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Life Why Are You So Fucked Up?

Ever wonder why this life is so messed up? I sure as hell do! I don’t get it. I mean we’re here for a reason…maybe. I don’t understand anything about it though. I wish I did, it would be nice to be able to grasp something about this life and not simply expect it to be here whenever we need it to be. Yet that’s exactly what we do! We expect life to be here for us and we don’t want to give anything back, talk about an annoying thought process. But what are we going to do about it all? I don’t know. I wish I did, but there are so many things in this life that don’t quite make sense at times, and we are here trying to make sense of them all. It sucks, it really does. But what else are you supposed to do about it? I don’t know.

All Of This Has Happened Before

 There's a famous line from Battlestar Galactica (BSG).

All of this has happened before, and all of this will happen again.

Makes you wonder if the human race has been through all of this before. If we are but copies of another set of humans that once lived on an Earth like our own. But in some misfortune failed to execute their role as what they should be. Something like that. Wouldn't that be interesting if we were all just test subjects, Guinea pigs to see how we react to certain obstacles. I can see that happening. Just toys for someone to play with.

When they get tired of their creation, they reset everything and we all go through it over again.

There, of course, isn't any concrete proof that this is the case. But it is an interesting thought exercise. Kinda rules out reincarnation as we are just ourselves again. Makes you wonder how everything will go down eventually. How will death be perceived. Will it be just a slight resting point before being thrown back into the arena as it were.

If that's all this life is, I want no part of it. When it comes time for my final resting point, I want to be able to rest. I don't want to be thrown back into the arena to be tried and tested again. Who knows how many times I could have had this thought. A hundred? A thousand? If I am the same person throughout all of these incarnations, wouldn't I come to the same conclusion? Now there's an interesting question.

So many thoughts can come from this one point. How else could God get all of his children back home? There's another thought. He keeps putting us in the same situations in hopes that we will eventually make the right choices and be able to be with Him. How would that be?

If we are going through the same processes over and over again, that would be kind of mean for a creator to do to his children. I think at least. Just something to consider.

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