So, I have seven new shiny notebooks, with pens, to write in! SEVEN OF THEM! Yes I get excited by notebooks in general. I enjoy writing, it’s what I do best…most of the time. There isn’t always a way to tell if I’m doing good at it though. But I have notebooks to write in, so that excites me beyond any reason of the imagination at all. If I can write in something physical, and not have to be on my computer? I’d rather be writing that way. It’s just how life feels at times. I like it. But if I have to write using my computer, then that’s okay too. Eventually whatever I end up writing will end up in my computer at some point in space or another. It’s just a given fact. AND, the notebooks are different colors! So if I wanted to, I could color coordinate them by series I’m working on or whatever. They’re good colors too. Yellow Orange Purple Green Blue Okay so that’s not seven different colors. But hey it works! I’m happy with it! (and I deserve to be happy)
Fri May 8 07:54:07 PM MDT 2026
Life Comes At Us Fast
Let’s face it, life comes at us fast. Sometimes it’s too fast for us to grasp. I mean how do you keep up with whatever is going on when you least expect anything in this world or life to make sense? I don’t know.
I feel drained today. I don’t know how else to explain it. It’s not a good feeling at all. I wish I had the ability not to feel this way. But it comes with the territory I guess.
I often wonder “what’s wrong with me,” I rarely ever get an answer. I wonder why that is. There doesn’t seem to be a rhyme or a reason for why I feel this way at times. I guess if I had all the answers, I’d be able to understand what goes on in my life huh? Yeah, something like that. But I don’t. So I keep thinking to myself whatever will happen will happen.
If life had an understandable purpose, I think I would be able to make it worth while. But it feels so down at times that I am unable to actually get where I want to be in life. Does that make sense?
Perhaps Motivation Is Needed
Is that what I need in life? A little motivation? I don’t know. Makes me want to kill myself at times. So there’s that. If I had a dollar for everytime I thought about suicide, I think I’d be rich. But let’s not dwell on that word tonight okay? That tends to get lonesome and terrible all at once.
Simply trying to hold onto something, I don’t knokw the right term for it. But I’m trying to hold onto it, whatever it is. Maybe it’s life I’m trying to keep track of? I don’t know.
Make it all come to an end. I don’t know if I can be more plan than that in a thought process. Just make it come to an end and everything will be good. Or will it? See, I don’t know. No one knows the outcome of whatever will happen in this life. It’s all up in the air meant for interpretation. Whose interpretation is it left to? Ours of course.
They say in everything there is a seaon under heaven. Or something like that. I think that comes from the Holy Bible. There’s a time for everything. Yeah, it’s something like that. Well, if that’s the case then we all have a future to look forward to.
Maybe that’s what this life is all about, looking forward to a future. We aren’t meant to not have goals in mind. There are certain things to look forward to, and we have to be up to the challenge in order to do that.
Make Life What You Will Of It
There are times in this life that we have to make it work for us. There isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t wonder how I can make this life better for me and those around me. There has to be a way to make it better. I just wish I knew how to make that dream a reality.
Today is never certain, tomorrow is a mystery. Yesterday is the past, a thing we know about. But the future, the future will always be there waiting for us. That’s a promise about the future. It’s always there. We might not know what will happen but it will always be there incase something wants or needs to happen.
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