Oh Life, What Have You Done?

Tue May 19 07:51:38 AM MDT 2026

Life’s Purpose

Today is another day on this … rock called Earth. I’m not sure what to think about it. If life has a purpose for us all, then I’m sure we would have nothing to worry about. But here’s the catch, life doesn’t have a purpose. Once we figure that small part out? We’re golden. But it’s figuring out that small part that we don’t always have the answers to.

So that’s where we sit with life at the moment. Waiting for something better to come along and allowing that to help us move forward I suppose. I mean I don’t have a clue if that’s the case of it all, or if that’s how we’re supposed to go about it. Life will be whatever it wants to be and we will forever be in its debt.

We are forever in someone’s debt. No matter how that comes about. If we are lucky, we might be able to get though this life unscathed. If we aren’t? Then there are problems in this life that we cannot overcome. Again it comes back to what is the purpose of it all? If we don’t know what that is? We are lost without a clue of how to get anywhere in this life, and that is a shame.

Life will always be there. If we pass on, it will continue on without us. There’s nothing wrong with that thought, I guess. But it would be nice to be able to understand and grasp that which we cannot do at the moment. Maybe we’re not meant to understand Life’s Purpose for us. We might be stuck in a moment that we can’t be able to move from. It’s not simple to just get through this life, there has got to be a reason for it. Something that will make us want to get up in the morning and go forward. Without that, I’m afraid life will never be easy and we will forever be stuck in a place where nothing will be good for us again.

Constantly On The Move

Life has us constantly moving from place to place. Location to location. There isn’t a place we can be without life wanting us to get up and move someplace else. That’s the purpsoe of it all. Keep moving, don’t look back. Always keep moving forward. See everything that is out there all at once and whatever you do, don’t stop! That’s the key of life, keep moving.

If we’re becoming nomadic? So be it. It will be the best versions of ourselves that we can possibly become. If we are to become better than we currently are, we have to be constantly changing. We can’t be seditary in our lives. We have to move about and do things. That’s the truth of the matter.

We have to try. I think that’s the hardest part about it. Try and don’t gain apathy from whatever crosses your path. It’s easy to simply not care, to not worry about whatever there is to worry about. But we can’t be like that. Life has its purpose and we have to follow that purpose until the end. The end will be an interesting part of life, we don’t know how that will be but it will be interesting. I have faith in that.

Humanity Must Change

If we are to embrace a new adventure in life, we must be willing to change. There cannot be a second hesitation on that. We have to be able to make life better than it currently is, if change is how we do that? Then that is what we must do and become. Life won’t change for us. Sure it might nudge us and push us in some direction or another, but it will not change for us. We have to be the one to change, we have to be shapeless and moveable. Bruce Lee compared us to water. He said to be like water, change to fit your needs. Very wise sage words from a master.

Change must come from within. The outside world cannot change us. Well I suppose it can change us, but it shouldn’t. We must decide to make the change for the better. There cannot be change without us wanting it. Life will not bend or shape itself to make the change that is needed within us. That’s just not possible.

If we are to go to the stars, we must put bigotry behind us. If there are aliens out there, we want to put our best foot forward. We cannot allow petty differences to get in the way of progress. I believe that is what we’re meant as a human race. To become better than we currently are. To put aside differences and embrace one another. That is our greatest goal and possible achievement in this life. We must strive for that and become that. There is no other way. If we can come together as a huma race, then I believe we will be better off in the long run. There can be no alternative to that.

Making an effort is the place to start, a place to begin to relinquish the hold we have on hatred and biotry. In order to change, these things must be put in the past. Racism is another thing that needs to end. Now. There can be no hate in this brave, bold new future we are to create.

If Only It Were That Simple

I know what you’re thinking. If only it were that simple. I get it. I really do. Life isn’t a simple thing to understand or grasp. We cannot easily be swayed by emotions to allow us to make the change that is needed. Maybe we can’t do it all in one night, or one decade. Hell it might take hundreds of years to perfect this thought process. Decades of hatred, violence, and racism don’t just vanish overnight.

Not everything in life is made to be perfect. I understand that. It’s the progression towards perfection that I am concerned about. Making strides to become that perfect race, those perfect beings that God so wants us to become eventually. That is the key goal here. There is no other way to make it happen.

Whatever happens in this life, we cannot overcome it in one night. It will take time. Fortunately we have all the time in the world. When one generation passes another one steps up to take its place and hopefully become better than the generation before them.

Who knows how long it will take before these things get cleared up. I for one do not know. I doubt anyone knows or has an idea of how long it will take. But it will eventually happen, and when that time comes? We’ll be able to see clearly through our eyes and make it all possible again.

If We Knew The Truth

I think if everyone knew the truth of what hatred does to a person or group of people, things might be different. But people turn a lazy blind eye to the truth and they don’t allow it to become reality. There has to be a way to overcome this hatred that is deeply rooted within our breast as a nation, as a people. People have to stop killing other people in the name of God and religion. I think I hate that the most.

