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I Don't Belong

 I don't belong here. There are many other places I would rather be. I don't know how to deal with this load that's pressing down upon me at this time. There has to be a way to overcome it all. I wish I could just figure out what's going on.

So many things are up in the air at the moment. I don't know how to juggle all of them at once. There must be a way to do that. Anything will do. I have to figure out a way to juggle life with everything else that is going on.

Life isn't easy. It's not easy for anyone to live in this day and age. I'm sure the other years were pretty terrible too. There wasn't anything anyone could do about it. I don't know how to say it properly. But it's the truth.

Sometimes life feels like a big joke. There's nothing I am able to do to get away from it. But I keep trying to just slip out while it's not looking behind me. It's not an easy task. But I manage. What else can you do when there's a problem like that? Not much I'm afraid. Not much at all.

The reason I don't belong here is because I have no family here. I haven't talked with my family in a while. So, there's nothing I am able to do about any of it. I just survive and try to live the best I am able to live. That is all.

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