Life Has A Purpose

They say life has a purpose. It would be nice to be able to know what that purpose is. I mean there's the obvious answers. Believe in Christ, follow God, serve your fellow men. All of those things are good things I suppose but isn't there more to this life than what is given? I would like to be able to figure out this life. All of it at some point during my time here. Something just doesn't fit right with me, I don't know what it is but it's there and I feel uncomfortable. Everything has a purpose in my mind. If you are unable to figure out that purpose, then what is the point of living.

I've often wondered why I am here on this Earth at this time. What's my purpose for being here. It doesn't make sense some days. It would be nice to be able to know the truth behind it all. Any truth would be good to have. I cannot for the life of me attempt to even figure out what that truth is. Currently it feels like I am drowning and there is nothing I can do about it. It would be nice to know is all. There doesn't have to be any strings attached to any of it. I just want to know once and for all what is my purpose.

Right now, it feels like my only purpose is to suffer mental illness. I don't have any other way of getting around that. This life makes it impossible to figure out what is wrong with me. I ask questions and am given the run around. No one has full on answers for me. My doctors, my therapists, no one can tell me what it is I am feeling or experiencing. So why should I trust them at all? It makes no sense. Why should it make sense when there are so many other things that could go right with me that just aren't. I'm growing tired of it, and fast.

So many things are out there, and they do not seem to matter. I wish I knew how to make sense of it all. Something has got to turn around eventually. I just don't see how that can be possible when this life doesn't feel or seem fair for anyone. What is the purpose of this life? I ask sincerely to know the answer that I seek after. I know the answers I was given growing up, but I do not believe those answers anymore. To base eternity on a 20-minute trip to mortality doesn't seem or feel fair. I don't know how any of that works out as it is.

To simply exist is not enough. I need a purpose for existing. Otherwise, I might as well die. If there is no purpose to this life, why should I even be here to begin with. I do not know or understand anything that is going on in this life. Am I meant to? Is it all meant to be understood in one fail swoop? I doubt it. I don't believe there are things to be believed based solely on faith alone. Tangible evidence needs to be made manifest in order to believe on some things. Yet here I am unable to determine which is best suited for any of it. I do not know or understand anything that is happening in this life. Nor do I think I ever will understand it. It will be a mystery to me for as long as I live. Am I willing to accept that and just live with that thought? I do not know.

Maybe I'm just not meant to know, and I have to act with faith. Perhaps that is all I need in this life. I cannot say that is the correct path for certain, but it seems like a place to start.

Suicidal Ideation

Over the years I've had to deal with suicidal ideation. Those are thoughts of being dead, some more extreme than others. It causes issues for me a lot of the time. It's not an easy thing to talk about at all. Here's what it is: Suicidal ideation ( suicidal thoughts ) are thoughts or ideas centered around death or suicide . Experiencing suicidal ideation doesn’t mean you’re going to kill yourself, but it can be a warning sign.

An Opposition In All Things

Long has been the story told about how there must be an opposition in all things. From the pre-existence there was Satan, Lucifer the Son of the Morning. In the beginning we were with God in his presence. We learned all we could while there. Until the moment we couldn’t progress any more, we were unable to become like God. So, we were given the opportunity to come to Earth to gain a body. A Savior would be provided to atone for our sins enabling us to come back to the presence of God. The idea that an opposition must be in all things comes from 2nd Nephi: For it must needs be, that there is an opposition in all things. If not so, my firstborn in the wilderness, righteousness could not be brought to pass, neither wickedness, neither holiness nor misery, neither good nor bad. Wherefore, all things must needs be a compound in one; wherefore, if it should be one body it must needs remain as dead, having no life neither death, nor corruption nor incorruption, happiness nor misery, neither...

Temptation Bible vs Book of Mormon

In the Bible in 1 Corinthians 10:13 we find: There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able ; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it. But what might seem as a contradiction is found in Alma 13:28 But that ye would humble yourselves before the Lord, and call on his holy name, and watch and pray continually, that ye may not be tempted above that which ye can bear , and thus be led by the Holy Spirit, becoming humble, meek, submissive, patient, full of love and all long-suffering; So, which is it? Either God tempts you to a point and stops, or you have to actively pray not to be tempted beyond that no return point. Which is it?

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