Feelings

 Ever have a specific feeling about something and you wished it wasn't real? Kind of like an intuition of some sort. You never know what will happen exactly, but you do know that something must happen. All because your gut tells you so. Gut feelings are something unique aren't they. These feelings have a way of making you feel ill, even sick to your stomach for a time. There doesn't seem to be any other way about it. I don't know how else to explain it. I wish I had a way of discerning these feelings from other things in my life. But I don't think I am able to at this present moment in time. So many things would be nice if I could figure them out. But I can't.

There are so many thoughts processes a person can go through before they are able to land on the right one. It doesn't quite make sense to me most of the time though. I wish it did. I wish something made sense to me, but I am unable to actually figure anything out at the moment. Is it just plain nonsense to me? Do I not understand all that is coming about? There are so many things wrong with this life, if feelings are part of it all then I am lost just like the rest of humanity. I don't think anyone is able to completely understand everything that goes on in this life. That would be too much to ask for. But what can you do about it. Not much I'm afraid. Not much at all.

If everyone knew how to react to the feelings they feel, I think this world would be a lot different. Half the time people don't understand or know how to react to what they feel. It's like it's impossible to make a distinction between reality and something fake. Those feelings, those emotions carry a ton of weight. It can't be expected for people to fully grasp or understand how to process them all at once. There are simply too many of them.

So many things are nice to haves in this life. If we go chasing after all of the nice to haves, I don't think anything would get accomplished. You have to go after the necessary parts of life first, then maybe go after the nice to haves. It doesn't mean you have to go after dessert before the main dish. There are so many impossible odds stacked against you. None of it makes sense to me. Go after that which is important first, then tackle the less important things in life.