn’t Real

Let’s face it, life isn’t real. There’s nothing real about this life that makes us want to allow it to become something more than it is. I wish I had a way to make everyone understand my point of view. But I fear they would lock me up and throw away the key. I don’t want to be placed in some kind of funny farm. Or a psychiatric hospital. I’ve had my fair shre of those places. There’s nothing wrong with them, they’re just not for me. So that’s all there is to this life after all. We’re doomed to repeat the past and never conquer the future.

Everything will eventually come tumbling down. There’s no reason for it to become more popular than it is. Life has a way of making us suffer. We only suffer because we can. We can suffer because of these blasted mortal bodies that we have to force to endure. If we had something more resiliant, we might be able to get through whatever it is we wanted to accomplish. But that will never happen. Life will continue onward as it always has and we will be stuck in the corner waiting for something good to happen.

Well, newsflash, nothing good ever happens. We think something good will happen but we don’t have a clue really. If nothing good happens, then we’re stuck with whatever comes our way. Always dreaming and hoping for something better to come along when in reality it won’t. We’re stuck here.

I Wish I Didn’t Have These Fears

There are so many fears that run through my head and mind at times. I wish I never had any of them. But what can you do about it? I mean we’re here for a reason, there’s nothing that will ever make sense unless we really try hard enough to make it possible. I don’t think anyone has the brain power to do that. Life will continue on the way it’s always meant to continue on and we are but stuck in the moment where nothing good will come of it. That’s my take on life.

Fear is a crazy emotion. It takes a lot of courage to overcome ones fear. I don’t know how to do that most days. The more fear we have, the less we want to be able to overcome whatever it is that pinning us down. So we have a choice, leave it alone or wake the monster within. The choice is really up to you.

Life In General

Life sucks. Let’s face it. I wish I had the ability to understand why that’s the case, but there’s nothing keeping us from wanting more. We can always want more. It doesn’t mean we will have more to go off of and live off of, but we can wish we had more at some point in time. Nothing matters in this life. That’s the conclusion I’ve come up with. If nothing matters, then we are here spinning our wheels doing nothing. There’s nothing we can do in order to make things better. Life will do that to you if you’re not careful.

So let it happen. Let life kick us in the ass and see where we end up. Sometimes we need that wakeup call. That thing that gets us motivated and moving forward in order to understand everything that is going on. I wish I had a plan of how to better myself. There doesn’t seem to be a way to do that. So I will wait paitently for whatever is to come next. Whatever that is. It might take a while for everything to eventually unfold and become self sufficient, I can wait. I can be a patient man when I want to be.

This life needs to make more sense though. I wish I had the ability to fully understand where these thoughts are coming from. I doubt they’re coming from my own brain. I’ll type something out and not remember typing it out or recall where the thought process came from or where it’s going. Yet there it sits on the screen. So which is it? I don’t know.

Whatever, it’ll be whatever it wants to be. I can deal with that. Allow it to happen, whatever that is. Just allow it to peacefully take over your world and allow it to make decisions for you. There’s nothing wrong with that answer either.

Wishes

If I could have one wish, it would be that we would all understand each other regardless the circumstances in which we live. The world would be a better place because of it.

Life manifests itself in so many different ways and reasons. I’m not sure I understand it at times. That’s just how it is. I wonder what it would be like to go back in time and see everything as it once was. The 20s would be an interesitng time to visit. I don’t know that I would survive there, but I sure wouldn’t mind going there to see what it wsa all about. History books can only tell you so much about a time period before everything gets shot down.

Maybe wishing for something to happen is a waste of time. Is that possible? I do believe it is. There’s nothing wrong with wishing, but wishing for the wrong things can cause dangerous consequences. I don’t want to be a dangerous consequence or have that on my conscience at all times. So maybe wishing is out of the question.

Life Needs To Make Sense

My brain wants life to make some kind of sense. I don’t know what that sense is, there has to be something in this life that will make everything perfect in some way or another.

Huh, perfection. Talk about a word that carries little meaning for me. I am, to a degree, a perfectionist, I have to have things work out they have to be perfect. If they aren’t, it causes a little bit of a panic inside my soul. I wish I could find a way to overcome all of that and get through it.

If life made sense though, I doubt I would be sitting here complaining about how it deosn’t make any sense. I would be out doing whatever it is I want to be doing because life would have the ability to have some kind of decent knowledge about it. There’s nothing wrong with that. Life just needs to be a bit broader in its strokes. That’s all.

I Don’t Get It

Life needs to find a way for everything to become better. I need something to ground me. I don’t know what that is at the current moment in time. I want some kind of relief. Is there relief to be found out there? I don’t know. If life doesn’t get better, where does that leave me? Am I lost and left behind someplace? I don’t know. Life feels so difficult right now.

That’s all there is to it. Put in a short sentence. Life feels difficult right now. I don’t understand why that is. I just know that’s how this life feels, and I am not a fan of how it feels to me.

Life feels like a complete mess right now. I wish I could find a way to figure things out. I’m sure this life won’t ever make complete sense. I wish it would, but there should be a reason for any of it to make some kind of sense, that would be right now. Then I can get past whatever it is I have to get past. This life needs to be able to understand it all better.

Today Got Better

I can’t explain how it got better, it just managed to get better. I can deal with that. I like that thought. Things getting better, simply because they can. That’s how this life is meant to be lived. Life gets better and everything becomes better because of it. I can accept that. Good things come to those who wait, whoever said that was a genius!