Intrusive Thoughts

 Intrusive Thoughts have a tendency to come around when you least expect them to. They don't care about you or your life, what struggles you're going through. They just appear at random it seems. Sometimes during high points of stress in your life they come around more causing you must grief and pain. Anguish as it were. Let's get a definition from which we can base it all:

Intrusive thoughts are unwanted thoughts, images, or urges that can suddenly pop into your mind, often causing anxiety or distress. They are typically violent, disturbing, or socially inappropriate in nature and can affect anyone, not just those with obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD). These thoughts can be quite common, with studies indicating that a significant portion of the population experiences them.

So, there's the definition that I found while using Bing. They aren't just there for a specific group of people; they can be around for anyone really. Well, that's comforting in a way. Socially inappropriate in nature, now that sentence rather gets my attention. I experience a lot of that when I have intrusive thoughts. They become annoying at times; I don't know how best to describe it. Sometimes they are just downright horrible in nature. I can't even begin to tell you how horrible they are. But they are there and I have to deal with them.

If there was a way I could combat these thoughts, I would. I'm sure some therapist out there knows how best to combat them. How to deal with the lies they can come up with. If only to give me a moment of breath so I can continue down the path I am meant to go down. So many things to wish for and not having the ability to have that wish granted is frustrating at times. I wish I could get over it all. But I can't. Not now. Maybe someday I will have that power, but now it seems to be unfortunate.

What can I do about it all though? That's what I want to know. There has to be something I can do to get rid of the intrusive thoughts from interfering with my life. Those and the false beliefs that come into my life tend to be a great deal of anxiety for me. I do not know what to do about any of them. The anxiety from it all feels like it's too much to handle at times. Yet I must carry on trying my best to just get through the day. I don't know how else to do this. There has to be a way to get through it all. Maybe someday I will find out how to do that exactly. Right now, it feels impossible.

If only I could figure out a way to get through all of this. There needs to be something I am able to do. The thoughts won't go away by themselves. They come unannounced, uninvited, and they don't feel like leaving anytime soon. What are you supposed to do with a monster that doesn't want to go away? There doesn't seem like a possibility for anything to get done. If I am unable to do anything about it, it will continue to consume me until the day I die.

I just do not know.