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Anxious Today, WTF?

I am rather anxious today. I think it has to do with the medication(s) I am on at the moment. Doctor changed some medications, added some, did some other things put me back on medications I haven’t been on in a while…the same ol’ same ol’. Anti-Psychotic meds work wonders when they work, they’re amazing. When your mind doesn’t want them to work? Well, that’s when things become quite a problem. I hate to admit it, but life doesn’t always work the way we want it to work. What can I say? It’s a mess at times. There’s nothing wrong with that, but to say it’s not complex is a complete overhaul of whatever there is. Talk about a mixed bag of nuts. Someone doesn’t understand everything there is to understand about it all. If I wasn’t anxious, today would be a better day than it is. But, well I am so there’s nothing I can do about it. I wish there was…but there isn’t so I’ll just have to deal with whatever comes my way. Such a bummer if you think about it all. Nothing is ever cureable. Every...

Frustration

 Ever been frustrated? The answer is probably yes. A lot of people have been that way, have felt that way from time to time. I am no different. I am frustrated now actually. I don't know what to do about it all. It's just something that will have to take its course and I will find myself less frustrated later on, I hope. There doesn't seem to be much I can do about it. Medication and prayer might help. I'm not sure. I'll try anything to make it go away. There's no point in not trying. So, I will try.

Life has its challenges that we must overcome from time to time. Well, this is one of them. There doesn't seem to be a way out of it. I don't think there is at least. I have to go through hell in order to experience joy again. If that's all there is to it, I think I would hopefully understand it all more clearly. I'm not sure I fully understand it myself to be honest. Time will tell of course; it always tells what's going on eventually.

There's just no way around it. That's life for you. Interesting how life can be so annoying at times. I'm not sure what to do about the annoying part of it all. There has to be something I can do to make things better. Make them right with me. I'm not sure what there is I can do about it though. Hang on for the ride that is about to start maybe. If that's the case, then I best hold on tight. Hopefully there will be an answer out there for me.

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