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This Life Feels Impossible

If life had a way to conquer our mind, what would that look like? I’m not sure I quite understand what’s going on with it all, just that we have to be able to figure out what it’s doing at any given moment. I wish I could understand and grasp what it’s doing to us, but if we can’t explain that…what are we even doing here? I simply do not know. I wish I had the ability to understand and grasp what this life has in store for me, but then again I don’t think I can do that. It’s life after all, I mean come on now. What more do you want from it? Exactly.
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Blast From The Past: May 27, 2018

Sun May 27 11:09:41 DST 2018

Shall we talk about this life? Perhaps a moment more. There are things in life that make sense and other things in life which do not make sense at all. That’s okay. Personally there are so many things in this life which don’t make sense, I wish I didn’t have any kind of thoughts about it. But, that’s too late. There are thoughts to be had. Too many thoughts which don’t make any kind of sense.

For example, this entire thought process in this document isn’t making sense. Why should it? I feel alone. So alone and so dreadful. Sad? Maybe. Anxious? Most definite. What is to be said regarding any of this? I don’t have a clue, I’m not sure. Whatever happens in this life, we are here. There is nothing to be understood beyond that is there? I’m not sure. Being unsure about so many things is just … it’s a waste of time.

So, why do people worry about things that are not under their control? It doesn’t make sense. It would be better for something to make sense, but that’s not how this life works. We live. We’re here. What more do you want from this life? It would be amazing to be able to simply get away from everything.

But, how does a person get away from everything that is bothering them in life? I don’t know how any of that works. There doesn’t seem to be a way to get over everything that happens in this life. Well maybe not over is the correct term, but through it? Through it seems more appropriate.

Whatever happens in this life, we are here. There’s nothing more to be said about it now is there. Unless you have the ability to grasp what’s going on in your life, there just doesn’t seem to be much of anything which can be done. It’s life. You have to accept whatever happens and comes along your way. Dealing with such things? I wish it could make sense, but in reality it doesn’t.

So. We. Live.

Living isn’t an easy thing though. It comes and goes. People go through this life, some understand what’s happening. Others do not. There are always two sides to every coin right? Yes, it happens. It’s an annoying thought process right there. So the mind continues to play, the anxiety builds up, and we are left wondering what’s the point of any of it.

Sun May 27 11:56:49 DST 2018

To say we have a full understanding of everything in this life would be absurd. There’s not something a person has a full complete knowledge of. Why would they? I believe there are some mysteries in the universe that wish to remain to be hidden. There’s not an answer for every question a person has. No matter what they think they are entitled to.

Also, everyone has a breaking point in life. There’s no way a person doesn’t have a breaking point. Who doesn’t have a breaking point these days? Exactly. So we have breaking points in life. What’s that supposed to mean exactly?

So here we are again. I say again like it’s constantly happening or occuring. Yes well, that’s exactly what is going on. This life just keeps on taking from you. It doesn’t give much as people tend to have problems. Some more than othes. Whatever the case, this life will continue to move forward. Why should it be any les[s]?

I suppose to some, that might be an easy task? If you keep on going forward moving towards that which is unkown you will eventually run into it. The unknown isn’t a real thing to some. There are always answers. Well, those answers do not always come out as truth or beyond that moment of light. Who’s to say what is truth and what is real when it comes to this life? I cannot say for certain.

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