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Is It Worth It

 I have to stop myself from time to time and wonder if it's worth it. Well, I have to define what it is to begin with don't I. Life. Is life worth it. That is the question I wish to answer. I don't know if I have all of the answers right now, but it's a good question to have on my mind. If life isn't worth it, what exactly are we doing here? It doesn't make sense to me. That's too easy of a phrase to utter. Things just don't make sense to a degree. They eventually will make sense to me, just not at this time. I'm always saying things don't make sense and that feels wrong somehow. I should stop saying things don't make sense and leave it at that.

To wonder if life is worth it can be overwhelming at times. I'm uncertain about my future. I don't know how it will all go down, or how my future will unfold. There's no way of telling right now. It's rather an odd state to be in. I wish I could efficiently say what it is I am thinking, but I don't know how to do so. Life is a complex machine or monster that no one can fully control. Life isn't meant to be controlled. That's just the way of things. You have to take the good with the bad that comes along your way and see everything to the end. It will eventually make sense in the long run, but you have to get there first.

Not every story you come across will have a point. Not every dream you have will be crystal clear, and not every experience you encounter will have the answers you want. But these things will have the opportunities you need to grow as a person. Isn't that what it's all about? Growth as a human being? I think it is. Nothing else really matters beyond that point in life. It's just made up and the points don't matter.

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