Everything has an answer to it all. There has to be some kind of answer to something out there, to everything out there. I don’t know what that answer is. We can quote people all day of what they think the answer is, but in the end those quotes are just words spoken by dead people who no longer are alive. They’ve done their bid for king and country. Allow them to rest.

If we cannot take one step forward without taking two steps back, we are simply doomed to repeat history. They say those who fail to learn from history repeat it. I fear that’s what we’ve been doing all along. Repeating history. It goes back to biblical times.

God sent his prophets out to warn people to repent and come unto Him. They did not and were destroyed. So he sent more prophets out to warn another generation of people, they too were destroyed. Remember Noah and the great flood? Who knows how many people were destroyed in that because of their wickedness.

Life Must Improve

Life must get better not worse for us to survive it. I don’t know how that will happen or how that will take place. But it must be possible in order for us to beocme better than we currently are. If we are to become a propserous people, then we must understand things that are not so easy to understand. We must embrace truth and change. We have to go beyond that which we cannot bear and become better than we currently are. That, I believe, is the great secret to life. We cannot hold onto these false realities any longer. Shattered dreams must be stepped over and looked past. We have to be better as a people!

Change never comes easy though. I’ve learned that the hard way. Sometimes certain … “truths” … have to be abandoned in order for us to become something that we weren’t before. In order to improve ourselves, we have to be willing to make certain changes in our lives. Those changes can be many things. I do not know for sure what they are but they can be things that we don’t see right now and might not see for a while down the road. That’s how this life tends to build upon itself. We must be willing to change in order for this life to improve.

Life Will Not Change For You

Here’s the thing, this life? It won’t make the necessary changes for you. You have to make those changes and decide that you want to become a better person. That’s how it all works I’m afraid. There isn’t any other way that it can work. That’s not in the program. It’s meant to be difficult, it’s never an easy job to change. But it is possible. So allow change when you need it to take place. Don’t fight it. Simply allow it to happen. Make an effort though. Because without an effort on your part? Change will not happen.

If we can accept change in our own lives, I do believe we will be better off in the long run. We will be able to make things better in our lives and allow us to comprehend the future that will come about because of it.

The Future

The future is an interesting thing to think about. It’s not set in stone, hell it’s not even known yet until we actually get there. The past feels a bit easier to understand at times. But the future, it will always be a mystery. So many things can happen.

Whatever will happen in the future is meant to happen. We can determine some things in the future based on our current actions that the future might be affected by. But it’s rather limited when it comes down to it. Sure, the future itself isn’t limtied. The future is awesome and can be anything it wants to be! That’s the beauty of it. But our knowledge of the future is quite limited. There’s nothing we can do about that, unfortunately. It’s a mess to be honest.

So let it be what it will be. There’s no point in trying to change something you haven’t even seen yet. Then again, we can’t change the past either. So either way we’re pretty screwed over. That’s all there is to it.

Simply put, we can’t be all “Sad Panda” about it. We have to accept what is and what isn’t and move on. There’s no point in loitering about waiting for something to change. It will never change. We don’t have the ability to see that kind of change in our lives. Only if we are able to understand it, then we might be able to grasp what is wrong with life. But for now, we can’t do that. We are in a stuck situation, only to see what the end result is eventually if we live long enough.

Whatever Happens, Take It With Grace

There will be things that happen in this life that we don’t want to take place. I get that. There are so many things in this life that we don’t want to happen. We can prevent some of them, but if we fail we must fail with grace. There is no other option. We have to understand that. There won’t ever be something we can do without acknowleding the fact that we might fail in the process. That’s okay to fail. To fail is a learning experience. We can do everything right and still fail. That isn’t failure, that’s just something we call life.

If we are able to take life at face value instead of trying to find a deeper meaning to it all, I think that might actually benefit us from time to time. Sure there are reasons to think deeper into things. But if we can’t? Why bother. It’s of no use to us.

Don’t allow the past to swallow you up in self doubt. It can be a cancer to your thought process. A dangerous kind of cancer that will wreck you into oblivion and you won’t know what to do about it.

Yes Pluto IS A Planet

While we’re on the topic of things. Let’s talk about Pluto. It’s a planet okay? I know this has nothing to do with anything, but seriously. It was once a planet and it will always be a planet in my mind. Poor Pluto thinking it lost its place in the universe.

This might be an aside for sure. But it’s an important ont for me. Without Pluto there wouldn’t be the same number of planets in our solar system. Where would we be without Pluto? Sure it’s like frozen or something, probably ice since it’s so far out there away from the Sun. But we all can’t be like Mercury or Venus, gosh.

Okay, enough of that side rant and or tangent.

Life Will Get Easier

So, this life, let’s talk for a moment. Life has the ability to be difficult at times. There isn’t a reason for it not to be. Life can be a downright bitch at times. I don’t know how else to put it. I mean come on now, how else are we meant to measure how this life can fuck us over in the blink of an eye? Exactly.

The important thing to remember is this: Life will get easier, I know it sounds like a bunch of bull at the moment. But if we keep at it, life will become something we are able to deal with on a day-to-day basis. There won’t be any problems that we can’t manage. Sure we will still have difficulties and whatnot, but we will be able to get through them one way or another.

