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Life Has A Way

Life always has a way of doing whatever it needs to do. There’s nothing wrong with that thought process. It comes and goes without a second thought. We can’t easily figure out why life does this to us, we have to understand something at some point, but if we don’t? Well, no harm no foul. It’s life and we have to continue going forward to see everything that is out there. There’s nothing we can do about it. Life will move foreward without the ability for us to do anything but wonder what this life will eventually be like in the far distant future. Oh what a joy that could bring about. If life has a way, we will be able to get from point a to point b in no time at all. It feels like a circle at times. A = B = C, isn’t that what the crazy future guy in Star Trek: Voyager tried to explain? Yeah, something like that. It’s quite an interesting thought process to be sure. It’s life though, nothing can be done about it. So let life be what it wants to be, there’s nothing wrong with that tho...
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I Don't Belong

 I don't belong here. There are many other places I would rather be. I don't know how to deal with this load that's pressing down upon me at this time. There has to be a way to overcome it all. I wish I could just figure out what's going on.

So many things are up in the air at the moment. I don't know how to juggle all of them at once. There must be a way to do that. Anything will do. I have to figure out a way to juggle life with everything else that is going on.

Life isn't easy. It's not easy for anyone to live in this day and age. I'm sure the other years were pretty terrible too. There wasn't anything anyone could do about it. I don't know how to say it properly. But it's the truth.

Sometimes life feels like a big joke. There's nothing I am able to do to get away from it. But I keep trying to just slip out while it's not looking behind me. It's not an easy task. But I manage. What else can you do when there's a problem like that? Not much I'm afraid. Not much at all.

The reason I don't belong here is because I have no family here. I haven't talked with my family in a while. So, there's nothing I am able to do about any of it. I just survive and try to live the best I am able to live. That is all.

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