Just hang in there, you won’t know what’ll happen until you try and see for yourself. This life will make sense someday. I don’t know when that day will be, but it will eventually make some kind of sense. There’s nothing to be ashamed of thinking life is hard. Because it is.

We Chose To Be Here

One thing to remember is we chose to come to Earth to be tested, tried, or whatever wording it is you want to use. We’re meant to prove ourselves to God to see if we’ll follow his commands. Follow Him and His ways. It’s not always an easy thought process to be sure. But it does come with a price. We have agency, but if we don’t follow God’s will? Then that agency is useless. Kinda a double whammy if you ask me. But I didn’t make the rules. God did.

Something out there, a greater power than us all, believes in us. Believes that we will do the right necessary things in life in order to get back to where we belong. There doesn’t always seem to be an easy way to make things happen. Life will happen the way it’s meant to happen. It won’t ever be an easy thought process, but it will be possible. Everything will be possible. We have to keep that in mind.

Mental Health Is A Thing

Years ago, mental health wasn’t looked upon as being a serious condition. It has since grown into more people understanding it and grasping what it really is. I’m glad for the change, but for years it was ignored and that’s a shame. To believe in a thing we must understand it. Mental Health is no different. In order to believe in it we have to understand all of the complicated things about it. It’s a health issue after all.

Living with Mental Health issues myself, I can appreciate the fact that people are taking it seriously now. Insurance is starting to come around, not all the way of course but they are starting to make the move towards taking it seriously.

Whatever happens in this life, we need to take calls for help seriously. People don’t always seek attention by saying they want to die. There are times when they really have that desire to kill themselves. I don’t know how else to put it but bluntly. Suicide isn’t a joke. Nor is it a laughing matter.

There’s not much we can do for ourselves in such a dark place. That’s when we need outside intervention. Someone needs to be able to see that something is off and help us get through whatever it is we’re facing.

Hearing voices, among other things, can be quite disturbing at times. I don’t have another way of saying it. It’s downright disturbing. I hate it. They come whenever they want, they demand whatever they want, and don’t stop until they get it. I wish I could make them go away at times. But I don’t know how to do that.

They’re also very annoying to me. I wish I could find a way to make them stop. But they keep coming. There doesn’t seem to be a way to make them stop. I’ve tried talking back at them, yelling at them, screaming at them inside my head and they still manage to come and tell me the things I don’t want to hear. It’s a terrible way to live. I don’t seem to have control over any of it. Wish I did.

Life can be terrible at times with psychosis. The hallucinatoins, the voices, the seeing things. It’s all a miserable sight to behold. Yet I face it and I have to deal with it. Whatever comes my way I have to deal with it. Maybe that’s one thing that was decided upon before I even came here. Who knows though. It could just be a thing, and I have to deal with it.

I have to remember to breathe. There is no other option for me than to breathe my way through all of this. I’m sure there are other exercises I can do, meditation perhaps? I’ve tried that before and it seems to have worked but I’m not so sure anymore. It’s been so long and the therapist I was seeing isn’t my therapist anymore. So there’s that.

Speaking of therapy, I’ve been to a number of therapists. Some I’ve liekd others I haven’t really jived with. But the ones I’ve liked? Oh I really got something from them. It’s always been a good experience. But then insurance comes into play and I don’t have the ability to see them anymore because my insurance doesn’t cover them. Or they don’t cover my insurance. One or the other. It’s a bit annoying to be honest.

Just make it all come to an end. Is that too much to ask? I don’t think it is. I think it’s something that comes once in a blue moon and I have to keep chasing it, whatever that is. Chasing a dream is possible, it’s always possible to do that. I’m not sure what any of that means though? I mean if I did, then I could figure out whatever it is I’m meant to figure out with this life. But I can’t so I don’t.

Maybe It’s A Dream

Ah the dream thought. Life is a dream. That’s all it is. We’re asleep in some sleep study lab experiencing this life in a dream state. It would be nice to be able to not be stuck in this dream state though. I want to be so much more than I currently am. I want to live, to actually live and see everything that’s out there to be seen.

Is that too much to ask for? I highly doubt it is. I think life is meant to be explored to some degree. But if I am asleep for it all, how am I meant to explore any of it? I do not know.

Other thoughts I’ve had is life is a simulation. We are all a sort of lab experiment in someone’s mind. We don’t actually exist. We aren’t here. We aren’t there either. We aren’t anywhere. If that doesn’t make you wonder about life, then I don’t know what will.

So many things would be nice if I could figure out the exact moment this life became a simulation. Was it always like this? Was there a point where we de-evolved into a dream state in someone’s subconscious and we’re there waiting to be freed from it all? How do you account for the pain we feel? That part I’m still trying to make sense of.

Maybe this life isn’t meant to be figured out. What if we’re meant to be dormant during all of this and we don’t have a waking moment in us? Now that’s a scary thought process, don’t you think? Yeah that’s what I was thinking. It would be nice to be able to understand what is going on, but if we can’t. What’s the point? What’s the use of it all? I don’t know.